13-Oct-07

Drained out, wrapped up in sadness, over hearing the news over and over again coming from the next room and every time feels exactly like the first time….

But I can’t…
Tears are piling up and they won’t go down…
Cry is stuck in my throat and it won’t come out…
Questions flow from my mouth but the answers doesn’t change any thing….

When it comes so suddenly so un expecting, time stands still and all what you think of in great deal diminish and get trivialized…

What I’m really sad about, what am I scared of?
For him he’s gone and for their pain there is only time to heel it…

I look into myself and my life and all what I have is a single question,
What did I give to my life, true life,
And it’s not much

I’m only mourning myself now

This had happened before…
The first time I was baffled in bewilderment but strange how my understanding of it was so shallow

And it happened again…
There more things to take from it as one life departed it somehow made me responsible to make my life worth while

And again…
This time I’m more accepting but not satisfied with myself

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“The color of her eyes has faded but the glow is still there, she is in peace with her self, كل الي ايي من الله خير, she said”
الله يرحمه
enshallah….

It’s done and when it’s time then that’s it, you can’t bring a moment or delay a moment, that’s the time that we are allowed in life….
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The day before…
I was debating with my youngest brother whether to know when you are going to die or have it happening so suddenly

My argument was: I’d rather to know so I can say my goodbye and make amends and leave this world in peace

His replay was: you should always do that as you live not knowing when you’ll die

Me saying that: I think it’s like a sign from god so you can end your life in a better way

He replays: there was two brothers the youngest walks in to the mosque and finds his brother dead while praying, and he start crying ever so bad, people come and ask him to stop crying and that he should be happy for his brother that he died in such a way, he looks at them and tells them this:
“Ever since I was born my brothers life has been sinful in a way that is beyond imagination, I don’t even remember seeing him praying, and today from all the days his life is taken as he prays to Allah, that can only be from Gods mercy”
If god wants to send you a sign it can be in many ways

After that I had no replay…

You never know when it’s time to leave this earth and there is no better saying that comes to mind other than, أعمل لدنياك كأنك ستعيش أبداَ وأعمل لآخرتك كأنك ستموت غداَ.

We think of life and give it so much forgetting that it’s only the first part of our journey the part that would determine for us the rest of the way

{ قُلْ هَلْ نُنَبِّئُكُم بِٱلأَخْسَرِينَ أَعْمَالاً }
{ ٱلَّذِينَ ضَلَّ سَعْيُهُمْ فِي ٱلْحَيَاةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا وَهُمْ يَحْسَبُونَ أَنَّهُمْ يُحْسِنُونَ صُنْعاً }

Mission Impossible!!!

I’ve been making consecutive shopping expeditions lately; the reason why they are consecutive is that I couldn’t find ANY thing to buy, at all!!

The styles are terrible the fabrics, texture and colors are pathetic and don’t get me even started on the prices!!

I look at the price tag and I wonder “Hmmm, what this figure could be? Is it the piece number? Is it the bar code?” of course after I thoroughly investigate the tag I discover, “well no sweety, it’s actually the price!” then I make more wonders “Is there a decimal point? Is this in Kuwaiti Dinars?”
El mo9eybah I wish it’s worth even 10% of the price associated with it!
Elmo9eybah^2 there are ppl who are actually buying it!!

In the states there was a Dolce and Gabbana coat, when ey’9eyg ‘7elgey I walk to the mall to stare at it, it was so beautiful I couldn’t dare to put it on, it was 3000$ ya3ney 1000Kd, wallah it was worth every penny, Black with tiger prints inside, this was the only time I saw tiger prints and marveled them, the design was so feminine, faltering and seductive, note I’m talking about only the coat, I even considered to buy it, and wear it every day and wouldn’t take it off!! But come one woman a coat in Kuwait?!!?

After total mall-shops grand disappointments, I walked the extra mile and I’ve done some visits to what you can call Kuwaiti designers/stores, this has been challenging, first conducted a wide search for such places and personal inquiries, second as I have no sense of directions, to get to a new place based on wa9f was such a pain in the a$#, any ways I’ve made it and what do I find?? Do I need to continue or you can imagine? To bring the image closer I’ve used the F word in every single time I step a foot in one of those so called stores

Do I come from Mars? Was I in a coma and missed out an entire taste shift in fashion?
Is the question, what is wrong with you ppl? Is actually, what is wrong with me?
I really can’t figure it out!!! It’s ‘7alageyn out there!!

I hold the price tag of a dress and it reads 37 and then an army of question marks invaded my face?????? How come, first that can’t be the size, it has to be even number, then what is this tag connected to? Maybe it’s for the belt? There is no belt, how strange!! Only 37???! My question marks are replaced with a smile as I discover that my thumb was hiding the zero, :’) yeah that makes sense it’s 370 kd, yeah right!!!

Wala as long as the sense of style is like this, I should quite my job, get me couple of tailors, walla why bring them, I can use the ones working at the co-op branch, and get some low3ah fabrics, I don’t even have to look for a design or size just ay shay then sell that piece in a ridicules price, boy I’ll make a fortune!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Any advice about a good shop, ana ra’9yah 7ata low fyh one good piece, not a wow but at least wearab!

...مراسي غربتي

I started out this month with the post “Straight, Single and Senny Valentino” ridiculing the guys that we have in the sa7ah, and having a wish to find a good one…

Currently,

I moved on to sleep in the middle of the bed, happened sometime last weekend, for the past decade or so I’ve concurred the right side of the bed, my spot, my little version of the “elwesadah el’7aleyah” movie, miss Girly and Dreamy typical behavior,

some time this year my convicted romanticism has withered with some reality checks and I day by day have lost my appetite for romance, my dear sweet Mirandarousa has made an attempt to revive my beating heart and oh she nailed me, got me …. Back to my old state of mind, but as time goes by I’ve surrendered again….

I’d really like to rationalize this and most importantly to segregate any conclusion from the usual concepts that our beloved society’s culture impose on our poor minds, so let me just go with the flow of my ideas,

Yes I admit, like any other straight adult female I’d like to have a male companion, not for the, you know what, but for all those things that you can only get from your opposite sex, for me as a female, I’d like care, tenderness accompanied with strength and wisdom, light soul, simple and clear values,

I want to walk with you hand in hand…

Not to be able to experience the touch of a male companion in my life became my number one reason for all the sadness I’m going through, I blame it for everything even a red traffic light!!

That’s so not me, it didn’t matter that much before, it was like a wish, a little something extra, but never like I’m missing a leg,

Void I find in me, even with every moment in my day is occupied, still there is loss and emptiness, and I keep hanging all my shortcomings all my negative feelings all my unhappiness on that missing touch

I want to put my head on your shoulder….

I know that I can’t plan for, work for, search for, that I can’t do any thing about it, it’s fate!

Ideas keep juggling me back and forth, that didn’t bother me, at least not this much, before, a question keeps repeating it self in my head,

Will I ever have you?

Dismissing those ideas in the past was easy, I could even laugh them out, or create a very dreadful scenario that makes me thankful for not having a male companion, that is not working for me any more, I need something stronger, maybe a slap on my face and a good shake added with a screaming voice: WOMAN WAKE UP!!!

The above could be a good blend of post illness + pre period depression with a touch of frustration after a two consecutive failing shopping expeditions

I feel like a sand lost in a desert yearning to find the sea… to be touched by the waves

Will I ever be found?

Lost,
O

Will I ever get used to this?

My brother fractured his foot bone, he was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance last night during his working shift, and they had to put a cast on it, so we swapped parking spots he took the one on the back of the house and I took the one in front,
“The back of our house is facing the mosque”

So after work today I got him a cane so he can support him self on it and on the way I got myself my favorite delicious Znood :D

Parked the car got the stuff out and walked into the house, it took me couple of minutes to reach my room cause I had to pass by the kitchen, and as I just stepped in my mom fallowed me

Mom, Do you know who just called?
Me, who?
Mom, our neighbor!! “there house is the one next the house opposite to ours”
Me, and??
Mom, she called to ask what are you doing with the cane????
Me, !!!!!! Middaha?? Mita?? What ??! there was no one in the street, it’s 43 degrees out there!!!
Then I remembered el be3thah el da2mah for KUNA, she is watching over from borg el moragabah!!!

It’s been 12 days since Ramadan started, you didn’t bother your self to pick up the phone to congrat on the holly month, and the second you see me with a cane you call in the speed of lightning??!?

Walla seriously woman, get a life!!
It’s for you they have invented something called tv, watch it!!
And if you like to watch “live” events, try out football matches and game shows,

Ely ba6 chabdey that setrey 3la nafsich, don’t let us know that you are watching us!! She acted as if it was her God Given Right to know, woman it’s OUR business, if we came asking for your help then ask, but no one das lich 3la 6araf!!

Kuwaitis they can’t get enough, if some one stopped in the right side of the street, every one on that street and the street next to them, meaning all four lanes and the opposite four lanes would stop to see what’s going on, even if it was accident, they wouldn’t go and help, no god forbids, just watch, have an event for today, something happened and they got to see it, and by that it comes out of the harmless and annoying, it becomes harmful and sometimes lethal!!

Seriously, she_elsalfah, shino hal legafah el zaydah?!!?!
Is it in the genes? Is it a law that they have to obey it or they’ll get a ticket – o ana ma adrey - ?
Or is it that their lives so damn empty all they can do is watch over others!!!

I keep thinking “sitting by the window and having her phone in her lap” I won’t be surprised if she has a magnifying glass + night vision equipment!!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Allah ey3eyney I'll be parking over there for a whole month!

My Most Precious Positions

Screaming, as two men, one is huge grapping me from behind, the other trying to release my fist,
“you can cut my hands off before you take my USB!!”
Woman!! What’s wrong with you?!, BTW it’s your hand we are talking about!!
As he almost broke my fingers open, took my USB and my Showtime subscription ;-(
Walla I’m starting to consider the messages sent by my inner brain,

Allah yer7am el days when my dreams, where lovely and they’ve made sweet stories

Back in 2006

Living with people in the desert, in a far away time,
they have a special day of the year they call it energy day in it all unmarried people would go out in the desert and find their source of energy, I went out and as I walked I saw a stream of water and stepped in,

And there I found my peace my serenity, then draw nearer a man who saw me,

So for him to experience my small spot he had to be really close,
then he went on to trace the source of water,
I was with him walking in his direction,
but I realized I was floating so I turned around and told him that I’m walking on air and he looked at me and smiled,
he was carrying me all the way,

after a while the day has ended and they started to call out the people to come back,
as we returned people greeted my guy and I discovered that he was the prince

so what happens next is that every one must go rest and get prepared for the night where each bachelor will announce his bride

The night came and we started to enter the grand tent, when I entered there was something wearied going on,
there was another girl who was setting next to my prince and when I approached him he looked at me and he was unhappy then I stopped and he stopped to announce his bride and it wasn’t me, it was the other girl,

Out of the tent I ran and ran in to the desert because when I walked out one of the prince body guards followed me so I wanted to hide from him and I saw in the distance a tenet of an other country and went to hide inside,

the other side of it was magical and I was able to see what happened in the past and what is happening in the present,

That afternoon as the prince was resting in his tenet he received a poem that gives him direction to marry the other girl and that was a promise made by his father and he must obey,
After I left he went after me and then I saw the body guard trying to enter the tenet where I went but a massive fire happened and the people who own this tenet required help so they told the prince about the fire and he helped them but they couldn’t find me so they all thought I was dead

And the prince heart was broken and I stayed trapped looking over him always

Cheers,
O

Still

Back to Ahmadi, again!, to avoid the madness, this time through 9ab7an,
there was something in the still distance of the ever yellow desert,
water was over flowing from the ground,
and a pool was forming as the water kept on pouring from that square hole,

I wanted to call 777 to tell them about it, so they can come and do something, but I didn’t, remembering few incidents with the “defenders of the weak” made me think of all possible excuses not to call, I came up with a couple:

What if by the time they arrive “if ever” the water finish!! ey’7ali9 and with our sun, it will be dried in no time, if I get to make those people come here without finding any thing they’d probably charge me with “ez3ag solo6at” !! mesakien I made them move!!!

It’s happening in the desert why can’t I let the poor land drink some water, it must be really thirsty

By the time I’ve reached the second excuse I’ve already passed it by and without doing anything (shame on me)

…….

Walking in to the office and “he” was sitting there wearing a red polo shirt listening to M7md 3bd elwahab, Ana w el 3aZab w hawak = Me and the suffering and your love, I looked at him

“I didn’t know…”
“don’t think I’ll be in pain, not any more, I’m sending you off, for a year on the other end of the world”
“will I be back?”

I woke up, god that was scarey!!! I guess that was coming from my feeling of guilt,
If I hate someone, I believe that gives them the absolute right to hate me back, but to love me as I hate them, that is just unfair,
I was asking god that eysa’7rah ley
Bas ‘7ala9, 6ofart minah, athaney
And there is no way I can think of or imagine to deal with this person!!!

My work has a great area in my life, and as he exists in it, then he exists in my life,
Oh my god what can I do??!!?!? ;-(

……

Taking cautious steps and searching for them, looking in to the faces of woman, spreading around setting on the floor, in front of each a plastic cup of water and few dates, some would have a piece of bred others would hold in there hands leaves of ray7an, and it’s so calm, I can’t hear what they say as if it’s a still picture,
Young women holding their child to their breasts,
Old women setting quietly leaning to the grand columns,
Some women would go around to give, water, food, a smile
It’s time now, I couldn’t find them, I walk back to my place,

Standing by my side, I hear a trembling voice, a cry and a prayer, I can hear what she is asking, I know what she is praying for and my heart cries with her a silent cry, pleading for her daughter, may god answer your prayers dear mother…

And we pray,
with each movement, I hear the clouds moving,
the sound when they are racing before a storm,
and it’s glory alarms my heart, in an instant tranquility, and I blend in…

Hands reaching, grapping the black fabric, holding, unyielding, it’s so great and powerful, beyond sound, beyond tears, I see the cry in their tightened hands

Cheers,
O

A Journey of Soul Healing - Enshallah

Enshallah I’ll off to Holy Makkah in few hours,

No more work!! Meaning any work related;
emails,
phone calls,
meetings,
requests,
enshallah none of the above!!
(Oh My God, is this what my life turned to?! Work orinted!! Yakh)

Expected to be back enshallah on Saturday night

Interruption:

I need to break down…
I need to cry…
I need to let my weakness take over me…

To be separated from the world and just be by my self

How selfish my reasons are

People would go to ask
For forgiveness
For mercy
For happiness
For health
For heaven

And I ask
To be comforted
To take off the weight I have on my shoulders
To make sense of life
So I can go on
So I can understand
So I can accept what’s destined
So I can live

Take Care,

O

الوداع

حبيبي لقد حانت لحظة الوداع

اغرق في ذكريات لقائنا الاول

منذ اربعة اعوام حين التقينا
استقريت في مكاني احدق بك لا يسعني الا النظر اليك

ساكنه لا تتحرك الا عيناي تتبعك حتى تحفظ ادق تفاصليك

شاركتني كل شيئ

لم نفترق الا لايام يملئني فيها الشوق فاعود اليك

انت يا رفيق دربي كم اعشقك

ساذكرك دائما عندما تمطر, كم كنا نحب المطر

كيف كان يجمعنا و يعزلنا عن العالم

يا من كنت اركض اليه, حتى اختبئ في حضنه الدافئ

لقد كنت لي ملجئا و مهربا

لقد كنت الاول و ذالك لن بغيره شيئ ابدا

ستظل دائما بقلبي ترسم ذكرياتك الابتسامة على شفتي

و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا يوما

فيك قوتي فكم يكيت على ذراعيك حتى جف دمعي

فيك راحتي فكم حملتك من اعبائي و اسراري

كم قسوت عليك و حملتك اكثر مما تتحمل و مع ذلك لم تخذلني يوما

فالعذر كل ما اطلب منك الان

القدر الذي جمعنا جاء الان حتى يفرق بيننا

لن تكون بعيدا فعنوانك هنا في صدري

ساشتاق اليك في كل صباح, دوما

و ان التقينا يوما ساغمرك بابتسامتي

و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا, كنت لي و كنت لك لن يستطيع الفراق ان يغير ذلك

اليوم كل منا يسير في طريقه من غير الاخر

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ازف الرحيل و حان ان نتفرقا

فالى اللقا يا صاحبي الى اللقا

ان تبكيا فلقد بكيت من الاسى

حتى لكدت بادمعي ان اغرقا

و تسعرت عند الوداع اضلعي

نارخشيت بحرها ان احرقا

مازلت اخشى البين قبل وقوعه

حتى غدوت و ليس لي ان افرقا

يوم النوى, لله ما اقسى النوى

لولا النوى ما ابغضت نفسي البقا

رحنا حيارى صامتين كانما

للهول نحذر عنده ان ننطقا

اكبادنا خفاقه و عيوننا

لا تستطيع من البكا ان ترمقا

نتجاذب النظرات وهي ضعيفة

و نغالب الانفاس كيلا تزهقا

لو لم نعلل باللقاء نفوسنا

كادت مع العبرات ان تتدفقا

يا صاحبي تصبرا فلربما

عدنا و عاد الشمل ابهى رونقا

ان كانت الايام لم ترفق بنا

فمن النهى بنفوسنا ان نرفقا

ان الذي قدر القطيعة و النوى

!!..في وسعه ان يجمعع المتفرقا

حبيبي اتمنى لك كل الخير

الى" بعيري" سيارتي

...سافتقدك
مها

للبيع جيب ذهبي بحاله ممتازه مديل 2003 ماشي 100,000 P.S.

من ديوان ابي ماضي – وداع و شكوى*

Straight, Single & Senney Valentino

All good guys are taken by now “I’m only talking about specifically my age group”
What’s left is the following:

What men are and that’s divided to what they think they are and what they really are;

They all have girlfriend(s) each one would have more than one

Kings on earth for the sole reason he is a man

Knows every thing and understand everything, yes Einstein

Life is simple for him cause he already got it all figured out

Having no goals, shino ya3ney having no goals?!, they have goals many goals al7yen he goes and he makes goals for you bel sekkah!!!

His long distanced desire, weyn ba6la3 el yom?

Has no degree, why should he eyta3eb nafsah having education and learning to get a degree, don’t you know that he has connections?!

His hobby, Dewaneyah, mo’7ayam, Shalaih, 7oby those are places not activities, give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him what do you do in those places?
Swalif, nel3ab Koot bo 6, eat, ne’9’3a6 ba3a’9, hmmm ee that’s about it
OH MY GOD Impressive!!!

Sports?? That’s a very very stupid question; only take a look at the places they park their cars to avoid walking for three lousy steps!!!

Any ideas, point of views about hmmm, give them a brake and let the question broad maybe they have something, any thing? The simple answer would be, why?

Reading? He doesn’t even read signs Mr. Know it all, would you honestly think that he’d read a book!!

He is always busy and has no time, I’d love to know what the hell he does in that time, wild guess, staring and gossiping, hmm yes someone has to do it in this country!!

Thinking that who speaks English are show offs and eytefalsfoon, not human being with an ability to actually speak and communicate in different language, baby you from all people should know how hard is that since it’s hard enough for you to speak in one!!

Ultimate success, having a paying job with no work to do for it

Their definition of manhood, the guy who can swear, hit, drive fast and have his womEn

What men want is:

Wa7dah that “Onothah 6a’3yah” 7ata low ohwa se7t eyeb elma7ey, excuse me never heard of a show called “extreme make over”??? External beauty can be achieved within 6 weeks my darling

Te6ba’7 is her most important asset, yal el3abgarey, in your life time at your house ma yebtow a maid who even doesn’t speak the language ma ta3lmt el cocking ehya and that goes on for the 6baby’7 too, males and females, tra it’s not making split of the atom!!

And goes without saying “no active brain” shay yeg3ad ey6al3ah o yeg3ad eyetkalam o eytekalam o ehya by all means ma etred wala et7achah o laykon she has an opinion, shino hatha b3d? hatha ely nagi9!! ohwa bs ely ey3aref kil shay entay Female tadreyn shino F.E.male???
For Entertaining Male
O bas!!

Wala enta ely have no idea what female is, and honestly there is no point in telling you cause it’s a waste of breath!! But there are things you need to know:

1)First of all F.E.M.A.L.E 3la goltik stands for;

Fundemental Element for Mankind to Acquire Life on Earth!!!

2)Body is a container, its fragile so fragile that any object can tare it apart and get your sole out of it, when you are with a human any human their body mo elley is talking to you or comforting you or making you feel, “people are felt rather seen after the first few moments*”,
Our remaining guys as if mo shayfeyn ‘7yer their time span lasts more than moments, may’7alif, but it does vanish that initial infatuation of looks,

After that you’ll find out that looks is not funny or caring, body is not warm, it’s not in the touch its in the way you touch, beauty is not in the eye, it’s the way you look, 3ayal imagine beautiful eyes with dirty looks, dirty meaning hating and degrading mo ….,

3) do you know how God judge us?? By our acts hon, do you know how people make actions and decisions? By something known as thoughts, do you know what’s collective thoughts of different life aspects would make? Personality
yes that’s right, that’s where you have your values, ideas, hopes, aspiration, character, uniqueness and in it all a power is formed and can be converted in to something valuable called LIFE, guess that’s too much for you to process in one day!!!

Wake up guys and somehow in this country you have been given a power, o el9ara7ah who is left are so not kaffow, to make the choice, looks wont stand by your side, it’s the person within if that’s what you are looking for still, then that’s what you totally deserve and thanks for making your self so identifiable so that you can be easily avoided!!

A wish:

I’ve retired of being a helpless romantic, but in my heart I'd like to make this wish, that I’d know or hear or see a guy that is admirable and fascinating, just to know that he exists,

back in the years when I was in the romanticize service, I use to think that, as in this time and age god has made someone like me, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be a male like me too? And that gave me hope but didn’t last long,

now I need that hope back even if I don’t get that guy, it would be such a relief to know that a guy exists,

someone true, caring, knows who he is and what he wants to be, has his own mind, someone who believes in god, that you can carry on with a conversation that would result of something even if it was as simple as a genuine smile, that you can depend on, some one who’d never look down to you just because you are a woman, who’d see in your growth and success an added value to you and to the relationship, someone who’d respect you even if he didn’t agree with you, someone who’d make you an equal and a priority not some sort of accessory, and why can’t he be that in an acceptable package, we work on ourselves to look nice can’t he?

Is it too much to ask?
O

*East of Eden by John Steinbeck

Little things...

I can't put my finger on what's really different about today, I guess I'm free!!
Woke up early this morning, with a clear mind, light soul and full with energy, sorted out the piles of clothes that I throw around in my room while listening to music and taking dancing breaks in between,

got out of the house shopped for pillows and bed sheets, got my self a pedicure, and made a decision about my perfume dilemma; should I stay with cinema or shift to flower bomb? I shifted :') I had a smile on my face the whole time, and I said salam to strangers, that’s something, cause I always make it a battle in mind should I say it or not? Would they replay me or not? By the time I reach the second question the moment had passed already and I sink with guilt,

Today no questions or hesitations, it just didn't matter, Today it's about acting!! Madrey what could it be what caused my liberation, is it that new book? Is it about my dream having two sweet children a boy and a girl whom I was fighting for their custody and their grandfathers debating that I can't take them cause I can't speak their language!! It turned out that my kids spoke Urdu!! The father hasn't appeared in the entire dream, I really wanted to meet the guy, or that yesterday I got a gift from my brother, heart shaped necklace with my name on it, this is the third time I get this exact gift, but the other two were from my other brothers, the thought that they all got the same thing over and over again was a delight :') is it that when I thought I lost some something last night god has send me who found it without me moving a muscle or asking for help?

Walla madrey, but I feel fortunate and content Today, with my mood swings god only knows what I'll feel tomorrow, but today al7mdellah it's beautiful and just perfect, Hope every one have a great day too every day :D

Cheers,
O

Last night...

I had a sudden feeling of discomfort some alarming cry inside of me saying that the time is passing and passing really fast and I’m no where near what I want to reach, usual symptoms of a classic panic attack,

so after squash I thought I need to take a walk by the see to clear my mind and think out loud, as I was walking I stumbled by a fishing net which cut of my string of thoughts for few minutes tell I set my self free, and then drowned back in my thoughts and worries,

as the tide was جزر in the distance I could see a cement port immerging from the water, I walked to it and I started walking inside reaching the edge looking at the black see dark and dead, I stood there thinking of the unknown of tomorrow and what tomorrow may bring,
my anxiety grew more and more so I turned back and started walking towards the shore, at that moment my thoughts has changed I become so alert and there was one though crossing my mind and it kept repeating it self “I’m not falling, I’m not falling, I’m not falling” as my face came closer and closer to the ground, Yes I slept and fall on my A** !! Lying there on that concrete floor wet and covered with traces sand, I started laughing, yes it’s my luck how can I escape it, it’s better that I just take in,

I laughed so hard that the smile stayed with me till this morning of course the fall pain is multiplied by the next day so I have a souring pain in my B*** to better describe it, you know when you get injection over there and you can’t sit? That’s exactly how it feels
I better quite worrying so much beside you never know what may cross your way, the most important thing is that you live it, cause it’s totally yours :D

Cheers,
O

Advice

I thought to my self, given the knowledge and understanding you have right now what could you have done differently in your life?

The way this question formed is that my brother got accepted in engineering :D and I need to provide him with advice as I have been entitled as the highest ranking consultants for his excellency :-P

Oh my god seven years has passed already, I’d say in my case what I came to learn in my college years is rather minimum compared to what I’ve learned and understood in my working years, but collectively I couldn’t have done one without the other

So beside the usual advice about the subjects, classes, studying, major and grades, I’d say by far relationships and communication skills is what you need to get out of that experience, in that rather limited controlled place you are allowed to meet people and have the chance to interact with them and start to learn more about human nature, in this place among the other students there is the equality factor which will disappear once you enroll in the working force as you’ll have to deal with people who unfortunately would actually have a saying on your working life whether you liked it or not

So as a person who has a gifted nature in making enemies in every place I step a foot in, my advice is develop your communication skills,
listen and listen carefully, you are still a young human what ever you think you know is still quite limited, take in all you can first and speak later,
understand the differences between humans, believe me, it’s rear that you’ll come across someone who would think the same as you are,
people understanding varies so be patient, people invented the word NO for a reason so use it,
when you have a problem speak out, consultation and advice can take you a long way,
after words the way that you present your self and your ideas and how you deal with people is your greatest asset, take my word for it, it’s more important than your certificate,
communication, debate and presentation, even if you all have the same answers, those three would make you or break you,
and finally the best place to develop leadership skills is there so maximize the value of the opportunity and make it a full learning experience

on the other hand, never, never and never neglect your relations for school always make time for human relations that really what matters and you can learn a thing or two from them

Set your priorities straight, you need to figure out for your self what matters the most in life, the only way you’d appreciate it is by finding it out by yourself

May God be with you and protect you always my Brother :*

Cheers,
Oryx

P.S. Don’t spend the next 5 years enshallah eating burgers!!

Childhood

In my world my experience, just as I believe every one else is, has been developed through environment and other people direct or indirect actions

Fortunately being born at the 80’s in Kuwait actually got me a childhood, where we used to be normal kids watching cartoons and playing games out in the 7owsh with other kids, ultimate happiness would be by receiving a heart shaped lollypop from great grandma, looking for spider webs in the bricks of the old house and tearing them apart, believing every thing we were told like “if you lied and go to sleep you’ll wake up with a tail!!” that’s creepy, reading my first story “Florence Nightingale” losing my teeth “the seen wasn’t that lovely” and getting the famous question “how many windows have you got?”

Thank god for that

Now in Kuwait there is no more kids, you walk around and a 13 year old would dress up like a 25 year old plus the attitude!!
Seriously what went wrong???

I feel sorry for them; I really can’t see how they’d grow up to be adult humans, while they are skipping an entire decade of their lives, becoming copy cats of others

That’s a serious issue thinking that this upcoming generation would rule us one day, hell no I don’t want to be here when that happens, it’s not that hard to point the finger on who is to blame on that, I think it’s mostly the parents and yes call it conspiracy theory but I’d also blame greed,

those companies who can’t let an entire population out of reach and would like to market their products to them regardless of any measure other than they are moving loads of cash, and it’s not just the traders also the media, we live in the time and age where concepts of wrong and right has vanished where every one going for the fast lane, and that subsequently has corrupted the lives of our new coming humans

But still the responsibility for raising those kids falls on the parents, and yes now they have more challenging task to protect their kids, instead the new definition of Kuwaiti parents are Kumar the driver and Mary the maid and by the time they hit 13 they are on their own if not earlier,

god have mercy on our souls, if you guys are not up to the responsibility of having kids please don’t bring them!!

Cheers,
O