Asma3 kalamik asada2k ashof amorak ast3geb?!?
Kuwaiti society, mashallah 3lyh, has two main characteristics that severely contradicts each other:
The first, it has so many short comings
The second, we all know about them!!!!
So when we all know that
-people will always look into your business, malagyf o bala’3at el shaf at full charge
-The way to go in Kuwait is to have wa96ah
-Driving in Kuwait is equivalent to committing suicide
-We are a racist nation
-People have double measures which they judge people by and judge themselves by
And the list never stops, and when you talk about them you’ll find the replay like this
-Yeah Yeah
-9ajjah
-Ee wallah
And added to it more live examples on their side of situations they have experienced, O b3deyn???
Elly I get is that people do know what’s wrong and what’s right, and would sit there talk for hours about idealism and the second they are in a situation they act exactly the opposite?!?!!? Shesalfah = what’s the deal??
Isn’t that called hypocorism?
And when you say, ya flan, tawek ga3ed etgool shay, sheno hatha ely ga3ed etsaweyh, eyyek el replay walla a7la:
-shino 7alal 3la ‘3yery 7aram 3lay?? “la wallah?!”
-that’s how things are!!! Wyenk mo 3aysh beldenyah?!
-Or those who start to give excuses to justify for them selves,
wallah spare me!!
No shame= ma yeste7on ?? So you can think and understand la o el moshkilah debate but when it comes to action, absher bel ‘7re6ey!!
Walla how we are supposed to make this country a place so we can all live?? 9ij ley galow deyrat ba6ye’7 mashyah 3l barakah!! Wa 7asratahhhhhhhhh,
mo elmafro’9 that we the youth are supposed to influence and shape the world around us?? "a'7af bs"
Bs leymeta??
أما ان الاون؟
(I try to avoid writing in arabic cause I’m not sure about the spilling “Wa fashlatahhhh”)
What if (me started hallucinating) every one 9ar she7lylah and do the right thing, go to work and work, be nice to people, quite sawalif wa96at and boog, if each one put a little effort form their side wallah one day you’ll wake up and this would be such a great place to live in, start with yourself
And enshallah we can make this is a better place… “shino hal 3aba6 ely ana fyh??”
Cheers,
O
P.S. maadrey shfeyney 9ayrah bitching wayed hal couple of days!!!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
13-Oct-07
Drained out, wrapped up in sadness, over hearing the news over and over again coming from the next room and every time feels exactly like the first time….
But I can’t…
Tears are piling up and they won’t go down…
Cry is stuck in my throat and it won’t come out…
Questions flow from my mouth but the answers doesn’t change any thing….
When it comes so suddenly so un expecting, time stands still and all what you think of in great deal diminish and get trivialized…
What I’m really sad about, what am I scared of?
For him he’s gone and for their pain there is only time to heel it…
I look into myself and my life and all what I have is a single question,
What did I give to my life, true life,
And it’s not much
I’m only mourning myself now
This had happened before…
The first time I was baffled in bewilderment but strange how my understanding of it was so shallow
And it happened again…
There more things to take from it as one life departed it somehow made me responsible to make my life worth while
And again…
This time I’m more accepting but not satisfied with myself
------
“The color of her eyes has faded but the glow is still there, she is in peace with her self, كل الي ايي من الله خير, she said”
الله يرحمه
enshallah….
It’s done and when it’s time then that’s it, you can’t bring a moment or delay a moment, that’s the time that we are allowed in life….
------
The day before…
I was debating with my youngest brother whether to know when you are going to die or have it happening so suddenly
My argument was: I’d rather to know so I can say my goodbye and make amends and leave this world in peace
His replay was: you should always do that as you live not knowing when you’ll die
Me saying that: I think it’s like a sign from god so you can end your life in a better way
He replays: there was two brothers the youngest walks in to the mosque and finds his brother dead while praying, and he start crying ever so bad, people come and ask him to stop crying and that he should be happy for his brother that he died in such a way, he looks at them and tells them this:
“Ever since I was born my brothers life has been sinful in a way that is beyond imagination, I don’t even remember seeing him praying, and today from all the days his life is taken as he prays to Allah, that can only be from Gods mercy”
If god wants to send you a sign it can be in many ways
After that I had no replay…
You never know when it’s time to leave this earth and there is no better saying that comes to mind other than, أعمل لدنياك كأنك ستعيش أبداَ وأعمل لآخرتك كأنك ستموت غداَ.
We think of life and give it so much forgetting that it’s only the first part of our journey the part that would determine for us the rest of the way
{ قُلْ هَلْ نُنَبِّئُكُم بِٱلأَخْسَرِينَ أَعْمَالاً }
{ ٱلَّذِينَ ضَلَّ سَعْيُهُمْ فِي ٱلْحَيَاةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا وَهُمْ يَحْسَبُونَ أَنَّهُمْ يُحْسِنُونَ صُنْعاً }
But I can’t…
Tears are piling up and they won’t go down…
Cry is stuck in my throat and it won’t come out…
Questions flow from my mouth but the answers doesn’t change any thing….
When it comes so suddenly so un expecting, time stands still and all what you think of in great deal diminish and get trivialized…
What I’m really sad about, what am I scared of?
For him he’s gone and for their pain there is only time to heel it…
I look into myself and my life and all what I have is a single question,
What did I give to my life, true life,
And it’s not much
I’m only mourning myself now
This had happened before…
The first time I was baffled in bewilderment but strange how my understanding of it was so shallow
And it happened again…
There more things to take from it as one life departed it somehow made me responsible to make my life worth while
And again…
This time I’m more accepting but not satisfied with myself
------
“The color of her eyes has faded but the glow is still there, she is in peace with her self, كل الي ايي من الله خير, she said”
الله يرحمه
enshallah….
It’s done and when it’s time then that’s it, you can’t bring a moment or delay a moment, that’s the time that we are allowed in life….
------
The day before…
I was debating with my youngest brother whether to know when you are going to die or have it happening so suddenly
My argument was: I’d rather to know so I can say my goodbye and make amends and leave this world in peace
His replay was: you should always do that as you live not knowing when you’ll die
Me saying that: I think it’s like a sign from god so you can end your life in a better way
He replays: there was two brothers the youngest walks in to the mosque and finds his brother dead while praying, and he start crying ever so bad, people come and ask him to stop crying and that he should be happy for his brother that he died in such a way, he looks at them and tells them this:
“Ever since I was born my brothers life has been sinful in a way that is beyond imagination, I don’t even remember seeing him praying, and today from all the days his life is taken as he prays to Allah, that can only be from Gods mercy”
If god wants to send you a sign it can be in many ways
After that I had no replay…
You never know when it’s time to leave this earth and there is no better saying that comes to mind other than, أعمل لدنياك كأنك ستعيش أبداَ وأعمل لآخرتك كأنك ستموت غداَ.
We think of life and give it so much forgetting that it’s only the first part of our journey the part that would determine for us the rest of the way
{ قُلْ هَلْ نُنَبِّئُكُم بِٱلأَخْسَرِينَ أَعْمَالاً }
{ ٱلَّذِينَ ضَلَّ سَعْيُهُمْ فِي ٱلْحَيَاةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا وَهُمْ يَحْسَبُونَ أَنَّهُمْ يُحْسِنُونَ صُنْعاً }
Sunday, October 14, 2007
New Look
This template may seems like it has absolutely nothing to do with anything but I had to select it out of frustration!!!
It’s been practically days that I’ve spent searching for a new template and I faced so much trouble:
1- going through templates and finding one I like (have been through hundreds walla)
2- trying them out, first I couldn’t make them work and it took me a full day to figure out what’s the trick, the magical button!!
3- When you try them out you lose all the layout added items : (
4- those I liked so much had many short comes, such as, they don’t provide you with comments option!!! They only appear for three quarters of the page, chenah design emga9mal!!, there is no options to add photos or links or anything just posts!!!
5- Those which actually work sucks, not even worth the trouble
Any ways I even thought of sticking with my old one but then said, No Way!!! I can’t, not after all that I've been through!!!
So here it is my new template which is 6ay7 men 3eyny because of it’s lack of functionality and enshallah I’m getting rid of it after having a break and finding a good functional template, of course I prefer performance over looks!!, but still it’s mine o ma ar’9a 3lyha :-P if there where many complaints regarding it, since you guys who are going to suffer given that you’ll deal with it, then I may consider taking it off sooner ;)
Cheers,
O
Update 9:23:
Just discovered that it doesn’t even support Arabic ; ( I officially hate it!!
It just keeps reminding me of Kuwaiti guys!!!!!
Second update 9:27:
Oppps, gues it does support Arabic :-P maskina ‘9almt_ha, ma adrey shfeyny elyom!!
It’s been practically days that I’ve spent searching for a new template and I faced so much trouble:
1- going through templates and finding one I like (have been through hundreds walla)
2- trying them out, first I couldn’t make them work and it took me a full day to figure out what’s the trick, the magical button!!
3- When you try them out you lose all the layout added items : (
4- those I liked so much had many short comes, such as, they don’t provide you with comments option!!! They only appear for three quarters of the page, chenah design emga9mal!!, there is no options to add photos or links or anything just posts!!!
5- Those which actually work sucks, not even worth the trouble
Any ways I even thought of sticking with my old one but then said, No Way!!! I can’t, not after all that I've been through!!!
So here it is my new template which is 6ay7 men 3eyny because of it’s lack of functionality and enshallah I’m getting rid of it after having a break and finding a good functional template, of course I prefer performance over looks!!, but still it’s mine o ma ar’9a 3lyha :-P if there where many complaints regarding it, since you guys who are going to suffer given that you’ll deal with it, then I may consider taking it off sooner ;)
Cheers,
O
Update 9:23:
Just discovered that it doesn’t even support Arabic ; ( I officially hate it!!
It just keeps reminding me of Kuwaiti guys!!!!!
Second update 9:27:
Oppps, gues it does support Arabic :-P maskina ‘9almt_ha, ma adrey shfeyny elyom!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
3eydeyty, Some action
If any one had a one look on my face at that moment they would’ve known…
2:15 :’)
received the acceptance of my project upon three days of reviews, once I send the files enshallah I’ll be free and able to enjoy my holiday
2:17 :’(
as I was preparing the final files for submission….. guess what?? It’s not really hard wallah to guess,
over the years I’ve been going through the same lovely events, as if it’s a ritual, a tradition, as if it’s a part of all my projects ever since college, there is this kind of a magnet in my work that it self destruct and it just select the most perfect moment,
Yeah you are right, the software crashed!!!! How bloody typical, my usual self talk would contain sentence like,
this can’t be happening to me,
no no no,
and all those state of denial terms, this time for some reason it felt normal, I lost all access to my two weeks of work, there is no time for self talk, only action,
First question comes in to mind is, back up!!
"In colleague, I used to laugh at one of my professors, she had 5 different back up terms that are completely independent and unrelated starting with high tech ending with basic, Boy how wrong was I???!?!"
Going back to the back up, my last back up was dated October 8th, now my panic attack is at full charge!!!
I feel that I’ve experienced partial memory loss at that moment, what have I’ve done since Monday?? Tons of tiny little things
That’s the part which sucks about the way I work, start with the bulk do the main body then refine refine refine, how am I supposed to remember all those little tiny details I’ve been making??? God they are so many and all should be done like hmmm…. right now!!!!!
Prayers, lots of prayers, Oh god, what can I do? Should I tell my manager, I’ll blame him!! Don’t know why but it’s his fault!!!! Maly she’3el ;(
God I can’t think any more….
Tried again and again, checking back files, trying work around, every damn trick in the book,
And then al7mdellah ya rab, it worked :’) “currently suffering of post trauma symptoms manifesting them selves in the form of a category red headache”
Finally they got submitted….
Some of self assurance thoughts that I had as my ordeal was taking place:
That is a good thing, maybe I made a huge mistake and now when I redo it I’ll fix it, very lame,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to avoid a brutal accident by which I’d lose, esmellah 3lay, both my legs, so instead I’ll be stuck at home during 3eyd, that was a bit comforting,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to come back to the company next week where I’ll meet my future, my long waited one and only, that was a happy thought :’)
Happy 3eyd o enshallah kil 3am o ento eb’7yer :’)
Cheers,
O
2:15 :’)
received the acceptance of my project upon three days of reviews, once I send the files enshallah I’ll be free and able to enjoy my holiday
2:17 :’(
as I was preparing the final files for submission….. guess what?? It’s not really hard wallah to guess,
over the years I’ve been going through the same lovely events, as if it’s a ritual, a tradition, as if it’s a part of all my projects ever since college, there is this kind of a magnet in my work that it self destruct and it just select the most perfect moment,
Yeah you are right, the software crashed!!!! How bloody typical, my usual self talk would contain sentence like,
this can’t be happening to me,
no no no,
and all those state of denial terms, this time for some reason it felt normal, I lost all access to my two weeks of work, there is no time for self talk, only action,
First question comes in to mind is, back up!!
"In colleague, I used to laugh at one of my professors, she had 5 different back up terms that are completely independent and unrelated starting with high tech ending with basic, Boy how wrong was I???!?!"
Going back to the back up, my last back up was dated October 8th, now my panic attack is at full charge!!!
I feel that I’ve experienced partial memory loss at that moment, what have I’ve done since Monday?? Tons of tiny little things
That’s the part which sucks about the way I work, start with the bulk do the main body then refine refine refine, how am I supposed to remember all those little tiny details I’ve been making??? God they are so many and all should be done like hmmm…. right now!!!!!
Prayers, lots of prayers, Oh god, what can I do? Should I tell my manager, I’ll blame him!! Don’t know why but it’s his fault!!!! Maly she’3el ;(
God I can’t think any more….
Tried again and again, checking back files, trying work around, every damn trick in the book,
And then al7mdellah ya rab, it worked :’) “currently suffering of post trauma symptoms manifesting them selves in the form of a category red headache”
Finally they got submitted….
Some of self assurance thoughts that I had as my ordeal was taking place:
That is a good thing, maybe I made a huge mistake and now when I redo it I’ll fix it, very lame,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to avoid a brutal accident by which I’d lose, esmellah 3lay, both my legs, so instead I’ll be stuck at home during 3eyd, that was a bit comforting,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to come back to the company next week where I’ll meet my future, my long waited one and only, that was a happy thought :’)
Happy 3eyd o enshallah kil 3am o ento eb’7yer :’)
Cheers,
O
Monday, October 8, 2007
حدث في مثل هذا اليوم
أبصروا النور فلم تعد الدنيا بعدهم كما كانت
1883 - Otto Heinrich Warburg, German physician, Nobel laureate
1895 - Juan Perón, President of Argentina
1895 - Zog I, King of Albania
1918 - Jens Christian Skou, Danish chemist, Nobel laureate
1927 - César Milstein, Argentine scientist, Nobel laureate
1948 - Pedro López, Colombian serial killer
1949 - Sigourney Weaver, American actress
1970 - Matt Damon, American actor
1982 – Maryam, Havenly Angel
HaPpY BiRtHdAy My SunShine :D
1883 - Otto Heinrich Warburg, German physician, Nobel laureate
1895 - Juan Perón, President of Argentina
1895 - Zog I, King of Albania
1918 - Jens Christian Skou, Danish chemist, Nobel laureate
1927 - César Milstein, Argentine scientist, Nobel laureate
1948 - Pedro López, Colombian serial killer
1949 - Sigourney Weaver, American actress
1970 - Matt Damon, American actor
1982 – Maryam, Havenly Angel
HaPpY BiRtHdAy My SunShine :D
Sunday, October 7, 2007
O’ Lady lighten our Darkness
What is a gift?
It’s a form of matter transformation that is directed from one person to an other
When you give a part of your time then you give part of your life
When you give a part of your attention then you give part of your thoughts
When you give a part of your laugh or cry then you give part of your soul
When you give a part of your positions then you are give part of your existence
When you love someone so much then you want to give them all you have,
Heart, mind and soul
There are people that are only apart of your path in life and there are people who are your true destination
My north star, where would I’ve been without your light….
I want to give you something, the best I can give of time
The best I can give of attention, the best I can give of positions,
Cause no one deserves as you
I look into my life and I know how truly I am blessed with your presence
In you a strength that pulls me through, genuine that makes me bold, and kindness that weakens and shake me to the core
I look up to you, did you know that?
The things you taught me by just being you, the shine that you’ve shed on my life the joy that you bring to my heart, there are humans who are not capable to ever bring one of them and yet you bring them all together so effortlessly
May god protect you my sweet Angel, I thank god for the ever bless of having you,
My greatest fear that cause we are only friends that the bond we have may end, but after all those years I know in my heart that what we share is far stronger than any bond could ever provide I wish that you know what you are to me,
Sitting in a hospital coffee shop, on a table waiting for my coffee to be ready, and I see a blind old man led by an Indian, must be his driver, feelings of anger rushed in to me, and I say to myself, could he have no one in his world to take his hand, how could someone he pays for worry about him, care about him, be gentle with him, or at least talk to him, and I looked again, this time the Indian left him standing there by him self as a hand slipped under his arm, standing close, lips whispering words and there he was a young man holding him leading the way walking by his side, and the care is overflowing, I couldn’t help but smile
That’s you to me Maryam :*
I love you,
Maha
It’s a form of matter transformation that is directed from one person to an other
When you give a part of your time then you give part of your life
When you give a part of your attention then you give part of your thoughts
When you give a part of your laugh or cry then you give part of your soul
When you give a part of your positions then you are give part of your existence
When you love someone so much then you want to give them all you have,
Heart, mind and soul
There are people that are only apart of your path in life and there are people who are your true destination
My north star, where would I’ve been without your light….
I want to give you something, the best I can give of time
The best I can give of attention, the best I can give of positions,
Cause no one deserves as you
I look into my life and I know how truly I am blessed with your presence
In you a strength that pulls me through, genuine that makes me bold, and kindness that weakens and shake me to the core
I look up to you, did you know that?
The things you taught me by just being you, the shine that you’ve shed on my life the joy that you bring to my heart, there are humans who are not capable to ever bring one of them and yet you bring them all together so effortlessly
May god protect you my sweet Angel, I thank god for the ever bless of having you,
My greatest fear that cause we are only friends that the bond we have may end, but after all those years I know in my heart that what we share is far stronger than any bond could ever provide I wish that you know what you are to me,
Sitting in a hospital coffee shop, on a table waiting for my coffee to be ready, and I see a blind old man led by an Indian, must be his driver, feelings of anger rushed in to me, and I say to myself, could he have no one in his world to take his hand, how could someone he pays for worry about him, care about him, be gentle with him, or at least talk to him, and I looked again, this time the Indian left him standing there by him self as a hand slipped under his arm, standing close, lips whispering words and there he was a young man holding him leading the way walking by his side, and the care is overflowing, I couldn’t help but smile
That’s you to me Maryam :*
I love you,
Maha
Saturday, October 6, 2007
My little life based conclusions
I’m back into studying Physics, linear Algebra, calculus and English grammar!!!
I guess enshallah from the look of it I’ll be repeating engineering classes again for the upcoming five years?!!?! My only hope is that if it’s going to be in an other discipline that I can at least get a certificate for it!!
So I’m taking a look at Newton’s third law:
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction
In The universe of physics the law is clear simple and you can fairly relay on it, but in the world of humans it’s never the case, your actions could have many reactions in result but none could ever fallow any law of nature so a look at some of what you may get in return for a an action
1- Nothing, some people would choose not to acknowledge your action as simple as that
2- A squared negative reaction, some people just over react
3- A reaction coming from un related parties, some people believe that they are the center of the universe and what ever you do is directed to them so they’d give themselves the right to react
4- A minimum reaction compared to your action, it happens when the two people involved don’t share the same definition of things
5- Even no actions at all can result in a reaction
6- A sequential events that would lead to your brutal death, “give me any situation and enshallah I’ll provide you with a scenario with the above stated end”
At school they teach us about objects and they miss out a very important thing, they don’t teach us about humans, and that’s the tricky part of living, there is no guide line no laws or steps, specially in this time and age when simple rules of ethics has diminished, it became harder and harder to deal with people
So in conclusion, for me just be who you are, do things and don’t expect something in return, because you can never control how people would receive things and react towards them, do it cause you want to that’s all
Cheers,
O
I guess enshallah from the look of it I’ll be repeating engineering classes again for the upcoming five years?!!?! My only hope is that if it’s going to be in an other discipline that I can at least get a certificate for it!!
So I’m taking a look at Newton’s third law:
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction
In The universe of physics the law is clear simple and you can fairly relay on it, but in the world of humans it’s never the case, your actions could have many reactions in result but none could ever fallow any law of nature so a look at some of what you may get in return for a an action
1- Nothing, some people would choose not to acknowledge your action as simple as that
2- A squared negative reaction, some people just over react
3- A reaction coming from un related parties, some people believe that they are the center of the universe and what ever you do is directed to them so they’d give themselves the right to react
4- A minimum reaction compared to your action, it happens when the two people involved don’t share the same definition of things
5- Even no actions at all can result in a reaction
6- A sequential events that would lead to your brutal death, “give me any situation and enshallah I’ll provide you with a scenario with the above stated end”
At school they teach us about objects and they miss out a very important thing, they don’t teach us about humans, and that’s the tricky part of living, there is no guide line no laws or steps, specially in this time and age when simple rules of ethics has diminished, it became harder and harder to deal with people
So in conclusion, for me just be who you are, do things and don’t expect something in return, because you can never control how people would receive things and react towards them, do it cause you want to that’s all
Cheers,
O
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Mission Impossible!!!
I’ve been making consecutive shopping expeditions lately; the reason why they are consecutive is that I couldn’t find ANY thing to buy, at all!!
The styles are terrible the fabrics, texture and colors are pathetic and don’t get me even started on the prices!!
I look at the price tag and I wonder “Hmmm, what this figure could be? Is it the piece number? Is it the bar code?” of course after I thoroughly investigate the tag I discover, “well no sweety, it’s actually the price!” then I make more wonders “Is there a decimal point? Is this in Kuwaiti Dinars?”
El mo9eybah I wish it’s worth even 10% of the price associated with it!
Elmo9eybah^2 there are ppl who are actually buying it!!
In the states there was a Dolce and Gabbana coat, when ey’9eyg ‘7elgey I walk to the mall to stare at it, it was so beautiful I couldn’t dare to put it on, it was 3000$ ya3ney 1000Kd, wallah it was worth every penny, Black with tiger prints inside, this was the only time I saw tiger prints and marveled them, the design was so feminine, faltering and seductive, note I’m talking about only the coat, I even considered to buy it, and wear it every day and wouldn’t take it off!! But come one woman a coat in Kuwait?!!?
After total mall-shops grand disappointments, I walked the extra mile and I’ve done some visits to what you can call Kuwaiti designers/stores, this has been challenging, first conducted a wide search for such places and personal inquiries, second as I have no sense of directions, to get to a new place based on wa9f was such a pain in the a$#, any ways I’ve made it and what do I find?? Do I need to continue or you can imagine? To bring the image closer I’ve used the F word in every single time I step a foot in one of those so called stores
Do I come from Mars? Was I in a coma and missed out an entire taste shift in fashion?
Is the question, what is wrong with you ppl? Is actually, what is wrong with me?
I really can’t figure it out!!! It’s ‘7alageyn out there!!
I hold the price tag of a dress and it reads 37 and then an army of question marks invaded my face?????? How come, first that can’t be the size, it has to be even number, then what is this tag connected to? Maybe it’s for the belt? There is no belt, how strange!! Only 37???! My question marks are replaced with a smile as I discover that my thumb was hiding the zero, :’) yeah that makes sense it’s 370 kd, yeah right!!!
Wala as long as the sense of style is like this, I should quite my job, get me couple of tailors, walla why bring them, I can use the ones working at the co-op branch, and get some low3ah fabrics, I don’t even have to look for a design or size just ay shay then sell that piece in a ridicules price, boy I’ll make a fortune!!
Cheers,
O
P.S. Any advice about a good shop, ana ra’9yah 7ata low fyh one good piece, not a wow but at least wearab!
The styles are terrible the fabrics, texture and colors are pathetic and don’t get me even started on the prices!!
I look at the price tag and I wonder “Hmmm, what this figure could be? Is it the piece number? Is it the bar code?” of course after I thoroughly investigate the tag I discover, “well no sweety, it’s actually the price!” then I make more wonders “Is there a decimal point? Is this in Kuwaiti Dinars?”
El mo9eybah I wish it’s worth even 10% of the price associated with it!
Elmo9eybah^2 there are ppl who are actually buying it!!
In the states there was a Dolce and Gabbana coat, when ey’9eyg ‘7elgey I walk to the mall to stare at it, it was so beautiful I couldn’t dare to put it on, it was 3000$ ya3ney 1000Kd, wallah it was worth every penny, Black with tiger prints inside, this was the only time I saw tiger prints and marveled them, the design was so feminine, faltering and seductive, note I’m talking about only the coat, I even considered to buy it, and wear it every day and wouldn’t take it off!! But come one woman a coat in Kuwait?!!?
After total mall-shops grand disappointments, I walked the extra mile and I’ve done some visits to what you can call Kuwaiti designers/stores, this has been challenging, first conducted a wide search for such places and personal inquiries, second as I have no sense of directions, to get to a new place based on wa9f was such a pain in the a$#, any ways I’ve made it and what do I find?? Do I need to continue or you can imagine? To bring the image closer I’ve used the F word in every single time I step a foot in one of those so called stores
Do I come from Mars? Was I in a coma and missed out an entire taste shift in fashion?
Is the question, what is wrong with you ppl? Is actually, what is wrong with me?
I really can’t figure it out!!! It’s ‘7alageyn out there!!
I hold the price tag of a dress and it reads 37 and then an army of question marks invaded my face?????? How come, first that can’t be the size, it has to be even number, then what is this tag connected to? Maybe it’s for the belt? There is no belt, how strange!! Only 37???! My question marks are replaced with a smile as I discover that my thumb was hiding the zero, :’) yeah that makes sense it’s 370 kd, yeah right!!!
Wala as long as the sense of style is like this, I should quite my job, get me couple of tailors, walla why bring them, I can use the ones working at the co-op branch, and get some low3ah fabrics, I don’t even have to look for a design or size just ay shay then sell that piece in a ridicules price, boy I’ll make a fortune!!
Cheers,
O
P.S. Any advice about a good shop, ana ra’9yah 7ata low fyh one good piece, not a wow but at least wearab!
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Wedy a9adgik bs qaweya!!
العروس في الثانية والثمانين والزوج السعيد في الرابعة والعشرين في الارجنتين
بوينس ايرس (ا ف ب)- تزوجت سيدة في الثانية والثمانين من العمر بشاب يبلغ من العمر 24 عاما الجمعة في سانتا (470 كلم شمال العاصمة الارجنتينية بوينس ايرس) وهما يستعدان للسفر لقضاء شهر العسل في ريو دي جانييرو بالبرازيل.
وقال الزوج رينالدو وافيكشي لدى خروجه مكتب بلدية سانتا حيث ابرم عقد القران "لطالما احببت النساء الناضجات ولا آبه لما يقوله الاخرون".
من جانبها قالت العروس اديلفا فولبس انها كانت صديقة ام العريس التي طلبت منها قبل ان تموت الاهتمام بابنها الذي كان يبلغ من العمر 15 عاما.
واضافت "كان صغيرا ووحيدا لكن منذ اليوم الاول لعيشنا المشترك اصبح يكمل احدنا الاخر بشكل جيد. ثم تطورت العلاقة وبدأت تأخذ طريقا آخر. فتحت له قلبي وعرضت ان تتطور الامور". وقال الزوج ان العلاقة "ولدت على اساس الاحترام والحياة المشتركة ونحن لا نهتم بفارق العمر" مؤكدا ان "الحب وحده هو الذي يجمعنا ولا توجد اي مصلحة مادية (..) اديلفا ليس لها ابناء ليس لديها احد وقريبها الوحيد . وتابع بفخر "احبها وهي كل ما لدي في الحياة وهي المراة التي اخترتها
بوينس ايرس (ا ف ب)- تزوجت سيدة في الثانية والثمانين من العمر بشاب يبلغ من العمر 24 عاما الجمعة في سانتا (470 كلم شمال العاصمة الارجنتينية بوينس ايرس) وهما يستعدان للسفر لقضاء شهر العسل في ريو دي جانييرو بالبرازيل.
وقال الزوج رينالدو وافيكشي لدى خروجه مكتب بلدية سانتا حيث ابرم عقد القران "لطالما احببت النساء الناضجات ولا آبه لما يقوله الاخرون".
من جانبها قالت العروس اديلفا فولبس انها كانت صديقة ام العريس التي طلبت منها قبل ان تموت الاهتمام بابنها الذي كان يبلغ من العمر 15 عاما.
واضافت "كان صغيرا ووحيدا لكن منذ اليوم الاول لعيشنا المشترك اصبح يكمل احدنا الاخر بشكل جيد. ثم تطورت العلاقة وبدأت تأخذ طريقا آخر. فتحت له قلبي وعرضت ان تتطور الامور". وقال الزوج ان العلاقة "ولدت على اساس الاحترام والحياة المشتركة ونحن لا نهتم بفارق العمر" مؤكدا ان "الحب وحده هو الذي يجمعنا ولا توجد اي مصلحة مادية (..) اديلفا ليس لها ابناء ليس لديها احد وقريبها الوحيد . وتابع بفخر "احبها وهي كل ما لدي في الحياة وهي المراة التي اخترتها
Saturday, September 29, 2007
...مراسي غربتي
I started out this month with the post “Straight, Single and Senny Valentino” ridiculing the guys that we have in the sa7ah, and having a wish to find a good one…
Currently,
I moved on to sleep in the middle of the bed, happened sometime last weekend, for the past decade or so I’ve concurred the right side of the bed, my spot, my little version of the “elwesadah el’7aleyah” movie, miss Girly and Dreamy typical behavior,
some time this year my convicted romanticism has withered with some reality checks and I day by day have lost my appetite for romance, my dear sweet Mirandarousa has made an attempt to revive my beating heart and oh she nailed me, got me …. Back to my old state of mind, but as time goes by I’ve surrendered again….
I’d really like to rationalize this and most importantly to segregate any conclusion from the usual concepts that our beloved society’s culture impose on our poor minds, so let me just go with the flow of my ideas,
Currently,
I moved on to sleep in the middle of the bed, happened sometime last weekend, for the past decade or so I’ve concurred the right side of the bed, my spot, my little version of the “elwesadah el’7aleyah” movie, miss Girly and Dreamy typical behavior,
some time this year my convicted romanticism has withered with some reality checks and I day by day have lost my appetite for romance, my dear sweet Mirandarousa has made an attempt to revive my beating heart and oh she nailed me, got me …. Back to my old state of mind, but as time goes by I’ve surrendered again….
I’d really like to rationalize this and most importantly to segregate any conclusion from the usual concepts that our beloved society’s culture impose on our poor minds, so let me just go with the flow of my ideas,
Yes I admit, like any other straight adult female I’d like to have a male companion, not for the, you know what, but for all those things that you can only get from your opposite sex, for me as a female, I’d like care, tenderness accompanied with strength and wisdom, light soul, simple and clear values,
I want to walk with you hand in hand…
Not to be able to experience the touch of a male companion in my life became my number one reason for all the sadness I’m going through, I blame it for everything even a red traffic light!!
That’s so not me, it didn’t matter that much before, it was like a wish, a little something extra, but never like I’m missing a leg,
Void I find in me, even with every moment in my day is occupied, still there is loss and emptiness, and I keep hanging all my shortcomings all my negative feelings all my unhappiness on that missing touch
I want to put my head on your shoulder….
I know that I can’t plan for, work for, search for, that I can’t do any thing about it, it’s fate!
Ideas keep juggling me back and forth, that didn’t bother me, at least not this much, before, a question keeps repeating it self in my head,
Will I ever have you?
Dismissing those ideas in the past was easy, I could even laugh them out, or create a very dreadful scenario that makes me thankful for not having a male companion, that is not working for me any more, I need something stronger, maybe a slap on my face and a good shake added with a screaming voice: WOMAN WAKE UP!!!
The above could be a good blend of post illness + pre period depression with a touch of frustration after a two consecutive failing shopping expeditions
I feel like a sand lost in a desert yearning to find the sea… to be touched by the waves
Will I ever be found?
Lost,
O
I want to walk with you hand in hand…
Not to be able to experience the touch of a male companion in my life became my number one reason for all the sadness I’m going through, I blame it for everything even a red traffic light!!
That’s so not me, it didn’t matter that much before, it was like a wish, a little something extra, but never like I’m missing a leg,
Void I find in me, even with every moment in my day is occupied, still there is loss and emptiness, and I keep hanging all my shortcomings all my negative feelings all my unhappiness on that missing touch
I want to put my head on your shoulder….
I know that I can’t plan for, work for, search for, that I can’t do any thing about it, it’s fate!
Ideas keep juggling me back and forth, that didn’t bother me, at least not this much, before, a question keeps repeating it self in my head,
Will I ever have you?
Dismissing those ideas in the past was easy, I could even laugh them out, or create a very dreadful scenario that makes me thankful for not having a male companion, that is not working for me any more, I need something stronger, maybe a slap on my face and a good shake added with a screaming voice: WOMAN WAKE UP!!!
The above could be a good blend of post illness + pre period depression with a touch of frustration after a two consecutive failing shopping expeditions
I feel like a sand lost in a desert yearning to find the sea… to be touched by the waves
Will I ever be found?
Lost,
O
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
In an other part of the world
I keep hearing about Darfur all the time in the news, but without really paying much of attention until, by coincidence I got to watch for ten seconds the interview in Arabeyah tv with the Sudanese president Omar Al- Bashir and the thing that triggered my attention was this:
O, American’s care so much about the Darfur conflict because it has uranium!!!!
La walla??
So I did some googlling and couldn’t find any thing about uranium, I highly doubt there is uranium!! It’s the typical Arabs mentality consumed of “Conspiracy Theories”
Thought I’d share what I found with you
Darfur Conflict
More than 2m people are living in camps after fleeing more than four years of fighting in the region and they are vulnerable without peacekeepers.
Sudan's government and the pro-government Arab militias are accused of war crimes against the region's black African population, although the UN has stopped short of calling it genocide.
New peace talks are planned, but peace still looks a long way off.
How did the conflict start?
The conflict began in the arid and impoverished region early in 2003 after a rebel group began attacking government targets, saying the region was being neglected by Khartoum.
The rebels say the government is oppressing black Africans in favour of Arabs.
Darfur, which means land of the Fur, has faced many years of tension over land and grazing rights between the mostly nomadic Arabs, and farmers from the Fur, Massaleet and Zagawa communities.
There are two main rebel groups, the Sudan Liberation Army (SLA) and the Justice and Equality Movement (Jem), although both groups have split, some along ethnic lines.
Almost a dozen rebel groups now exist. Most will attend the talks in Libya, but one key leader, Abdul Wahid el-Nur, is boycotting the talks until the conflict ends.
What is the government doing?
It admits mobilising "self-defence militias" following rebel attacks but denies any links to the Janjaweed, accused of trying to "cleanse" black Africans from large swathes of territory.
Refugees from Darfur say that following air raids by government aircraft, the Janjaweed ride into villages on horses and camels, slaughtering men, raping women and stealing whatever they can find.
Many women report being abducted by the Janjaweed and held as sex slaves for more than a week before being released.
The US and some human rights groups say that genocide is taking place - though a UN investigation team sent to Sudan said that while war crimes had been committed, there had been no intent to commit genocide.
Sudan's government denies being in control of the Janjaweed and President Omar al-Bashir has called them "thieves and gangsters".
After strong international pressure and the threat of sanctions, the government promised to disarm the Janjaweed. But so far there is little evidence this has happened.
Trials have been announced in Khartoum of some members of the security forces suspected of abuses - but this is viewed as part of a campaign against UN-backed attempts to get some 50 key suspects tried at the International Criminal Court in The Hague.
Interruption:
يعلن الديوان الملكى انه منذ يوم امس خر جسدنا صريعا اثر مواجهه معا الانفلونزا التي اكتسحتنا بشكل كامل,
لقد ربحت المعركه و ليس الحرب و لنا لقاء قادم باذن الله سيتكلل بالنصر انشاء الله
حتى اشعار اخر
انتهى!
Cheers,
O
O, American’s care so much about the Darfur conflict because it has uranium!!!!
La walla??
So I did some googlling and couldn’t find any thing about uranium, I highly doubt there is uranium!! It’s the typical Arabs mentality consumed of “Conspiracy Theories”
Thought I’d share what I found with you
Darfur Conflict
More than 2m people are living in camps after fleeing more than four years of fighting in the region and they are vulnerable without peacekeepers.
Sudan's government and the pro-government Arab militias are accused of war crimes against the region's black African population, although the UN has stopped short of calling it genocide.
New peace talks are planned, but peace still looks a long way off.
How did the conflict start?
The conflict began in the arid and impoverished region early in 2003 after a rebel group began attacking government targets, saying the region was being neglected by Khartoum.
The rebels say the government is oppressing black Africans in favour of Arabs.
Darfur, which means land of the Fur, has faced many years of tension over land and grazing rights between the mostly nomadic Arabs, and farmers from the Fur, Massaleet and Zagawa communities.
There are two main rebel groups, the Sudan Liberation Army (SLA) and the Justice and Equality Movement (Jem), although both groups have split, some along ethnic lines.
Almost a dozen rebel groups now exist. Most will attend the talks in Libya, but one key leader, Abdul Wahid el-Nur, is boycotting the talks until the conflict ends.
What is the government doing?
It admits mobilising "self-defence militias" following rebel attacks but denies any links to the Janjaweed, accused of trying to "cleanse" black Africans from large swathes of territory.
Refugees from Darfur say that following air raids by government aircraft, the Janjaweed ride into villages on horses and camels, slaughtering men, raping women and stealing whatever they can find.
Many women report being abducted by the Janjaweed and held as sex slaves for more than a week before being released.
The US and some human rights groups say that genocide is taking place - though a UN investigation team sent to Sudan said that while war crimes had been committed, there had been no intent to commit genocide.
Sudan's government denies being in control of the Janjaweed and President Omar al-Bashir has called them "thieves and gangsters".
After strong international pressure and the threat of sanctions, the government promised to disarm the Janjaweed. But so far there is little evidence this has happened.
Trials have been announced in Khartoum of some members of the security forces suspected of abuses - but this is viewed as part of a campaign against UN-backed attempts to get some 50 key suspects tried at the International Criminal Court in The Hague.
Interruption:
يعلن الديوان الملكى انه منذ يوم امس خر جسدنا صريعا اثر مواجهه معا الانفلونزا التي اكتسحتنا بشكل كامل,
لقد ربحت المعركه و ليس الحرب و لنا لقاء قادم باذن الله سيتكلل بالنصر انشاء الله
حتى اشعار اخر
انتهى!
Cheers,
O
Monday, September 24, 2007
Will I ever get used to this?
My brother fractured his foot bone, he was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance last night during his working shift, and they had to put a cast on it, so we swapped parking spots he took the one on the back of the house and I took the one in front,
“The back of our house is facing the mosque”
So after work today I got him a cane so he can support him self on it and on the way I got myself my favorite delicious Znood :D
Parked the car got the stuff out and walked into the house, it took me couple of minutes to reach my room cause I had to pass by the kitchen, and as I just stepped in my mom fallowed me
Mom, Do you know who just called?
Me, who?
Mom, our neighbor!! “there house is the one next the house opposite to ours”
Me, and??
Mom, she called to ask what are you doing with the cane????
Me, !!!!!! Middaha?? Mita?? What ??! there was no one in the street, it’s 43 degrees out there!!!
Then I remembered el be3thah el da2mah for KUNA, she is watching over from borg el moragabah!!!
It’s been 12 days since Ramadan started, you didn’t bother your self to pick up the phone to congrat on the holly month, and the second you see me with a cane you call in the speed of lightning??!?
Walla seriously woman, get a life!!
It’s for you they have invented something called tv, watch it!!
And if you like to watch “live” events, try out football matches and game shows,
Ely ba6 chabdey that setrey 3la nafsich, don’t let us know that you are watching us!! She acted as if it was her God Given Right to know, woman it’s OUR business, if we came asking for your help then ask, but no one das lich 3la 6araf!!
Kuwaitis they can’t get enough, if some one stopped in the right side of the street, every one on that street and the street next to them, meaning all four lanes and the opposite four lanes would stop to see what’s going on, even if it was accident, they wouldn’t go and help, no god forbids, just watch, have an event for today, something happened and they got to see it, and by that it comes out of the harmless and annoying, it becomes harmful and sometimes lethal!!
Seriously, she_elsalfah, shino hal legafah el zaydah?!!?!
Is it in the genes? Is it a law that they have to obey it or they’ll get a ticket – o ana ma adrey - ?
Or is it that their lives so damn empty all they can do is watch over others!!!
I keep thinking “sitting by the window and having her phone in her lap” I won’t be surprised if she has a magnifying glass + night vision equipment!!!
Cheers,
O
P.S. Allah ey3eyney I'll be parking over there for a whole month!
“The back of our house is facing the mosque”
So after work today I got him a cane so he can support him self on it and on the way I got myself my favorite delicious Znood :D
Parked the car got the stuff out and walked into the house, it took me couple of minutes to reach my room cause I had to pass by the kitchen, and as I just stepped in my mom fallowed me
Mom, Do you know who just called?
Me, who?
Mom, our neighbor!! “there house is the one next the house opposite to ours”
Me, and??
Mom, she called to ask what are you doing with the cane????
Me, !!!!!! Middaha?? Mita?? What ??! there was no one in the street, it’s 43 degrees out there!!!
Then I remembered el be3thah el da2mah for KUNA, she is watching over from borg el moragabah!!!
It’s been 12 days since Ramadan started, you didn’t bother your self to pick up the phone to congrat on the holly month, and the second you see me with a cane you call in the speed of lightning??!?
Walla seriously woman, get a life!!
It’s for you they have invented something called tv, watch it!!
And if you like to watch “live” events, try out football matches and game shows,
Ely ba6 chabdey that setrey 3la nafsich, don’t let us know that you are watching us!! She acted as if it was her God Given Right to know, woman it’s OUR business, if we came asking for your help then ask, but no one das lich 3la 6araf!!
Kuwaitis they can’t get enough, if some one stopped in the right side of the street, every one on that street and the street next to them, meaning all four lanes and the opposite four lanes would stop to see what’s going on, even if it was accident, they wouldn’t go and help, no god forbids, just watch, have an event for today, something happened and they got to see it, and by that it comes out of the harmless and annoying, it becomes harmful and sometimes lethal!!
Seriously, she_elsalfah, shino hal legafah el zaydah?!!?!
Is it in the genes? Is it a law that they have to obey it or they’ll get a ticket – o ana ma adrey - ?
Or is it that their lives so damn empty all they can do is watch over others!!!
I keep thinking “sitting by the window and having her phone in her lap” I won’t be surprised if she has a magnifying glass + night vision equipment!!!
Cheers,
O
P.S. Allah ey3eyney I'll be parking over there for a whole month!
My Most Precious Positions
Screaming, as two men, one is huge grapping me from behind, the other trying to release my fist,
“you can cut my hands off before you take my USB!!”
Woman!! What’s wrong with you?!, BTW it’s your hand we are talking about!!
As he almost broke my fingers open, took my USB and my Showtime subscription ;-(
Walla I’m starting to consider the messages sent by my inner brain,
Allah yer7am el days when my dreams, where lovely and they’ve made sweet stories
Back in 2006
Living with people in the desert, in a far away time,
they have a special day of the year they call it energy day in it all unmarried people would go out in the desert and find their source of energy, I went out and as I walked I saw a stream of water and stepped in,
And there I found my peace my serenity, then draw nearer a man who saw me,
So for him to experience my small spot he had to be really close,
then he went on to trace the source of water,
I was with him walking in his direction,
but I realized I was floating so I turned around and told him that I’m walking on air and he looked at me and smiled,
he was carrying me all the way,
after a while the day has ended and they started to call out the people to come back,
as we returned people greeted my guy and I discovered that he was the prince
so what happens next is that every one must go rest and get prepared for the night where each bachelor will announce his bride
The night came and we started to enter the grand tent, when I entered there was something wearied going on,
there was another girl who was setting next to my prince and when I approached him he looked at me and he was unhappy then I stopped and he stopped to announce his bride and it wasn’t me, it was the other girl,
Out of the tent I ran and ran in to the desert because when I walked out one of the prince body guards followed me so I wanted to hide from him and I saw in the distance a tenet of an other country and went to hide inside,
the other side of it was magical and I was able to see what happened in the past and what is happening in the present,
That afternoon as the prince was resting in his tenet he received a poem that gives him direction to marry the other girl and that was a promise made by his father and he must obey,
After I left he went after me and then I saw the body guard trying to enter the tenet where I went but a massive fire happened and the people who own this tenet required help so they told the prince about the fire and he helped them but they couldn’t find me so they all thought I was dead
And the prince heart was broken and I stayed trapped looking over him always
Cheers,
O
“you can cut my hands off before you take my USB!!”
Woman!! What’s wrong with you?!, BTW it’s your hand we are talking about!!
As he almost broke my fingers open, took my USB and my Showtime subscription ;-(
Walla I’m starting to consider the messages sent by my inner brain,
Allah yer7am el days when my dreams, where lovely and they’ve made sweet stories
Back in 2006
Living with people in the desert, in a far away time,
they have a special day of the year they call it energy day in it all unmarried people would go out in the desert and find their source of energy, I went out and as I walked I saw a stream of water and stepped in,
And there I found my peace my serenity, then draw nearer a man who saw me,
So for him to experience my small spot he had to be really close,
then he went on to trace the source of water,
I was with him walking in his direction,
but I realized I was floating so I turned around and told him that I’m walking on air and he looked at me and smiled,
he was carrying me all the way,
after a while the day has ended and they started to call out the people to come back,
as we returned people greeted my guy and I discovered that he was the prince
so what happens next is that every one must go rest and get prepared for the night where each bachelor will announce his bride
The night came and we started to enter the grand tent, when I entered there was something wearied going on,
there was another girl who was setting next to my prince and when I approached him he looked at me and he was unhappy then I stopped and he stopped to announce his bride and it wasn’t me, it was the other girl,
Out of the tent I ran and ran in to the desert because when I walked out one of the prince body guards followed me so I wanted to hide from him and I saw in the distance a tenet of an other country and went to hide inside,
the other side of it was magical and I was able to see what happened in the past and what is happening in the present,
That afternoon as the prince was resting in his tenet he received a poem that gives him direction to marry the other girl and that was a promise made by his father and he must obey,
After I left he went after me and then I saw the body guard trying to enter the tenet where I went but a massive fire happened and the people who own this tenet required help so they told the prince about the fire and he helped them but they couldn’t find me so they all thought I was dead
And the prince heart was broken and I stayed trapped looking over him always
Cheers,
O
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Still
Back to Ahmadi, again!, to avoid the madness, this time through 9ab7an,
there was something in the still distance of the ever yellow desert,
water was over flowing from the ground,
and a pool was forming as the water kept on pouring from that square hole,
I wanted to call 777 to tell them about it, so they can come and do something, but I didn’t, remembering few incidents with the “defenders of the weak” made me think of all possible excuses not to call, I came up with a couple:
What if by the time they arrive “if ever” the water finish!! ey’7ali9 and with our sun, it will be dried in no time, if I get to make those people come here without finding any thing they’d probably charge me with “ez3ag solo6at” !! mesakien I made them move!!!
It’s happening in the desert why can’t I let the poor land drink some water, it must be really thirsty
By the time I’ve reached the second excuse I’ve already passed it by and without doing anything (shame on me)
…….
Walking in to the office and “he” was sitting there wearing a red polo shirt listening to M7md 3bd elwahab, Ana w el 3aZab w hawak = Me and the suffering and your love, I looked at him
“I didn’t know…”
“don’t think I’ll be in pain, not any more, I’m sending you off, for a year on the other end of the world”
“will I be back?”
I woke up, god that was scarey!!! I guess that was coming from my feeling of guilt,
If I hate someone, I believe that gives them the absolute right to hate me back, but to love me as I hate them, that is just unfair,
I was asking god that eysa’7rah ley
Bas ‘7ala9, 6ofart minah, athaney
And there is no way I can think of or imagine to deal with this person!!!
My work has a great area in my life, and as he exists in it, then he exists in my life,
Oh my god what can I do??!!?!? ;-(
……
Taking cautious steps and searching for them, looking in to the faces of woman, spreading around setting on the floor, in front of each a plastic cup of water and few dates, some would have a piece of bred others would hold in there hands leaves of ray7an, and it’s so calm, I can’t hear what they say as if it’s a still picture,
Young women holding their child to their breasts,
Old women setting quietly leaning to the grand columns,
Some women would go around to give, water, food, a smile
It’s time now, I couldn’t find them, I walk back to my place,
Standing by my side, I hear a trembling voice, a cry and a prayer, I can hear what she is asking, I know what she is praying for and my heart cries with her a silent cry, pleading for her daughter, may god answer your prayers dear mother…
And we pray,
with each movement, I hear the clouds moving,
the sound when they are racing before a storm,
and it’s glory alarms my heart, in an instant tranquility, and I blend in…
Hands reaching, grapping the black fabric, holding, unyielding, it’s so great and powerful, beyond sound, beyond tears, I see the cry in their tightened hands
Cheers,
O
there was something in the still distance of the ever yellow desert,
water was over flowing from the ground,
and a pool was forming as the water kept on pouring from that square hole,
I wanted to call 777 to tell them about it, so they can come and do something, but I didn’t, remembering few incidents with the “defenders of the weak” made me think of all possible excuses not to call, I came up with a couple:
What if by the time they arrive “if ever” the water finish!! ey’7ali9 and with our sun, it will be dried in no time, if I get to make those people come here without finding any thing they’d probably charge me with “ez3ag solo6at” !! mesakien I made them move!!!
It’s happening in the desert why can’t I let the poor land drink some water, it must be really thirsty
By the time I’ve reached the second excuse I’ve already passed it by and without doing anything (shame on me)
…….
Walking in to the office and “he” was sitting there wearing a red polo shirt listening to M7md 3bd elwahab, Ana w el 3aZab w hawak = Me and the suffering and your love, I looked at him
“I didn’t know…”
“don’t think I’ll be in pain, not any more, I’m sending you off, for a year on the other end of the world”
“will I be back?”
I woke up, god that was scarey!!! I guess that was coming from my feeling of guilt,
If I hate someone, I believe that gives them the absolute right to hate me back, but to love me as I hate them, that is just unfair,
I was asking god that eysa’7rah ley
Bas ‘7ala9, 6ofart minah, athaney
And there is no way I can think of or imagine to deal with this person!!!
My work has a great area in my life, and as he exists in it, then he exists in my life,
Oh my god what can I do??!!?!? ;-(
……
Taking cautious steps and searching for them, looking in to the faces of woman, spreading around setting on the floor, in front of each a plastic cup of water and few dates, some would have a piece of bred others would hold in there hands leaves of ray7an, and it’s so calm, I can’t hear what they say as if it’s a still picture,
Young women holding their child to their breasts,
Old women setting quietly leaning to the grand columns,
Some women would go around to give, water, food, a smile
It’s time now, I couldn’t find them, I walk back to my place,
Standing by my side, I hear a trembling voice, a cry and a prayer, I can hear what she is asking, I know what she is praying for and my heart cries with her a silent cry, pleading for her daughter, may god answer your prayers dear mother…
And we pray,
with each movement, I hear the clouds moving,
the sound when they are racing before a storm,
and it’s glory alarms my heart, in an instant tranquility, and I blend in…
Hands reaching, grapping the black fabric, holding, unyielding, it’s so great and powerful, beyond sound, beyond tears, I see the cry in their tightened hands
Cheers,
O
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
A Journey of Soul Healing - Enshallah
Enshallah I’ll off to Holy Makkah in few hours,
No more work!! Meaning any work related;
emails,
phone calls,
meetings,
requests,
enshallah none of the above!!
(Oh My God, is this what my life turned to?! Work orinted!! Yakh)
No more work!! Meaning any work related;
emails,
phone calls,
meetings,
requests,
enshallah none of the above!!
(Oh My God, is this what my life turned to?! Work orinted!! Yakh)
Expected to be back enshallah on Saturday night
Interruption:
I need to break down…
I need to cry…
I need to let my weakness take over me…
To be separated from the world and just be by my self
How selfish my reasons are
People would go to ask
For forgiveness
For mercy
For happiness
For health
For heaven
And I ask
To be comforted
To take off the weight I have on my shoulders
To make sense of life
So I can go on
So I can understand
So I can accept what’s destined
So I can live
Interruption:
I need to break down…
I need to cry…
I need to let my weakness take over me…
To be separated from the world and just be by my self
How selfish my reasons are
People would go to ask
For forgiveness
For mercy
For happiness
For health
For heaven
And I ask
To be comforted
To take off the weight I have on my shoulders
To make sense of life
So I can go on
So I can understand
So I can accept what’s destined
So I can live
Take Care,
O
Sunday, September 16, 2007
A little story
In a far a way land,
there was a kingdom,
they were living in peace and harmony,
one day the king got sick,
at his nose,
all the doctors of the kingdom couldn’t cure the king,
there was only one way to stop the disease from spreading to his body,
they had to cut his nose,
so now the king has no nose,
and in every time he meets with his ministers,
the ministers start to giggle and chuckle at him,
the next day the King has made an order,
“All the noses of the ministers have to be cut!”
now the ministers has no nose,
and when they meet the people,
people chuckle at them,
so all the ministers agreed,
“All the noses of the people have to be cut!”
now the entire Kingdom has no nose,
Years later,
a lost stranger passed by the kingdom,
when people saw him,
they all started laughing,
cause he had a nose
there was a kingdom,
they were living in peace and harmony,
one day the king got sick,
at his nose,
all the doctors of the kingdom couldn’t cure the king,
there was only one way to stop the disease from spreading to his body,
they had to cut his nose,
so now the king has no nose,
and in every time he meets with his ministers,
the ministers start to giggle and chuckle at him,
the next day the King has made an order,
“All the noses of the ministers have to be cut!”
now the ministers has no nose,
and when they meet the people,
people chuckle at them,
so all the ministers agreed,
“All the noses of the people have to be cut!”
now the entire Kingdom has no nose,
Years later,
a lost stranger passed by the kingdom,
when people saw him,
they all started laughing,
cause he had a nose
Friday, September 14, 2007
The Signal Journal days 6 to 7
First Day fo6or
In a room with a dozen people, sitting in a chair right next to Yehia, holding a mug of tea and laughing,
An hour before I and Ayad arrived to Yehia’s home, he invited us for fo6or, came to pick us with his fiancé and there we where, meet with his sisters and mom and right after us the rest of his family, aunts, uncles and cousins started to arrive
After a brief weather conversation, a typical stranger’s topic, it was time to have fo6or,
I must say it’s very similar to the one we have in Kuwait,
Break our fast with dates, followed by soup and then food, lots of food :D
As I was sipping my soup, I felt a chock up my throat, so sudden and strong sadness that hit me, I’m not with my family, I could have braked crying right there and then but I had an other sip, swallowed my soup and with it my cry…
Now standing by the table taking food Yehia’s mom saw my plate and without asking took it from me and wouldn’t bring it back till it was full, of everything!!
Rice, two types of chicken, meet, ma7shey, béchamel, oh my god that was a lot, but the food was great, and I was starving :-P
After the huge feast, we prayed el ma’3reb gama3ah, my god that felt so peaceful and I felt God is taking care of me, al7mdellah
Back to the room, the comfort that comes from them is effortless, they treat you as they’ve known you for ever, and they act so natural, not stiff or pretending, easy going and can joke about any thing so fluently
Of course for me, after I stuffed my self with food, breathing and moving was a very hard thing to do, so I laid back and started listening to there conversations
Ayad was sitting in the opposite side of me, every time he would speak about the gulf country or people, he would look at me, I don’t know why, was it reassurance or inviting me to step in to the dialogue but I kept silent cause really my head was having difficulty getting blood since all of it went to my stomach,
An hour later he looked at me and gave me the signal, it’s an eye contact based signal pronouncing it’s time to leave, I want to go and you should go with me, a very stupid smile came across my face!?!? I blinked yes and off we went back to the hotel
There was a plan that I wanna go wild for few hours before I leave Cairo, my definition of going wild is, going and having so7or out, let’s just say I’m starving right now,
first of all I had a flight to catch enshallah tomorrow and the real first of all is I’m ‘7awafah, I don’t see how I’m going to tell my parents, you know what I went out at 11
pm and came back the next morning!! At dawn!!
Various,
I fell on my knees in the street and I hurt my left knee pretty bad, it’s swollen and blue
I spilled hot water on my fingers as I was making tea
My wisdom tooth is growing, again!!
Other than that, I’m fine al7mdellah
Second day fo6or
Sitting alone at a table in Starbucks at Dubai Airport waiting for my flight back enshallah to Kuwait
Have my fo6or on a sandwich and a Perrier, that’s pathetic
Ayad and I by pure coincidences had the same flight back, when I first stepped down from the room this morning to check out, I told the concierge I’m waiting for someone, few minutes later,
C, tela2ey 9adey2teik lessa ma 9e7yetch
M, no he is here
C, mien ? fein?
M, pointing at Ayad
C, …..
A bit later
Con, Your friend is coming!!!
Maha’s head, eshme3na hathy el jomlah bel tha_at in English? Miste7ey etgooly 9a7bik is coming???
At the Airport
The guy who carries the bags
The Guy, Dah gowzik?
M, No
The Guy’s face, a dirty smile!!!
Maha’s head, WHAT THE HELL!!!!
That’s the thing in all Arab society; you can either be married or be a Bitch and her Bastred, people with rotten minds!!!
The true element that creates the moment is human actions, I must say that I’ve been very fortunate in this trip that the human element of it was great, nice people, good company and simple
And for me, it was so natural and 3ady, before when I get to travel with guys at work, I hardly remember any of them being Arab, and I thought maybe that’s why it’s very natural and easy to be with them, but even this time it felt the same and much better given that we speak the same language and understand each other better, I did enjoyed his company, but purely as a friend, shame it had to stop right there and then as we said good bye and each walked in his own path in life
The End
Cheers,
O
Update,
Perfect moment, 19:45
if any of our actions would have been delayed by a fraction of second we would have missed each other, if I stopped for one more second checking the bags or if I looked the other way or someone would pass right in front of me, but nothing of that has happened, as I was walking to my gate a figure emerged ascending from the escalator, and there I was face to face with him, again :’) guess it’s not so dramatically final, as long as it’s destined for our paths to cross, then it shall be…
In a room with a dozen people, sitting in a chair right next to Yehia, holding a mug of tea and laughing,
An hour before I and Ayad arrived to Yehia’s home, he invited us for fo6or, came to pick us with his fiancé and there we where, meet with his sisters and mom and right after us the rest of his family, aunts, uncles and cousins started to arrive
After a brief weather conversation, a typical stranger’s topic, it was time to have fo6or,
I must say it’s very similar to the one we have in Kuwait,
Break our fast with dates, followed by soup and then food, lots of food :D
As I was sipping my soup, I felt a chock up my throat, so sudden and strong sadness that hit me, I’m not with my family, I could have braked crying right there and then but I had an other sip, swallowed my soup and with it my cry…
Now standing by the table taking food Yehia’s mom saw my plate and without asking took it from me and wouldn’t bring it back till it was full, of everything!!
Rice, two types of chicken, meet, ma7shey, béchamel, oh my god that was a lot, but the food was great, and I was starving :-P
After the huge feast, we prayed el ma’3reb gama3ah, my god that felt so peaceful and I felt God is taking care of me, al7mdellah
Back to the room, the comfort that comes from them is effortless, they treat you as they’ve known you for ever, and they act so natural, not stiff or pretending, easy going and can joke about any thing so fluently
Of course for me, after I stuffed my self with food, breathing and moving was a very hard thing to do, so I laid back and started listening to there conversations
Ayad was sitting in the opposite side of me, every time he would speak about the gulf country or people, he would look at me, I don’t know why, was it reassurance or inviting me to step in to the dialogue but I kept silent cause really my head was having difficulty getting blood since all of it went to my stomach,
An hour later he looked at me and gave me the signal, it’s an eye contact based signal pronouncing it’s time to leave, I want to go and you should go with me, a very stupid smile came across my face!?!? I blinked yes and off we went back to the hotel
There was a plan that I wanna go wild for few hours before I leave Cairo, my definition of going wild is, going and having so7or out, let’s just say I’m starving right now,
first of all I had a flight to catch enshallah tomorrow and the real first of all is I’m ‘7awafah, I don’t see how I’m going to tell my parents, you know what I went out at 11
pm and came back the next morning!! At dawn!!
Various,
I fell on my knees in the street and I hurt my left knee pretty bad, it’s swollen and blue
I spilled hot water on my fingers as I was making tea
My wisdom tooth is growing, again!!
Other than that, I’m fine al7mdellah
Second day fo6or
Sitting alone at a table in Starbucks at Dubai Airport waiting for my flight back enshallah to Kuwait
Have my fo6or on a sandwich and a Perrier, that’s pathetic
Ayad and I by pure coincidences had the same flight back, when I first stepped down from the room this morning to check out, I told the concierge I’m waiting for someone, few minutes later,
C, tela2ey 9adey2teik lessa ma 9e7yetch
M, no he is here
C, mien ? fein?
M, pointing at Ayad
C, …..
A bit later
Con, Your friend is coming!!!
Maha’s head, eshme3na hathy el jomlah bel tha_at in English? Miste7ey etgooly 9a7bik is coming???
At the Airport
The guy who carries the bags
The Guy, Dah gowzik?
M, No
The Guy’s face, a dirty smile!!!
Maha’s head, WHAT THE HELL!!!!
That’s the thing in all Arab society; you can either be married or be a Bitch and her Bastred, people with rotten minds!!!
The true element that creates the moment is human actions, I must say that I’ve been very fortunate in this trip that the human element of it was great, nice people, good company and simple
And for me, it was so natural and 3ady, before when I get to travel with guys at work, I hardly remember any of them being Arab, and I thought maybe that’s why it’s very natural and easy to be with them, but even this time it felt the same and much better given that we speak the same language and understand each other better, I did enjoyed his company, but purely as a friend, shame it had to stop right there and then as we said good bye and each walked in his own path in life
The End
Cheers,
O
Update,
Perfect moment, 19:45
if any of our actions would have been delayed by a fraction of second we would have missed each other, if I stopped for one more second checking the bags or if I looked the other way or someone would pass right in front of me, but nothing of that has happened, as I was walking to my gate a figure emerged ascending from the escalator, and there I was face to face with him, again :’) guess it’s not so dramatically final, as long as it’s destined for our paths to cross, then it shall be…
Thursday, September 13, 2007
*Dem3ah Journal Days 3 to 5
Thinking, “Oh Shit, I don’t have time to have breakfast and walk to the office” wait a minute woman, it’s Ramadan!!
Having my First Ramadan Day away from home,
No “what are you cooking for today?” or “what’s for desert?” or “fighting with my brothers over the remote”
It doesn’t feel like it ….
@ work, I’m sooo pissed to a point that I might get paralyzed, any ways, after going there and waiting for 55 minutes and spending an hour and a half to get a response, the reaction was in slow motion!! As I was about to complete that project from hell and get rid of it, guess what??
What could happen to me? Miss Maha or should I say miss Fab Luck Queen?
The fire alarm turns on!!!
Important note 1, the PFH should have been submitted yesterday
Important note 2, we are located at the 12th floor
So here we are an entire building rushing down the stairs for 12th floors, crossing two streets and waiting in the parking lot, I was having a nervous break down, while others around me where pausing to take photographs!!!
I’m now back again to my dear laptop, 30 minutes later, anyways enough of this crap, I sent it and enshallah, ya raby ya 7abyby fokiny min hal low3at el chabd,
2 minutes later, my client wants to see me on Sunday
and my #$?!!#. Want me to work on Saturday!!
I had only one replay, Man my traveling time is 10 Hours, and I happen to be fasting and the entire last week was … I don’t want to even talk about it, it’s exhausting
On an other note
My Diners for the past couple of days,
Monday, Friday’s since it’s located in a walking distance from the hotel
Tuesday, Abu el Seid that place was IMPRESSIVE!!! An old Arabisk style villa in a quite neighborhood, you can easily mistake it for a house, the atmosphere is so comfy and warm, every thing was screaming, you are in Egypt of the last century, chandlers, seating of old style sofa and the tables, every thing was just as it should be, perfect, the food was all Egyptian traditional menu of doves and rabbits, LoooL :D
I didn’t eat any of that stuff, I had molo’7eyah bel fera’7 and white rice, that was sooo delicious, coming from a very picky food person, after that it was fallowed by tea and mahalabeyah, leaving the food aside the company was great, I laughed so hard :D
They say that this place started to open branches; I guess if it opens in Kuwait, it would be a great hit
Wednesday, Grand Hyatt, seating by the Neil the weather now is getting chilly
We stayed there talking for hours, basically me and Ayad where pitching to every one about our hypocrite societies and how we have become victims of the “transitional period” as Ayad likes to call it
I didn’t think that far in to the future before, any ways I’ll talk about this in detail later enshallah
For now, I’m just saying that I did have a good time
The thing is on the way to the hotel, we got lost and all the sudden we where inside a street in a 7arah!!! I thought that it only existed in the movies, but no I was there and I saw the gahwah and the tiny streets and all the other surrounding shops oh my god, that was something
So until now I’m not sure where I’m going to have fo6or for tonight…
Anyways,
Mbarak 3likom el Shahar o 3asakom min 3awadah
Cheers,
O
Having my First Ramadan Day away from home,
No “what are you cooking for today?” or “what’s for desert?” or “fighting with my brothers over the remote”
It doesn’t feel like it ….
@ work, I’m sooo pissed to a point that I might get paralyzed, any ways, after going there and waiting for 55 minutes and spending an hour and a half to get a response, the reaction was in slow motion!! As I was about to complete that project from hell and get rid of it, guess what??
What could happen to me? Miss Maha or should I say miss Fab Luck Queen?
The fire alarm turns on!!!
Important note 1, the PFH should have been submitted yesterday
Important note 2, we are located at the 12th floor
So here we are an entire building rushing down the stairs for 12th floors, crossing two streets and waiting in the parking lot, I was having a nervous break down, while others around me where pausing to take photographs!!!
I’m now back again to my dear laptop, 30 minutes later, anyways enough of this crap, I sent it and enshallah, ya raby ya 7abyby fokiny min hal low3at el chabd,
2 minutes later, my client wants to see me on Sunday
and my #$?!!#. Want me to work on Saturday!!
I had only one replay, Man my traveling time is 10 Hours, and I happen to be fasting and the entire last week was … I don’t want to even talk about it, it’s exhausting
On an other note
My Diners for the past couple of days,
Monday, Friday’s since it’s located in a walking distance from the hotel
Tuesday, Abu el Seid that place was IMPRESSIVE!!! An old Arabisk style villa in a quite neighborhood, you can easily mistake it for a house, the atmosphere is so comfy and warm, every thing was screaming, you are in Egypt of the last century, chandlers, seating of old style sofa and the tables, every thing was just as it should be, perfect, the food was all Egyptian traditional menu of doves and rabbits, LoooL :D
I didn’t eat any of that stuff, I had molo’7eyah bel fera’7 and white rice, that was sooo delicious, coming from a very picky food person, after that it was fallowed by tea and mahalabeyah, leaving the food aside the company was great, I laughed so hard :D
They say that this place started to open branches; I guess if it opens in Kuwait, it would be a great hit
Wednesday, Grand Hyatt, seating by the Neil the weather now is getting chilly
We stayed there talking for hours, basically me and Ayad where pitching to every one about our hypocrite societies and how we have become victims of the “transitional period” as Ayad likes to call it
I didn’t think that far in to the future before, any ways I’ll talk about this in detail later enshallah
For now, I’m just saying that I did have a good time
The thing is on the way to the hotel, we got lost and all the sudden we where inside a street in a 7arah!!! I thought that it only existed in the movies, but no I was there and I saw the gahwah and the tiny streets and all the other surrounding shops oh my god, that was something
So until now I’m not sure where I’m going to have fo6or for tonight…
Anyways,
Mbarak 3likom el Shahar o 3asakom min 3awadah
Cheers,
O
*Dem3ah: basically its Daqoos!!
P.S. A warm Congrat’s to my Angel Maryam for her new job :D may Allah bless you and eywafgich my SunShine :*
Sunday, September 9, 2007
*Genuine **Borio - Journal days 1 to 2
I woke up and there I was in the back seat of a taxi in the middle of two men shouting at each other
El Shawyesh: ma te2darsh et3adey min hina, mamno3!!
Sawa2 el taxi: ya3ney eyh? Da ana bashta’3ala …..
I looked at the taxi driver and told him to just stop any where and let me get out of here
I arrived there few hours ago, and there I found my self back in Egypt, last time I was there I believe was in 2002 where I stayed in Cairo for a night to catch my flight back to Kuwait
I was successful to block the memories of that land for the past 5 years, but now every thing came rushing back
It’s not hate what I have for that place; I can’t tell what it could be…
We arrived late but some how because they’ve changed the timing we were actually 15 mints early
Getting out of the airport was very smooth, al7mdellah, arriving to the hotel showering, getting dressed and then off we went to Grand Hayatt, the place to be in Cairo on a Friday night
Setting by the Nile, boats where passing by, the weather is cool, and I ask my self again, what is it?
It’s heart break, the huge gap between people, it’s poverty, excruciating poverty and after you have your big meal in a fancy place you step out and there you see it with your own eyes,
Next morning, going around the city fetching for stuff, of course unsuccessfully, the things you see out there on the street are quite original,
Sign reads; “Doctor Decent Excellent” you start to wonder if Doctor is his occupation or name
We arrived to the boat where we are supposed to have launch,
a flash back; “6 years ago a little boy selling flowers emerged out of no where it was so sudden that my mom screamed “’7ara3tney” and he replayed “ya3ney eyeh ‘7are3teney?” I think he was 5 years old”
finished launch and as I was reaching for the Taxi door a boy emerged right in front of me selling flowers, an other Egyptian guy came and sent him away,
In the taxi, the thought that this boy could be the same boy years ago scares me… could it be?
Looking from the window, to the Nile shore, it’s like lovers spot
I’m starting to build a theory that romanticism flourish near rivers!! Around every corner you’ll find two seating together holding hands, talking and facing the river,
The entire population has an engagement / wedding ring, even that flower boy who could be a 12 year old!!
I’m in the bath room now just about to step in the bath tube to take a shower when the phone started ringing, covered with a towel went out there to answer it;
Maha, are you a sleep?
No
How are you?
Fine, who is this?
Ayad, “the guy with me in the course”
And we continued talking, in English??
After I hang up
Mom, who was that?
Maha, Ayad
Mom, what did he say?
Maha, he asked me out for dinner, and I said no
Mom, What!!! Why let him come and have dinner with us!!
Maha’s head; if we where in Kuwait and someone whom I’ve never met calls me up and you answer and hand it over to me “I’m not even commenting on that” to ask me out for dinner and I say no, you’d kill me either way!!
In the taxi again, window open, variety of
Smells; Donkey
Garbage
Manure
Dust particles that would actually cause you an injury while smashing to your face
Water particles which I don’t want to think what other option it might be
Passing by the TV building, I still remember in the “fawazier” where Nielly would be dressed in purple, she used to wear it as a hat
Setting next to me now a little 3 year old girl golden logs blue eyes, when I speak to her she doesn’t understand a word I say, so for the first time since I came here I converted and started speaking Egyptian, we sat there drawing a house a tree a flower a cloud and grass, then she took the paper fold it and put it in her bag…
An a 8 year old boy join us, comes in and gives me a big hand shake a kiss on my cheek
I do love kids…
I walk by and I look at my reflection in the mirror, I’m pleased that yes my reflection is different, yes I’ve grown, I deserve it, it sure cost me a lot
In the morning, I see him setting across from me in the lobby, he didn’t see me yet, I can tell it’s him, it’s time to practice my latest formed theory about dealing with men, let him make the first move, always
We are now setting together talking, no spark, an other theory, since I’ve dealt with guys before, I’m waiting for the moment when I meat a guy and there would be a spark, I can totally differentiate between relationships I can have with a guy, but for that special someone I’d like to be involved with romantically there should be a spark
255 Emails, I have to go through them, urgent work, sure everything urgent, Mr, A#$ H0%#& who is supposed to handle things since I’m away, sends me this:
I’m confident in your ability to complete… yeah right!!
I’m so tired….
Cheers,
O
*Shop name which sells fake bags, yeah right!!
**That’s what a sign which looks exactly like Orio white and blue but here it’s Borio, laa 9ij walla kilish mo baygeynha!!!
El Shawyesh: ma te2darsh et3adey min hina, mamno3!!
Sawa2 el taxi: ya3ney eyh? Da ana bashta’3ala …..
I looked at the taxi driver and told him to just stop any where and let me get out of here
I arrived there few hours ago, and there I found my self back in Egypt, last time I was there I believe was in 2002 where I stayed in Cairo for a night to catch my flight back to Kuwait
I was successful to block the memories of that land for the past 5 years, but now every thing came rushing back
It’s not hate what I have for that place; I can’t tell what it could be…
We arrived late but some how because they’ve changed the timing we were actually 15 mints early
Getting out of the airport was very smooth, al7mdellah, arriving to the hotel showering, getting dressed and then off we went to Grand Hayatt, the place to be in Cairo on a Friday night
Setting by the Nile, boats where passing by, the weather is cool, and I ask my self again, what is it?
It’s heart break, the huge gap between people, it’s poverty, excruciating poverty and after you have your big meal in a fancy place you step out and there you see it with your own eyes,
Next morning, going around the city fetching for stuff, of course unsuccessfully, the things you see out there on the street are quite original,
Sign reads; “Doctor Decent Excellent” you start to wonder if Doctor is his occupation or name
We arrived to the boat where we are supposed to have launch,
a flash back; “6 years ago a little boy selling flowers emerged out of no where it was so sudden that my mom screamed “’7ara3tney” and he replayed “ya3ney eyeh ‘7are3teney?” I think he was 5 years old”
finished launch and as I was reaching for the Taxi door a boy emerged right in front of me selling flowers, an other Egyptian guy came and sent him away,
In the taxi, the thought that this boy could be the same boy years ago scares me… could it be?
Looking from the window, to the Nile shore, it’s like lovers spot
I’m starting to build a theory that romanticism flourish near rivers!! Around every corner you’ll find two seating together holding hands, talking and facing the river,
The entire population has an engagement / wedding ring, even that flower boy who could be a 12 year old!!
I’m in the bath room now just about to step in the bath tube to take a shower when the phone started ringing, covered with a towel went out there to answer it;
Maha, are you a sleep?
No
How are you?
Fine, who is this?
Ayad, “the guy with me in the course”
And we continued talking, in English??
After I hang up
Mom, who was that?
Maha, Ayad
Mom, what did he say?
Maha, he asked me out for dinner, and I said no
Mom, What!!! Why let him come and have dinner with us!!
Maha’s head; if we where in Kuwait and someone whom I’ve never met calls me up and you answer and hand it over to me “I’m not even commenting on that” to ask me out for dinner and I say no, you’d kill me either way!!
In the taxi again, window open, variety of
Smells; Donkey
Garbage
Manure
Dust particles that would actually cause you an injury while smashing to your face
Water particles which I don’t want to think what other option it might be
Passing by the TV building, I still remember in the “fawazier” where Nielly would be dressed in purple, she used to wear it as a hat
Setting next to me now a little 3 year old girl golden logs blue eyes, when I speak to her she doesn’t understand a word I say, so for the first time since I came here I converted and started speaking Egyptian, we sat there drawing a house a tree a flower a cloud and grass, then she took the paper fold it and put it in her bag…
An a 8 year old boy join us, comes in and gives me a big hand shake a kiss on my cheek
I do love kids…
I walk by and I look at my reflection in the mirror, I’m pleased that yes my reflection is different, yes I’ve grown, I deserve it, it sure cost me a lot
In the morning, I see him setting across from me in the lobby, he didn’t see me yet, I can tell it’s him, it’s time to practice my latest formed theory about dealing with men, let him make the first move, always
We are now setting together talking, no spark, an other theory, since I’ve dealt with guys before, I’m waiting for the moment when I meat a guy and there would be a spark, I can totally differentiate between relationships I can have with a guy, but for that special someone I’d like to be involved with romantically there should be a spark
255 Emails, I have to go through them, urgent work, sure everything urgent, Mr, A#$ H0%#& who is supposed to handle things since I’m away, sends me this:
I’m confident in your ability to complete… yeah right!!
I’m so tired….
Cheers,
O
*Shop name which sells fake bags, yeah right!!
**That’s what a sign which looks exactly like Orio white and blue but here it’s Borio, laa 9ij walla kilish mo baygeynha!!!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
That’s why God has created Divorce!!
زوج غيور جدا
لقي اربعة اشخاص مصرعهم
واصيب ستة آخرون حين فجر زوج غيور قنبلة يدوية في منزله في شمال فيتنام.
وذكرت مصادر الشرطة ان دينه فان تو، 29 عاما، انتزع مسمار امان قنبلة يدوية خلال نقاش ساخن مع زوجته حول اشاعات بأنها تقيم علاقة عاطفية مع رجل آخر.
وقال نائب رئىس الشرطة في منطقة كاو لوك باقليم لانغ سون على بعد 150 كيلومترا شمال شرق هانوي ان الانفجار قتل على الفور زوجته، نجوين ثي لوي وشقيقته دينه تو فونغ
.وقال المسؤول انه قتل ايضا في الانفجار ضابط شرطة وعمدة القرية الذي جاء الى منزل تو في محاولة للتوسط في الخلاف.ونقل الى المستشفى ستة اشخاص آخرون، بينهم تو نفسه وعشيق زوجته المشتبه فيه مصابين بجروح.
A Comment
الودائع البنكية تقارب 17 مليارا
فائض الميزان التجاري يتجاوز 5 مليارات دينار في النصف الاول
.
عرض 'الشال' ما تضمنته النشرة الاحصائية الفصلية (ابريل ـ يونيو 2007) لبنك الكويت المركزي (نشرت على موقعه على الانترنت)، من مؤشرات اقتصادية ونقدية، 'تستحق تطوراتها متابعة وتوثيقا'.وقال ان من هذه المؤشرات، مثلا، ان إجمالي عدد السكان في الكويت بلغ، في نهاية النصف الأول من العام الحالي، نحو 3.328 ملايين نسمة، وهو رقم يزيد بنحو 145.1 ألف نسمة، تقريبا، عن الرقم الذي سجله تعداد نهاية العام الفائت،
.
ما يعني أن معدل النمو نصف السنوي لعدد السكان قد سجل نسبة 4.56%، وهي نسبة ستصل إلى 9.12%، فيما لو حسبت على أساس سنوي، وفي فقرة أخرى من التقرير نفسه نذكر تفاصيل أرقام السكان والعمالة من المصدر، أي الهيئة العامة للمعلومات المدنية. الميزان التجاري
.
ومن هذه المؤشرات، أيضا، تحقيق الميزان التجاري -صادرات سلعية ناقصا واردات سلعية،- فائضا بلغ نحو 2.692 مليار دينار، في الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بعد أن بلغت قيمة صادرات الكويت السلعية، خلال هذا الربع، نحو 4.294 مليارات دينار كويتي، منها نحو 95.4% صادرات نفطية، بينما بلغت قيمة وارداتها السلعية (لا تشمل العسكرية) نحو 1.602 مليار دينار. وكانت الكويت حققت فائضا، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، بلغ نحو 2.434 مليار دينار، أي ان الميزان التجاري قد حقق فائضا، بلغ نحو 5.126 مليارات دينار، في النصف الأول من العام الحالي، أو نحو 10.251 مليارات دينار، فيما لو حسب لكامل عام 2007، وهو فائض أقل، بما نسبته 11.15%، عن مثيله القياسي المحقق، في عام 2006، البالغ نحو 11.538 مليار دينار، ولكن فائض عام 2007 الفعلي يعتمد على حركة أسعار النفط، التي مازالت مرتفعة.الفائدة
.
وتشير النشرة إلى انخفاض المعدل الموزون للفائدة على الودائع، إلى نحو 5.282%، في الربع الثاني، من نحو 5.413%، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي تقارب 2.4%، وانخفض، كذلك، المعدل الموزون للفائدة على القروض، إلى نحو 8.588% من نحو 8.759%، للفترة نفسها، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي قاربت 1.95%. وبلغ حجم الودائع، لدى البنوك المحلية، نحو 16.906 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بارتفاع طفيف عن مستوى 16.491 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، أي بنسبة ارتفاع ربع سنوي بلغت نحو 2.5%. وارتفعت، كذلك، مطالب البنوك على القطاع الخاص، إلى نحو 19.109 مليار دينار كويتي، من مستوى نحو 17.134 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، محققة نسبة نمو ربع سنوي قاربت 11.5%، وهي نسبة نمو مرتفعة، لابد من مراقبتها. يحدث ذلك رغم ثبات سعر الخصم، وانخفاض جاذبية الودائع بانخفاض سعر الفائدة عليها، وانخفاض تكلفة الاقتراض معها، ما يعني أن هناك توسعا نقديا، معه أنهى الربع الثاني من عام 2007 على ارتفاع كبير في أسعار الأصول المالية والعقارية
.
So if we simply took that amount and divided it among the people, each one would get 10,000KD “that gives you a whole new perspective for the 200KD!!”
.
I’d rather that all that extra money for this year only would be used to construct an infrastructure for this poor country, for gods sake “فج الليت انت مو فالكويت” beyond the fashlah this is serious issue!!
.
And people and consumption is not going any less it’s only heading upward so please, wagfow el “S, in English and B, in Arabic” for one year and invest in the welfare of the country, “power stations, streets, sewage, waste management; in your definition it’s what you do when you dump waste to the see, medical services; we know all the ‘7yas after the astegwab of wazyer el 9e7ah, schools, etc”
.
I think you do live in this land, don’t you? And enshallah allah ey3aw’9kom next year and you can “S or B” as much as you like!!
.
And of course you are not going to spend the entire amount in the first year, so if we take what we need and have a bit for emergency and put the rest for investments for the rest of the year so out of the 17,000,000,000 Kd that we have extra, how much would be the initial cost to build a new city? “cause improving the one we have would be waste of time and money”
.
So that would be a God giving project to save and develop the country and put the ‘7ayer of the land in the land, by the way we are a desert country, mo 9ayreynly 3yen 3atharey, at least have pity on us, ma nakser al’7a6er??
.
Cheers,
O
Cheers,
O
Monday, September 3, 2007
الوداع
حبيبي لقد حانت لحظة الوداع
اغرق في ذكريات لقائنا الاول
منذ اربعة اعوام حين التقينا
استقريت في مكاني احدق بك لا يسعني الا النظر اليك
استقريت في مكاني احدق بك لا يسعني الا النظر اليك
ساكنه لا تتحرك الا عيناي تتبعك حتى تحفظ ادق تفاصليك
شاركتني كل شيئ
لم نفترق الا لايام يملئني فيها الشوق فاعود اليك
انت يا رفيق دربي كم اعشقك
ساذكرك دائما عندما تمطر, كم كنا نحب المطر
كيف كان يجمعنا و يعزلنا عن العالم
يا من كنت اركض اليه, حتى اختبئ في حضنه الدافئ
لقد كنت لي ملجئا و مهربا
لقد كنت الاول و ذالك لن بغيره شيئ ابدا
ستظل دائما بقلبي ترسم ذكرياتك الابتسامة على شفتي
و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا يوما
فيك قوتي فكم يكيت على ذراعيك حتى جف دمعي
فيك راحتي فكم حملتك من اعبائي و اسراري
كم قسوت عليك و حملتك اكثر مما تتحمل و مع ذلك لم تخذلني يوما
فالعذر كل ما اطلب منك الان
القدر الذي جمعنا جاء الان حتى يفرق بيننا
لن تكون بعيدا فعنوانك هنا في صدري
ساشتاق اليك في كل صباح, دوما
و ان التقينا يوما ساغمرك بابتسامتي
و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا, كنت لي و كنت لك لن يستطيع الفراق ان يغير ذلك
اليوم كل منا يسير في طريقه من غير الاخر
*
ازف الرحيل و حان ان نتفرقا
فالى اللقا يا صاحبي الى اللقا
ان تبكيا فلقد بكيت من الاسى
حتى لكدت بادمعي ان اغرقا
و تسعرت عند الوداع اضلعي
نارخشيت بحرها ان احرقا
مازلت اخشى البين قبل وقوعه
حتى غدوت و ليس لي ان افرقا
يوم النوى, لله ما اقسى النوى
لولا النوى ما ابغضت نفسي البقا
رحنا حيارى صامتين كانما
للهول نحذر عنده ان ننطقا
اكبادنا خفاقه و عيوننا
لا تستطيع من البكا ان ترمقا
نتجاذب النظرات وهي ضعيفة
و نغالب الانفاس كيلا تزهقا
لو لم نعلل باللقاء نفوسنا
كادت مع العبرات ان تتدفقا
يا صاحبي تصبرا فلربما
عدنا و عاد الشمل ابهى رونقا
ان كانت الايام لم ترفق بنا
فمن النهى بنفوسنا ان نرفقا
ان الذي قدر القطيعة و النوى
!!..في وسعه ان يجمعع المتفرقا
حبيبي اتمنى لك كل الخير
الى" بعيري" سيارتي
...سافتقدك
مها
...سافتقدك
مها
للبيع جيب ذهبي بحاله ممتازه مديل 2003 ماشي 100,000 P.S.
من ديوان ابي ماضي – وداع و شكوى*
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Straight, Single & Senney Valentino
All good guys are taken by now “I’m only talking about specifically my age group”
What’s left is the following:
What men are and that’s divided to what they think they are and what they really are;
They all have girlfriend(s) each one would have more than one
Kings on earth for the sole reason he is a man
Knows every thing and understand everything, yes Einstein
Life is simple for him cause he already got it all figured out
Having no goals, shino ya3ney having no goals?!, they have goals many goals al7yen he goes and he makes goals for you bel sekkah!!!
His long distanced desire, weyn ba6la3 el yom?
Has no degree, why should he eyta3eb nafsah having education and learning to get a degree, don’t you know that he has connections?!
His hobby, Dewaneyah, mo’7ayam, Shalaih, 7oby those are places not activities, give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him what do you do in those places?
Swalif, nel3ab Koot bo 6, eat, ne’9’3a6 ba3a’9, hmmm ee that’s about it
OH MY GOD Impressive!!!
Sports?? That’s a very very stupid question; only take a look at the places they park their cars to avoid walking for three lousy steps!!!
Any ideas, point of views about hmmm, give them a brake and let the question broad maybe they have something, any thing? The simple answer would be, why?
Reading? He doesn’t even read signs Mr. Know it all, would you honestly think that he’d read a book!!
He is always busy and has no time, I’d love to know what the hell he does in that time, wild guess, staring and gossiping, hmm yes someone has to do it in this country!!
Thinking that who speaks English are show offs and eytefalsfoon, not human being with an ability to actually speak and communicate in different language, baby you from all people should know how hard is that since it’s hard enough for you to speak in one!!
Ultimate success, having a paying job with no work to do for it
Their definition of manhood, the guy who can swear, hit, drive fast and have his womEn
What men want is:
Wa7dah that “Onothah 6a’3yah” 7ata low ohwa se7t eyeb elma7ey, excuse me never heard of a show called “extreme make over”??? External beauty can be achieved within 6 weeks my darling
Te6ba’7 is her most important asset, yal el3abgarey, in your life time at your house ma yebtow a maid who even doesn’t speak the language ma ta3lmt el cocking ehya and that goes on for the 6baby’7 too, males and females, tra it’s not making split of the atom!!
And goes without saying “no active brain” shay yeg3ad ey6al3ah o yeg3ad eyetkalam o eytekalam o ehya by all means ma etred wala et7achah o laykon she has an opinion, shino hatha b3d? hatha ely nagi9!! ohwa bs ely ey3aref kil shay entay Female tadreyn shino F.E.male???
For Entertaining Male
O bas!!
Wala enta ely have no idea what female is, and honestly there is no point in telling you cause it’s a waste of breath!! But there are things you need to know:
1)First of all F.E.M.A.L.E 3la goltik stands for;
Fundemental Element for Mankind to Acquire Life on Earth!!!
2)Body is a container, its fragile so fragile that any object can tare it apart and get your sole out of it, when you are with a human any human their body mo elley is talking to you or comforting you or making you feel, “people are felt rather seen after the first few moments*”,
Our remaining guys as if mo shayfeyn ‘7yer their time span lasts more than moments, may’7alif, but it does vanish that initial infatuation of looks,
After that you’ll find out that looks is not funny or caring, body is not warm, it’s not in the touch its in the way you touch, beauty is not in the eye, it’s the way you look, 3ayal imagine beautiful eyes with dirty looks, dirty meaning hating and degrading mo ….,
3) do you know how God judge us?? By our acts hon, do you know how people make actions and decisions? By something known as thoughts, do you know what’s collective thoughts of different life aspects would make? Personality
yes that’s right, that’s where you have your values, ideas, hopes, aspiration, character, uniqueness and in it all a power is formed and can be converted in to something valuable called LIFE, guess that’s too much for you to process in one day!!!
Wake up guys and somehow in this country you have been given a power, o el9ara7ah who is left are so not kaffow, to make the choice, looks wont stand by your side, it’s the person within if that’s what you are looking for still, then that’s what you totally deserve and thanks for making your self so identifiable so that you can be easily avoided!!
A wish:
I’ve retired of being a helpless romantic, but in my heart I'd like to make this wish, that I’d know or hear or see a guy that is admirable and fascinating, just to know that he exists,
back in the years when I was in the romanticize service, I use to think that, as in this time and age god has made someone like me, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be a male like me too? And that gave me hope but didn’t last long,
now I need that hope back even if I don’t get that guy, it would be such a relief to know that a guy exists,
someone true, caring, knows who he is and what he wants to be, has his own mind, someone who believes in god, that you can carry on with a conversation that would result of something even if it was as simple as a genuine smile, that you can depend on, some one who’d never look down to you just because you are a woman, who’d see in your growth and success an added value to you and to the relationship, someone who’d respect you even if he didn’t agree with you, someone who’d make you an equal and a priority not some sort of accessory, and why can’t he be that in an acceptable package, we work on ourselves to look nice can’t he?
Is it too much to ask?
O
*East of Eden by John Steinbeck
What’s left is the following:
What men are and that’s divided to what they think they are and what they really are;
They all have girlfriend(s) each one would have more than one
Kings on earth for the sole reason he is a man
Knows every thing and understand everything, yes Einstein
Life is simple for him cause he already got it all figured out
Having no goals, shino ya3ney having no goals?!, they have goals many goals al7yen he goes and he makes goals for you bel sekkah!!!
His long distanced desire, weyn ba6la3 el yom?
Has no degree, why should he eyta3eb nafsah having education and learning to get a degree, don’t you know that he has connections?!
His hobby, Dewaneyah, mo’7ayam, Shalaih, 7oby those are places not activities, give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him what do you do in those places?
Swalif, nel3ab Koot bo 6, eat, ne’9’3a6 ba3a’9, hmmm ee that’s about it
OH MY GOD Impressive!!!
Sports?? That’s a very very stupid question; only take a look at the places they park their cars to avoid walking for three lousy steps!!!
Any ideas, point of views about hmmm, give them a brake and let the question broad maybe they have something, any thing? The simple answer would be, why?
Reading? He doesn’t even read signs Mr. Know it all, would you honestly think that he’d read a book!!
He is always busy and has no time, I’d love to know what the hell he does in that time, wild guess, staring and gossiping, hmm yes someone has to do it in this country!!
Thinking that who speaks English are show offs and eytefalsfoon, not human being with an ability to actually speak and communicate in different language, baby you from all people should know how hard is that since it’s hard enough for you to speak in one!!
Ultimate success, having a paying job with no work to do for it
Their definition of manhood, the guy who can swear, hit, drive fast and have his womEn
What men want is:
Wa7dah that “Onothah 6a’3yah” 7ata low ohwa se7t eyeb elma7ey, excuse me never heard of a show called “extreme make over”??? External beauty can be achieved within 6 weeks my darling
Te6ba’7 is her most important asset, yal el3abgarey, in your life time at your house ma yebtow a maid who even doesn’t speak the language ma ta3lmt el cocking ehya and that goes on for the 6baby’7 too, males and females, tra it’s not making split of the atom!!
And goes without saying “no active brain” shay yeg3ad ey6al3ah o yeg3ad eyetkalam o eytekalam o ehya by all means ma etred wala et7achah o laykon she has an opinion, shino hatha b3d? hatha ely nagi9!! ohwa bs ely ey3aref kil shay entay Female tadreyn shino F.E.male???
For Entertaining Male
O bas!!
Wala enta ely have no idea what female is, and honestly there is no point in telling you cause it’s a waste of breath!! But there are things you need to know:
1)First of all F.E.M.A.L.E 3la goltik stands for;
Fundemental Element for Mankind to Acquire Life on Earth!!!
2)Body is a container, its fragile so fragile that any object can tare it apart and get your sole out of it, when you are with a human any human their body mo elley is talking to you or comforting you or making you feel, “people are felt rather seen after the first few moments*”,
Our remaining guys as if mo shayfeyn ‘7yer their time span lasts more than moments, may’7alif, but it does vanish that initial infatuation of looks,
After that you’ll find out that looks is not funny or caring, body is not warm, it’s not in the touch its in the way you touch, beauty is not in the eye, it’s the way you look, 3ayal imagine beautiful eyes with dirty looks, dirty meaning hating and degrading mo ….,
3) do you know how God judge us?? By our acts hon, do you know how people make actions and decisions? By something known as thoughts, do you know what’s collective thoughts of different life aspects would make? Personality
yes that’s right, that’s where you have your values, ideas, hopes, aspiration, character, uniqueness and in it all a power is formed and can be converted in to something valuable called LIFE, guess that’s too much for you to process in one day!!!
Wake up guys and somehow in this country you have been given a power, o el9ara7ah who is left are so not kaffow, to make the choice, looks wont stand by your side, it’s the person within if that’s what you are looking for still, then that’s what you totally deserve and thanks for making your self so identifiable so that you can be easily avoided!!
A wish:
I’ve retired of being a helpless romantic, but in my heart I'd like to make this wish, that I’d know or hear or see a guy that is admirable and fascinating, just to know that he exists,
back in the years when I was in the romanticize service, I use to think that, as in this time and age god has made someone like me, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be a male like me too? And that gave me hope but didn’t last long,
now I need that hope back even if I don’t get that guy, it would be such a relief to know that a guy exists,
someone true, caring, knows who he is and what he wants to be, has his own mind, someone who believes in god, that you can carry on with a conversation that would result of something even if it was as simple as a genuine smile, that you can depend on, some one who’d never look down to you just because you are a woman, who’d see in your growth and success an added value to you and to the relationship, someone who’d respect you even if he didn’t agree with you, someone who’d make you an equal and a priority not some sort of accessory, and why can’t he be that in an acceptable package, we work on ourselves to look nice can’t he?
Is it too much to ask?
O
*East of Eden by John Steinbeck
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
