جيل واعي و لكن؟!؟!؟

Asma3 kalamik asada2k ashof amorak ast3geb?!?

Kuwaiti society, mashallah 3lyh, has two main characteristics that severely contradicts each other:

The first, it has so many short comings
The second, we all know about them!!!!

So when we all know that

-people will always look into your business, malagyf o bala’3at el shaf at full charge
-The way to go in Kuwait is to have wa96ah
-Driving in Kuwait is equivalent to committing suicide
-We are a racist nation
-People have double measures which they judge people by and judge themselves by

And the list never stops, and when you talk about them you’ll find the replay like this
-Yeah Yeah
-9ajjah
-Ee wallah
And added to it more live examples on their side of situations they have experienced, O b3deyn???

Elly I get is that people do know what’s wrong and what’s right, and would sit there talk for hours about idealism and the second they are in a situation they act exactly the opposite?!?!!? Shesalfah = what’s the deal??
Isn’t that called hypocorism?

And when you say, ya flan, tawek ga3ed etgool shay, sheno hatha ely ga3ed etsaweyh, eyyek el replay walla a7la:

-shino 7alal 3la ‘3yery 7aram 3lay?? “la wallah?!”
-that’s how things are!!! Wyenk mo 3aysh beldenyah?!
-Or those who start to give excuses to justify for them selves,
wallah spare me!!

No shame= ma yeste7on ?? So you can think and understand la o el moshkilah debate but when it comes to action, absher bel ‘7re6ey!!

Walla how we are supposed to make this country a place so we can all live?? 9ij ley galow deyrat ba6ye’7 mashyah 3l barakah!! Wa 7asratahhhhhhhhh,
mo elmafro’9 that we the youth are supposed to influence and shape the world around us?? "a'7af bs"

Bs leymeta??
أما ان الاون؟
(I try to avoid writing in arabic cause I’m not sure about the spilling “Wa fashlatahhhh”)

What if (me started hallucinating) every one 9ar she7lylah and do the right thing, go to work and work, be nice to people, quite sawalif wa96at and boog, if each one put a little effort form their side wallah one day you’ll wake up and this would be such a great place to live in, start with yourself
And enshallah we can make this is a better place… “shino hal 3aba6 ely ana fyh??”

Cheers,
O

P.S. maadrey shfeyney 9ayrah bitching wayed hal couple of days!!!

13-Oct-07

Drained out, wrapped up in sadness, over hearing the news over and over again coming from the next room and every time feels exactly like the first time….

But I can’t…
Tears are piling up and they won’t go down…
Cry is stuck in my throat and it won’t come out…
Questions flow from my mouth but the answers doesn’t change any thing….

When it comes so suddenly so un expecting, time stands still and all what you think of in great deal diminish and get trivialized…

What I’m really sad about, what am I scared of?
For him he’s gone and for their pain there is only time to heel it…

I look into myself and my life and all what I have is a single question,
What did I give to my life, true life,
And it’s not much

I’m only mourning myself now

This had happened before…
The first time I was baffled in bewilderment but strange how my understanding of it was so shallow

And it happened again…
There more things to take from it as one life departed it somehow made me responsible to make my life worth while

And again…
This time I’m more accepting but not satisfied with myself

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“The color of her eyes has faded but the glow is still there, she is in peace with her self, كل الي ايي من الله خير, she said”
الله يرحمه
enshallah….

It’s done and when it’s time then that’s it, you can’t bring a moment or delay a moment, that’s the time that we are allowed in life….
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The day before…
I was debating with my youngest brother whether to know when you are going to die or have it happening so suddenly

My argument was: I’d rather to know so I can say my goodbye and make amends and leave this world in peace

His replay was: you should always do that as you live not knowing when you’ll die

Me saying that: I think it’s like a sign from god so you can end your life in a better way

He replays: there was two brothers the youngest walks in to the mosque and finds his brother dead while praying, and he start crying ever so bad, people come and ask him to stop crying and that he should be happy for his brother that he died in such a way, he looks at them and tells them this:
“Ever since I was born my brothers life has been sinful in a way that is beyond imagination, I don’t even remember seeing him praying, and today from all the days his life is taken as he prays to Allah, that can only be from Gods mercy”
If god wants to send you a sign it can be in many ways

After that I had no replay…

You never know when it’s time to leave this earth and there is no better saying that comes to mind other than, أعمل لدنياك كأنك ستعيش أبداَ وأعمل لآخرتك كأنك ستموت غداَ.

We think of life and give it so much forgetting that it’s only the first part of our journey the part that would determine for us the rest of the way

{ قُلْ هَلْ نُنَبِّئُكُم بِٱلأَخْسَرِينَ أَعْمَالاً }
{ ٱلَّذِينَ ضَلَّ سَعْيُهُمْ فِي ٱلْحَيَاةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا وَهُمْ يَحْسَبُونَ أَنَّهُمْ يُحْسِنُونَ صُنْعاً }

New Look

This template may seems like it has absolutely nothing to do with anything but I had to select it out of frustration!!!
It’s been practically days that I’ve spent searching for a new template and I faced so much trouble:

1- going through templates and finding one I like (have been through hundreds walla)
2- trying them out, first I couldn’t make them work and it took me a full day to figure out what’s the trick, the magical button!!
3- When you try them out you lose all the layout added items : (
4- those I liked so much had many short comes, such as, they don’t provide you with comments option!!! They only appear for three quarters of the page, chenah design emga9mal!!, there is no options to add photos or links or anything just posts!!!
5- Those which actually work sucks, not even worth the trouble
Any ways I even thought of sticking with my old one but then said, No Way!!! I can’t, not after all that I've been through!!!

So here it is my new template which is 6ay7 men 3eyny because of it’s lack of functionality and enshallah I’m getting rid of it after having a break and finding a good functional template, of course I prefer performance over looks!!, but still it’s mine o ma ar’9a 3lyha :-P if there where many complaints regarding it, since you guys who are going to suffer given that you’ll deal with it, then I may consider taking it off sooner ;)

Cheers,
O

Update 9:23:

Just discovered that it doesn’t even support Arabic ; ( I officially hate it!!
It just keeps reminding me of Kuwaiti guys!!!!!

Second update 9:27:

Oppps, gues it does support Arabic :-P maskina ‘9almt_ha, ma adrey shfeyny elyom!!

3eydeyty, Some action

If any one had a one look on my face at that moment they would’ve known…

2:15 :’)
received the acceptance of my project upon three days of reviews, once I send the files enshallah I’ll be free and able to enjoy my holiday

2:17 :’(
as I was preparing the final files for submission….. guess what?? It’s not really hard wallah to guess,

over the years I’ve been going through the same lovely events, as if it’s a ritual, a tradition, as if it’s a part of all my projects ever since college, there is this kind of a magnet in my work that it self destruct and it just select the most perfect moment,

Yeah you are right, the software crashed!!!! How bloody typical, my usual self talk would contain sentence like,
this can’t be happening to me,
no no no,
and all those state of denial terms, this time for some reason it felt normal, I lost all access to my two weeks of work, there is no time for self talk, only action,

First question comes in to mind is, back up!!

"In colleague, I used to laugh at one of my professors, she had 5 different back up terms that are completely independent and unrelated starting with high tech ending with basic, Boy how wrong was I???!?!"

Going back to the back up, my last back up was dated October 8th, now my panic attack is at full charge!!!
I feel that I’ve experienced partial memory loss at that moment, what have I’ve done since Monday?? Tons of tiny little things

That’s the part which sucks about the way I work, start with the bulk do the main body then refine refine refine, how am I supposed to remember all those little tiny details I’ve been making??? God they are so many and all should be done like hmmm…. right now!!!!!

Prayers, lots of prayers, Oh god, what can I do? Should I tell my manager, I’ll blame him!! Don’t know why but it’s his fault!!!! Maly she’3el ;(

God I can’t think any more….

Tried again and again, checking back files, trying work around, every damn trick in the book,

And then al7mdellah ya rab, it worked :’) “currently suffering of post trauma symptoms manifesting them selves in the form of a category red headache”
Finally they got submitted….

Some of self assurance thoughts that I had as my ordeal was taking place:
That is a good thing, maybe I made a huge mistake and now when I redo it I’ll fix it, very lame,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to avoid a brutal accident by which I’d lose, esmellah 3lay, both my legs, so instead I’ll be stuck at home during 3eyd, that was a bit comforting,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to come back to the company next week where I’ll meet my future, my long waited one and only, that was a happy thought :’)

Happy 3eyd o enshallah kil 3am o ento eb’7yer :’)

Cheers,
O

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أبصروا النور فلم تعد الدنيا بعدهم كما كانت

1883 - Otto Heinrich Warburg, German physician, Nobel laureate
1895 - Juan Perón, President of Argentina
1895 - Zog I, King of Albania
1918 - Jens Christian Skou, Danish chemist, Nobel laureate
1927 - César Milstein, Argentine scientist, Nobel laureate
1948 - Pedro López, Colombian serial killer
1949 - Sigourney Weaver, American actress
1970 - Matt Damon, American actor
1982 – Maryam, Havenly Angel

HaPpY BiRtHdAy My SunShine :D

O’ Lady lighten our Darkness

What is a gift?

It’s a form of matter transformation that is directed from one person to an other

When you give a part of your time then you give part of your life
When you give a part of your attention then you give part of your thoughts
When you give a part of your laugh or cry then you give part of your soul
When you give a part of your positions then you are give part of your existence

When you love someone so much then you want to give them all you have,
Heart, mind and soul

There are people that are only apart of your path in life and there are people who are your true destination

My north star, where would I’ve been without your light….

I want to give you something, the best I can give of time
The best I can give of attention, the best I can give of positions,
Cause no one deserves as you

I look into my life and I know how truly I am blessed with your presence
In you a strength that pulls me through, genuine that makes me bold, and kindness that weakens and shake me to the core

I look up to you, did you know that?

The things you taught me by just being you, the shine that you’ve shed on my life the joy that you bring to my heart, there are humans who are not capable to ever bring one of them and yet you bring them all together so effortlessly

May god protect you my sweet Angel, I thank god for the ever bless of having you,

My greatest fear that cause we are only friends that the bond we have may end, but after all those years I know in my heart that what we share is far stronger than any bond could ever provide I wish that you know what you are to me,

Sitting in a hospital coffee shop, on a table waiting for my coffee to be ready, and I see a blind old man led by an Indian, must be his driver, feelings of anger rushed in to me, and I say to myself, could he have no one in his world to take his hand, how could someone he pays for worry about him, care about him, be gentle with him, or at least talk to him, and I looked again, this time the Indian left him standing there by him self as a hand slipped under his arm, standing close, lips whispering words and there he was a young man holding him leading the way walking by his side, and the care is overflowing, I couldn’t help but smile

That’s you to me Maryam :*

I love you,
Maha

My little life based conclusions

I’m back into studying Physics, linear Algebra, calculus and English grammar!!!
I guess enshallah from the look of it I’ll be repeating engineering classes again for the upcoming five years?!!?! My only hope is that if it’s going to be in an other discipline that I can at least get a certificate for it!!

So I’m taking a look at Newton’s third law:
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction

In The universe of physics the law is clear simple and you can fairly relay on it, but in the world of humans it’s never the case, your actions could have many reactions in result but none could ever fallow any law of nature so a look at some of what you may get in return for a an action

1- Nothing, some people would choose not to acknowledge your action as simple as that
2- A squared negative reaction, some people just over react
3- A reaction coming from un related parties, some people believe that they are the center of the universe and what ever you do is directed to them so they’d give themselves the right to react
4- A minimum reaction compared to your action, it happens when the two people involved don’t share the same definition of things
5- Even no actions at all can result in a reaction
6- A sequential events that would lead to your brutal death, “give me any situation and enshallah I’ll provide you with a scenario with the above stated end”

At school they teach us about objects and they miss out a very important thing, they don’t teach us about humans, and that’s the tricky part of living, there is no guide line no laws or steps, specially in this time and age when simple rules of ethics has diminished, it became harder and harder to deal with people

So in conclusion, for me just be who you are, do things and don’t expect something in return, because you can never control how people would receive things and react towards them, do it cause you want to that’s all

Cheers,
O

Mission Impossible!!!

I’ve been making consecutive shopping expeditions lately; the reason why they are consecutive is that I couldn’t find ANY thing to buy, at all!!

The styles are terrible the fabrics, texture and colors are pathetic and don’t get me even started on the prices!!

I look at the price tag and I wonder “Hmmm, what this figure could be? Is it the piece number? Is it the bar code?” of course after I thoroughly investigate the tag I discover, “well no sweety, it’s actually the price!” then I make more wonders “Is there a decimal point? Is this in Kuwaiti Dinars?”
El mo9eybah I wish it’s worth even 10% of the price associated with it!
Elmo9eybah^2 there are ppl who are actually buying it!!

In the states there was a Dolce and Gabbana coat, when ey’9eyg ‘7elgey I walk to the mall to stare at it, it was so beautiful I couldn’t dare to put it on, it was 3000$ ya3ney 1000Kd, wallah it was worth every penny, Black with tiger prints inside, this was the only time I saw tiger prints and marveled them, the design was so feminine, faltering and seductive, note I’m talking about only the coat, I even considered to buy it, and wear it every day and wouldn’t take it off!! But come one woman a coat in Kuwait?!!?

After total mall-shops grand disappointments, I walked the extra mile and I’ve done some visits to what you can call Kuwaiti designers/stores, this has been challenging, first conducted a wide search for such places and personal inquiries, second as I have no sense of directions, to get to a new place based on wa9f was such a pain in the a$#, any ways I’ve made it and what do I find?? Do I need to continue or you can imagine? To bring the image closer I’ve used the F word in every single time I step a foot in one of those so called stores

Do I come from Mars? Was I in a coma and missed out an entire taste shift in fashion?
Is the question, what is wrong with you ppl? Is actually, what is wrong with me?
I really can’t figure it out!!! It’s ‘7alageyn out there!!

I hold the price tag of a dress and it reads 37 and then an army of question marks invaded my face?????? How come, first that can’t be the size, it has to be even number, then what is this tag connected to? Maybe it’s for the belt? There is no belt, how strange!! Only 37???! My question marks are replaced with a smile as I discover that my thumb was hiding the zero, :’) yeah that makes sense it’s 370 kd, yeah right!!!

Wala as long as the sense of style is like this, I should quite my job, get me couple of tailors, walla why bring them, I can use the ones working at the co-op branch, and get some low3ah fabrics, I don’t even have to look for a design or size just ay shay then sell that piece in a ridicules price, boy I’ll make a fortune!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Any advice about a good shop, ana ra’9yah 7ata low fyh one good piece, not a wow but at least wearab!