جيل واعي و لكن؟!؟!؟

Asma3 kalamik asada2k ashof amorak ast3geb?!?

Kuwaiti society, mashallah 3lyh, has two main characteristics that severely contradicts each other:

The first, it has so many short comings
The second, we all know about them!!!!

So when we all know that

-people will always look into your business, malagyf o bala’3at el shaf at full charge
-The way to go in Kuwait is to have wa96ah
-Driving in Kuwait is equivalent to committing suicide
-We are a racist nation
-People have double measures which they judge people by and judge themselves by

And the list never stops, and when you talk about them you’ll find the replay like this
-Yeah Yeah
-9ajjah
-Ee wallah
And added to it more live examples on their side of situations they have experienced, O b3deyn???

Elly I get is that people do know what’s wrong and what’s right, and would sit there talk for hours about idealism and the second they are in a situation they act exactly the opposite?!?!!? Shesalfah = what’s the deal??
Isn’t that called hypocorism?

And when you say, ya flan, tawek ga3ed etgool shay, sheno hatha ely ga3ed etsaweyh, eyyek el replay walla a7la:

-shino 7alal 3la ‘3yery 7aram 3lay?? “la wallah?!”
-that’s how things are!!! Wyenk mo 3aysh beldenyah?!
-Or those who start to give excuses to justify for them selves,
wallah spare me!!

No shame= ma yeste7on ?? So you can think and understand la o el moshkilah debate but when it comes to action, absher bel ‘7re6ey!!

Walla how we are supposed to make this country a place so we can all live?? 9ij ley galow deyrat ba6ye’7 mashyah 3l barakah!! Wa 7asratahhhhhhhhh,
mo elmafro’9 that we the youth are supposed to influence and shape the world around us?? "a'7af bs"

Bs leymeta??
أما ان الاون؟
(I try to avoid writing in arabic cause I’m not sure about the spilling “Wa fashlatahhhh”)

What if (me started hallucinating) every one 9ar she7lylah and do the right thing, go to work and work, be nice to people, quite sawalif wa96at and boog, if each one put a little effort form their side wallah one day you’ll wake up and this would be such a great place to live in, start with yourself
And enshallah we can make this is a better place… “shino hal 3aba6 ely ana fyh??”

Cheers,
O

P.S. maadrey shfeyney 9ayrah bitching wayed hal couple of days!!!

13-Oct-07

Drained out, wrapped up in sadness, over hearing the news over and over again coming from the next room and every time feels exactly like the first time….

But I can’t…
Tears are piling up and they won’t go down…
Cry is stuck in my throat and it won’t come out…
Questions flow from my mouth but the answers doesn’t change any thing….

When it comes so suddenly so un expecting, time stands still and all what you think of in great deal diminish and get trivialized…

What I’m really sad about, what am I scared of?
For him he’s gone and for their pain there is only time to heel it…

I look into myself and my life and all what I have is a single question,
What did I give to my life, true life,
And it’s not much

I’m only mourning myself now

This had happened before…
The first time I was baffled in bewilderment but strange how my understanding of it was so shallow

And it happened again…
There more things to take from it as one life departed it somehow made me responsible to make my life worth while

And again…
This time I’m more accepting but not satisfied with myself

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“The color of her eyes has faded but the glow is still there, she is in peace with her self, كل الي ايي من الله خير, she said”
الله يرحمه
enshallah….

It’s done and when it’s time then that’s it, you can’t bring a moment or delay a moment, that’s the time that we are allowed in life….
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The day before…
I was debating with my youngest brother whether to know when you are going to die or have it happening so suddenly

My argument was: I’d rather to know so I can say my goodbye and make amends and leave this world in peace

His replay was: you should always do that as you live not knowing when you’ll die

Me saying that: I think it’s like a sign from god so you can end your life in a better way

He replays: there was two brothers the youngest walks in to the mosque and finds his brother dead while praying, and he start crying ever so bad, people come and ask him to stop crying and that he should be happy for his brother that he died in such a way, he looks at them and tells them this:
“Ever since I was born my brothers life has been sinful in a way that is beyond imagination, I don’t even remember seeing him praying, and today from all the days his life is taken as he prays to Allah, that can only be from Gods mercy”
If god wants to send you a sign it can be in many ways

After that I had no replay…

You never know when it’s time to leave this earth and there is no better saying that comes to mind other than, أعمل لدنياك كأنك ستعيش أبداَ وأعمل لآخرتك كأنك ستموت غداَ.

We think of life and give it so much forgetting that it’s only the first part of our journey the part that would determine for us the rest of the way

{ قُلْ هَلْ نُنَبِّئُكُم بِٱلأَخْسَرِينَ أَعْمَالاً }
{ ٱلَّذِينَ ضَلَّ سَعْيُهُمْ فِي ٱلْحَيَاةِ ٱلدُّنْيَا وَهُمْ يَحْسَبُونَ أَنَّهُمْ يُحْسِنُونَ صُنْعاً }

New Look

This template may seems like it has absolutely nothing to do with anything but I had to select it out of frustration!!!
It’s been practically days that I’ve spent searching for a new template and I faced so much trouble:

1- going through templates and finding one I like (have been through hundreds walla)
2- trying them out, first I couldn’t make them work and it took me a full day to figure out what’s the trick, the magical button!!
3- When you try them out you lose all the layout added items : (
4- those I liked so much had many short comes, such as, they don’t provide you with comments option!!! They only appear for three quarters of the page, chenah design emga9mal!!, there is no options to add photos or links or anything just posts!!!
5- Those which actually work sucks, not even worth the trouble
Any ways I even thought of sticking with my old one but then said, No Way!!! I can’t, not after all that I've been through!!!

So here it is my new template which is 6ay7 men 3eyny because of it’s lack of functionality and enshallah I’m getting rid of it after having a break and finding a good functional template, of course I prefer performance over looks!!, but still it’s mine o ma ar’9a 3lyha :-P if there where many complaints regarding it, since you guys who are going to suffer given that you’ll deal with it, then I may consider taking it off sooner ;)

Cheers,
O

Update 9:23:

Just discovered that it doesn’t even support Arabic ; ( I officially hate it!!
It just keeps reminding me of Kuwaiti guys!!!!!

Second update 9:27:

Oppps, gues it does support Arabic :-P maskina ‘9almt_ha, ma adrey shfeyny elyom!!

3eydeyty, Some action

If any one had a one look on my face at that moment they would’ve known…

2:15 :’)
received the acceptance of my project upon three days of reviews, once I send the files enshallah I’ll be free and able to enjoy my holiday

2:17 :’(
as I was preparing the final files for submission….. guess what?? It’s not really hard wallah to guess,

over the years I’ve been going through the same lovely events, as if it’s a ritual, a tradition, as if it’s a part of all my projects ever since college, there is this kind of a magnet in my work that it self destruct and it just select the most perfect moment,

Yeah you are right, the software crashed!!!! How bloody typical, my usual self talk would contain sentence like,
this can’t be happening to me,
no no no,
and all those state of denial terms, this time for some reason it felt normal, I lost all access to my two weeks of work, there is no time for self talk, only action,

First question comes in to mind is, back up!!

"In colleague, I used to laugh at one of my professors, she had 5 different back up terms that are completely independent and unrelated starting with high tech ending with basic, Boy how wrong was I???!?!"

Going back to the back up, my last back up was dated October 8th, now my panic attack is at full charge!!!
I feel that I’ve experienced partial memory loss at that moment, what have I’ve done since Monday?? Tons of tiny little things

That’s the part which sucks about the way I work, start with the bulk do the main body then refine refine refine, how am I supposed to remember all those little tiny details I’ve been making??? God they are so many and all should be done like hmmm…. right now!!!!!

Prayers, lots of prayers, Oh god, what can I do? Should I tell my manager, I’ll blame him!! Don’t know why but it’s his fault!!!! Maly she’3el ;(

God I can’t think any more….

Tried again and again, checking back files, trying work around, every damn trick in the book,

And then al7mdellah ya rab, it worked :’) “currently suffering of post trauma symptoms manifesting them selves in the form of a category red headache”
Finally they got submitted….

Some of self assurance thoughts that I had as my ordeal was taking place:
That is a good thing, maybe I made a huge mistake and now when I redo it I’ll fix it, very lame,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to avoid a brutal accident by which I’d lose, esmellah 3lay, both my legs, so instead I’ll be stuck at home during 3eyd, that was a bit comforting,
That is a good thing, maybe god wants me to come back to the company next week where I’ll meet my future, my long waited one and only, that was a happy thought :’)

Happy 3eyd o enshallah kil 3am o ento eb’7yer :’)

Cheers,
O

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أبصروا النور فلم تعد الدنيا بعدهم كما كانت

1883 - Otto Heinrich Warburg, German physician, Nobel laureate
1895 - Juan Perón, President of Argentina
1895 - Zog I, King of Albania
1918 - Jens Christian Skou, Danish chemist, Nobel laureate
1927 - César Milstein, Argentine scientist, Nobel laureate
1948 - Pedro López, Colombian serial killer
1949 - Sigourney Weaver, American actress
1970 - Matt Damon, American actor
1982 – Maryam, Havenly Angel

HaPpY BiRtHdAy My SunShine :D

O’ Lady lighten our Darkness

What is a gift?

It’s a form of matter transformation that is directed from one person to an other

When you give a part of your time then you give part of your life
When you give a part of your attention then you give part of your thoughts
When you give a part of your laugh or cry then you give part of your soul
When you give a part of your positions then you are give part of your existence

When you love someone so much then you want to give them all you have,
Heart, mind and soul

There are people that are only apart of your path in life and there are people who are your true destination

My north star, where would I’ve been without your light….

I want to give you something, the best I can give of time
The best I can give of attention, the best I can give of positions,
Cause no one deserves as you

I look into my life and I know how truly I am blessed with your presence
In you a strength that pulls me through, genuine that makes me bold, and kindness that weakens and shake me to the core

I look up to you, did you know that?

The things you taught me by just being you, the shine that you’ve shed on my life the joy that you bring to my heart, there are humans who are not capable to ever bring one of them and yet you bring them all together so effortlessly

May god protect you my sweet Angel, I thank god for the ever bless of having you,

My greatest fear that cause we are only friends that the bond we have may end, but after all those years I know in my heart that what we share is far stronger than any bond could ever provide I wish that you know what you are to me,

Sitting in a hospital coffee shop, on a table waiting for my coffee to be ready, and I see a blind old man led by an Indian, must be his driver, feelings of anger rushed in to me, and I say to myself, could he have no one in his world to take his hand, how could someone he pays for worry about him, care about him, be gentle with him, or at least talk to him, and I looked again, this time the Indian left him standing there by him self as a hand slipped under his arm, standing close, lips whispering words and there he was a young man holding him leading the way walking by his side, and the care is overflowing, I couldn’t help but smile

That’s you to me Maryam :*

I love you,
Maha

My little life based conclusions

I’m back into studying Physics, linear Algebra, calculus and English grammar!!!
I guess enshallah from the look of it I’ll be repeating engineering classes again for the upcoming five years?!!?! My only hope is that if it’s going to be in an other discipline that I can at least get a certificate for it!!

So I’m taking a look at Newton’s third law:
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction

In The universe of physics the law is clear simple and you can fairly relay on it, but in the world of humans it’s never the case, your actions could have many reactions in result but none could ever fallow any law of nature so a look at some of what you may get in return for a an action

1- Nothing, some people would choose not to acknowledge your action as simple as that
2- A squared negative reaction, some people just over react
3- A reaction coming from un related parties, some people believe that they are the center of the universe and what ever you do is directed to them so they’d give themselves the right to react
4- A minimum reaction compared to your action, it happens when the two people involved don’t share the same definition of things
5- Even no actions at all can result in a reaction
6- A sequential events that would lead to your brutal death, “give me any situation and enshallah I’ll provide you with a scenario with the above stated end”

At school they teach us about objects and they miss out a very important thing, they don’t teach us about humans, and that’s the tricky part of living, there is no guide line no laws or steps, specially in this time and age when simple rules of ethics has diminished, it became harder and harder to deal with people

So in conclusion, for me just be who you are, do things and don’t expect something in return, because you can never control how people would receive things and react towards them, do it cause you want to that’s all

Cheers,
O

Mission Impossible!!!

I’ve been making consecutive shopping expeditions lately; the reason why they are consecutive is that I couldn’t find ANY thing to buy, at all!!

The styles are terrible the fabrics, texture and colors are pathetic and don’t get me even started on the prices!!

I look at the price tag and I wonder “Hmmm, what this figure could be? Is it the piece number? Is it the bar code?” of course after I thoroughly investigate the tag I discover, “well no sweety, it’s actually the price!” then I make more wonders “Is there a decimal point? Is this in Kuwaiti Dinars?”
El mo9eybah I wish it’s worth even 10% of the price associated with it!
Elmo9eybah^2 there are ppl who are actually buying it!!

In the states there was a Dolce and Gabbana coat, when ey’9eyg ‘7elgey I walk to the mall to stare at it, it was so beautiful I couldn’t dare to put it on, it was 3000$ ya3ney 1000Kd, wallah it was worth every penny, Black with tiger prints inside, this was the only time I saw tiger prints and marveled them, the design was so feminine, faltering and seductive, note I’m talking about only the coat, I even considered to buy it, and wear it every day and wouldn’t take it off!! But come one woman a coat in Kuwait?!!?

After total mall-shops grand disappointments, I walked the extra mile and I’ve done some visits to what you can call Kuwaiti designers/stores, this has been challenging, first conducted a wide search for such places and personal inquiries, second as I have no sense of directions, to get to a new place based on wa9f was such a pain in the a$#, any ways I’ve made it and what do I find?? Do I need to continue or you can imagine? To bring the image closer I’ve used the F word in every single time I step a foot in one of those so called stores

Do I come from Mars? Was I in a coma and missed out an entire taste shift in fashion?
Is the question, what is wrong with you ppl? Is actually, what is wrong with me?
I really can’t figure it out!!! It’s ‘7alageyn out there!!

I hold the price tag of a dress and it reads 37 and then an army of question marks invaded my face?????? How come, first that can’t be the size, it has to be even number, then what is this tag connected to? Maybe it’s for the belt? There is no belt, how strange!! Only 37???! My question marks are replaced with a smile as I discover that my thumb was hiding the zero, :’) yeah that makes sense it’s 370 kd, yeah right!!!

Wala as long as the sense of style is like this, I should quite my job, get me couple of tailors, walla why bring them, I can use the ones working at the co-op branch, and get some low3ah fabrics, I don’t even have to look for a design or size just ay shay then sell that piece in a ridicules price, boy I’ll make a fortune!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Any advice about a good shop, ana ra’9yah 7ata low fyh one good piece, not a wow but at least wearab!

Wedy a9adgik bs qaweya!!

العروس في الثانية والثمانين والزوج السعيد في الرابعة والعشرين في الارجنتين

بوينس ايرس (ا ف ب)- تزوجت سيدة في الثانية والثمانين من العمر بشاب يبلغ من العمر 24 عاما الجمعة في سانتا (470 كلم شمال العاصمة الارجنتينية بوينس ايرس) وهما يستعدان للسفر لقضاء شهر العسل في ريو دي جانييرو بالبرازيل.
وقال الزوج رينالدو وافيكشي لدى خروجه مكتب بلدية سانتا حيث ابرم عقد القران "لطالما احببت النساء الناضجات ولا آبه لما يقوله الاخرون".
من جانبها قالت العروس اديلفا فولبس انها كانت صديقة ام العريس التي طلبت منها قبل ان تموت الاهتمام بابنها الذي كان يبلغ من العمر 15 عاما.
واضافت "كان صغيرا ووحيدا لكن منذ اليوم الاول لعيشنا المشترك اصبح يكمل احدنا الاخر بشكل جيد. ثم تطورت العلاقة وبدأت تأخذ طريقا آخر. فتحت له قلبي وعرضت ان تتطور الامور". وقال الزوج ان العلاقة "ولدت على اساس الاحترام والحياة المشتركة ونحن لا نهتم بفارق العمر" مؤكدا ان "الحب وحده هو الذي يجمعنا ولا توجد اي مصلحة مادية (..) اديلفا ليس لها ابناء ليس لديها احد وقريبها الوحيد . وتابع بفخر "احبها وهي كل ما لدي في الحياة وهي المراة التي اخترتها

...مراسي غربتي

I started out this month with the post “Straight, Single and Senny Valentino” ridiculing the guys that we have in the sa7ah, and having a wish to find a good one…

Currently,

I moved on to sleep in the middle of the bed, happened sometime last weekend, for the past decade or so I’ve concurred the right side of the bed, my spot, my little version of the “elwesadah el’7aleyah” movie, miss Girly and Dreamy typical behavior,

some time this year my convicted romanticism has withered with some reality checks and I day by day have lost my appetite for romance, my dear sweet Mirandarousa has made an attempt to revive my beating heart and oh she nailed me, got me …. Back to my old state of mind, but as time goes by I’ve surrendered again….

I’d really like to rationalize this and most importantly to segregate any conclusion from the usual concepts that our beloved society’s culture impose on our poor minds, so let me just go with the flow of my ideas,

Yes I admit, like any other straight adult female I’d like to have a male companion, not for the, you know what, but for all those things that you can only get from your opposite sex, for me as a female, I’d like care, tenderness accompanied with strength and wisdom, light soul, simple and clear values,

I want to walk with you hand in hand…

Not to be able to experience the touch of a male companion in my life became my number one reason for all the sadness I’m going through, I blame it for everything even a red traffic light!!

That’s so not me, it didn’t matter that much before, it was like a wish, a little something extra, but never like I’m missing a leg,

Void I find in me, even with every moment in my day is occupied, still there is loss and emptiness, and I keep hanging all my shortcomings all my negative feelings all my unhappiness on that missing touch

I want to put my head on your shoulder….

I know that I can’t plan for, work for, search for, that I can’t do any thing about it, it’s fate!

Ideas keep juggling me back and forth, that didn’t bother me, at least not this much, before, a question keeps repeating it self in my head,

Will I ever have you?

Dismissing those ideas in the past was easy, I could even laugh them out, or create a very dreadful scenario that makes me thankful for not having a male companion, that is not working for me any more, I need something stronger, maybe a slap on my face and a good shake added with a screaming voice: WOMAN WAKE UP!!!

The above could be a good blend of post illness + pre period depression with a touch of frustration after a two consecutive failing shopping expeditions

I feel like a sand lost in a desert yearning to find the sea… to be touched by the waves

Will I ever be found?

Lost,
O

In an other part of the world

I keep hearing about Darfur all the time in the news, but without really paying much of attention until, by coincidence I got to watch for ten seconds the interview in Arabeyah tv with the Sudanese president Omar Al- Bashir and the thing that triggered my attention was this:

O, American’s care so much about the Darfur conflict because it has uranium!!!!

La walla??
So I did some googlling and couldn’t find any thing about uranium, I highly doubt there is uranium!! It’s the typical Arabs mentality consumed of “Conspiracy Theories”
Thought I’d share what I found with you

Darfur Conflict

More than 2m people are living in camps after fleeing more than four years of fighting in the region and they are vulnerable without peacekeepers.
Sudan's government and the pro-government Arab militias are accused of war crimes against the region's black African population, although the UN has stopped short of calling it genocide.
New peace talks are planned, but peace still looks a long way off.

How did the conflict start?

The conflict began in the arid and impoverished region early in 2003 after a rebel group began attacking government targets, saying the region was being neglected by Khartoum.
The rebels say the government is oppressing black Africans in favour of Arabs.
Darfur, which means land of the Fur, has faced many years of tension over land and grazing rights between the mostly nomadic Arabs, and farmers from the Fur, Massaleet and Zagawa communities.
There are two main rebel groups, the Sudan Liberation Army (SLA) and the Justice and Equality Movement (Jem), although both groups have split, some along ethnic lines.
Almost a dozen rebel groups now exist. Most will attend the talks in Libya, but one key leader, Abdul Wahid el-Nur, is boycotting the talks until the conflict ends.

What is the government doing?

It admits mobilising "self-defence militias" following rebel attacks but denies any links to the Janjaweed, accused of trying to "cleanse" black Africans from large swathes of territory.
Refugees from Darfur say that following air raids by government aircraft, the Janjaweed ride into villages on horses and camels, slaughtering men, raping women and stealing whatever they can find.

Many women report being abducted by the Janjaweed and held as sex slaves for more than a week before being released.
The US and some human rights groups say that genocide is taking place - though a UN investigation team sent to Sudan said that while war crimes had been committed, there had been no intent to commit genocide.
Sudan's government denies being in control of the Janjaweed and President Omar al-Bashir has called them "thieves and gangsters".
After strong international pressure and the threat of sanctions, the government promised to disarm the Janjaweed. But so far there is little evidence this has happened.
Trials have been announced in Khartoum of some members of the security forces suspected of abuses - but this is viewed as part of a campaign against UN-backed attempts to get some 50 key suspects tried at the International Criminal Court in The Hague.

Interruption:

يعلن الديوان الملكى انه منذ يوم امس خر جسدنا صريعا اثر مواجهه معا الانفلونزا التي اكتسحتنا بشكل كامل,
لقد ربحت المعركه و ليس الحرب و لنا لقاء قادم باذن الله سيتكلل بالنصر انشاء الله
حتى اشعار اخر
انتهى!

Cheers,
O

Will I ever get used to this?

My brother fractured his foot bone, he was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance last night during his working shift, and they had to put a cast on it, so we swapped parking spots he took the one on the back of the house and I took the one in front,
“The back of our house is facing the mosque”

So after work today I got him a cane so he can support him self on it and on the way I got myself my favorite delicious Znood :D

Parked the car got the stuff out and walked into the house, it took me couple of minutes to reach my room cause I had to pass by the kitchen, and as I just stepped in my mom fallowed me

Mom, Do you know who just called?
Me, who?
Mom, our neighbor!! “there house is the one next the house opposite to ours”
Me, and??
Mom, she called to ask what are you doing with the cane????
Me, !!!!!! Middaha?? Mita?? What ??! there was no one in the street, it’s 43 degrees out there!!!
Then I remembered el be3thah el da2mah for KUNA, she is watching over from borg el moragabah!!!

It’s been 12 days since Ramadan started, you didn’t bother your self to pick up the phone to congrat on the holly month, and the second you see me with a cane you call in the speed of lightning??!?

Walla seriously woman, get a life!!
It’s for you they have invented something called tv, watch it!!
And if you like to watch “live” events, try out football matches and game shows,

Ely ba6 chabdey that setrey 3la nafsich, don’t let us know that you are watching us!! She acted as if it was her God Given Right to know, woman it’s OUR business, if we came asking for your help then ask, but no one das lich 3la 6araf!!

Kuwaitis they can’t get enough, if some one stopped in the right side of the street, every one on that street and the street next to them, meaning all four lanes and the opposite four lanes would stop to see what’s going on, even if it was accident, they wouldn’t go and help, no god forbids, just watch, have an event for today, something happened and they got to see it, and by that it comes out of the harmless and annoying, it becomes harmful and sometimes lethal!!

Seriously, she_elsalfah, shino hal legafah el zaydah?!!?!
Is it in the genes? Is it a law that they have to obey it or they’ll get a ticket – o ana ma adrey - ?
Or is it that their lives so damn empty all they can do is watch over others!!!

I keep thinking “sitting by the window and having her phone in her lap” I won’t be surprised if she has a magnifying glass + night vision equipment!!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Allah ey3eyney I'll be parking over there for a whole month!

My Most Precious Positions

Screaming, as two men, one is huge grapping me from behind, the other trying to release my fist,
“you can cut my hands off before you take my USB!!”
Woman!! What’s wrong with you?!, BTW it’s your hand we are talking about!!
As he almost broke my fingers open, took my USB and my Showtime subscription ;-(
Walla I’m starting to consider the messages sent by my inner brain,

Allah yer7am el days when my dreams, where lovely and they’ve made sweet stories

Back in 2006

Living with people in the desert, in a far away time,
they have a special day of the year they call it energy day in it all unmarried people would go out in the desert and find their source of energy, I went out and as I walked I saw a stream of water and stepped in,

And there I found my peace my serenity, then draw nearer a man who saw me,

So for him to experience my small spot he had to be really close,
then he went on to trace the source of water,
I was with him walking in his direction,
but I realized I was floating so I turned around and told him that I’m walking on air and he looked at me and smiled,
he was carrying me all the way,

after a while the day has ended and they started to call out the people to come back,
as we returned people greeted my guy and I discovered that he was the prince

so what happens next is that every one must go rest and get prepared for the night where each bachelor will announce his bride

The night came and we started to enter the grand tent, when I entered there was something wearied going on,
there was another girl who was setting next to my prince and when I approached him he looked at me and he was unhappy then I stopped and he stopped to announce his bride and it wasn’t me, it was the other girl,

Out of the tent I ran and ran in to the desert because when I walked out one of the prince body guards followed me so I wanted to hide from him and I saw in the distance a tenet of an other country and went to hide inside,

the other side of it was magical and I was able to see what happened in the past and what is happening in the present,

That afternoon as the prince was resting in his tenet he received a poem that gives him direction to marry the other girl and that was a promise made by his father and he must obey,
After I left he went after me and then I saw the body guard trying to enter the tenet where I went but a massive fire happened and the people who own this tenet required help so they told the prince about the fire and he helped them but they couldn’t find me so they all thought I was dead

And the prince heart was broken and I stayed trapped looking over him always

Cheers,
O

Still

Back to Ahmadi, again!, to avoid the madness, this time through 9ab7an,
there was something in the still distance of the ever yellow desert,
water was over flowing from the ground,
and a pool was forming as the water kept on pouring from that square hole,

I wanted to call 777 to tell them about it, so they can come and do something, but I didn’t, remembering few incidents with the “defenders of the weak” made me think of all possible excuses not to call, I came up with a couple:

What if by the time they arrive “if ever” the water finish!! ey’7ali9 and with our sun, it will be dried in no time, if I get to make those people come here without finding any thing they’d probably charge me with “ez3ag solo6at” !! mesakien I made them move!!!

It’s happening in the desert why can’t I let the poor land drink some water, it must be really thirsty

By the time I’ve reached the second excuse I’ve already passed it by and without doing anything (shame on me)

…….

Walking in to the office and “he” was sitting there wearing a red polo shirt listening to M7md 3bd elwahab, Ana w el 3aZab w hawak = Me and the suffering and your love, I looked at him

“I didn’t know…”
“don’t think I’ll be in pain, not any more, I’m sending you off, for a year on the other end of the world”
“will I be back?”

I woke up, god that was scarey!!! I guess that was coming from my feeling of guilt,
If I hate someone, I believe that gives them the absolute right to hate me back, but to love me as I hate them, that is just unfair,
I was asking god that eysa’7rah ley
Bas ‘7ala9, 6ofart minah, athaney
And there is no way I can think of or imagine to deal with this person!!!

My work has a great area in my life, and as he exists in it, then he exists in my life,
Oh my god what can I do??!!?!? ;-(

……

Taking cautious steps and searching for them, looking in to the faces of woman, spreading around setting on the floor, in front of each a plastic cup of water and few dates, some would have a piece of bred others would hold in there hands leaves of ray7an, and it’s so calm, I can’t hear what they say as if it’s a still picture,
Young women holding their child to their breasts,
Old women setting quietly leaning to the grand columns,
Some women would go around to give, water, food, a smile
It’s time now, I couldn’t find them, I walk back to my place,

Standing by my side, I hear a trembling voice, a cry and a prayer, I can hear what she is asking, I know what she is praying for and my heart cries with her a silent cry, pleading for her daughter, may god answer your prayers dear mother…

And we pray,
with each movement, I hear the clouds moving,
the sound when they are racing before a storm,
and it’s glory alarms my heart, in an instant tranquility, and I blend in…

Hands reaching, grapping the black fabric, holding, unyielding, it’s so great and powerful, beyond sound, beyond tears, I see the cry in their tightened hands

Cheers,
O

A Journey of Soul Healing - Enshallah

Enshallah I’ll off to Holy Makkah in few hours,

No more work!! Meaning any work related;
emails,
phone calls,
meetings,
requests,
enshallah none of the above!!
(Oh My God, is this what my life turned to?! Work orinted!! Yakh)

Expected to be back enshallah on Saturday night

Interruption:

I need to break down…
I need to cry…
I need to let my weakness take over me…

To be separated from the world and just be by my self

How selfish my reasons are

People would go to ask
For forgiveness
For mercy
For happiness
For health
For heaven

And I ask
To be comforted
To take off the weight I have on my shoulders
To make sense of life
So I can go on
So I can understand
So I can accept what’s destined
So I can live

Take Care,

O

A little story

In a far a way land,
there was a kingdom,
they were living in peace and harmony,

one day the king got sick,
at his nose,
all the doctors of the kingdom couldn’t cure the king,
there was only one way to stop the disease from spreading to his body,
they had to cut his nose,
so now the king has no nose,

and in every time he meets with his ministers,
the ministers start to giggle and chuckle at him,
the next day the King has made an order,
“All the noses of the ministers have to be cut!”
now the ministers has no nose,

and when they meet the people,
people chuckle at them,
so all the ministers agreed,
“All the noses of the people have to be cut!”
now the entire Kingdom has no nose,

Years later,
a lost stranger passed by the kingdom,
when people saw him,
they all started laughing,
cause he had a nose

The Signal Journal days 6 to 7

First Day fo6or

In a room with a dozen people, sitting in a chair right next to Yehia, holding a mug of tea and laughing,
An hour before I and Ayad arrived to Yehia’s home, he invited us for fo6or, came to pick us with his fiancé and there we where, meet with his sisters and mom and right after us the rest of his family, aunts, uncles and cousins started to arrive

After a brief weather conversation, a typical stranger’s topic, it was time to have fo6or,
I must say it’s very similar to the one we have in Kuwait,
Break our fast with dates, followed by soup and then food, lots of food :D

As I was sipping my soup, I felt a chock up my throat, so sudden and strong sadness that hit me, I’m not with my family, I could have braked crying right there and then but I had an other sip, swallowed my soup and with it my cry…

Now standing by the table taking food Yehia’s mom saw my plate and without asking took it from me and wouldn’t bring it back till it was full, of everything!!

Rice, two types of chicken, meet, ma7shey, béchamel, oh my god that was a lot, but the food was great, and I was starving :-P

After the huge feast, we prayed el ma’3reb gama3ah, my god that felt so peaceful and I felt God is taking care of me, al7mdellah

Back to the room, the comfort that comes from them is effortless, they treat you as they’ve known you for ever, and they act so natural, not stiff or pretending, easy going and can joke about any thing so fluently

Of course for me, after I stuffed my self with food, breathing and moving was a very hard thing to do, so I laid back and started listening to there conversations

Ayad was sitting in the opposite side of me, every time he would speak about the gulf country or people, he would look at me, I don’t know why, was it reassurance or inviting me to step in to the dialogue but I kept silent cause really my head was having difficulty getting blood since all of it went to my stomach,

An hour later he looked at me and gave me the signal, it’s an eye contact based signal pronouncing it’s time to leave, I want to go and you should go with me, a very stupid smile came across my face!?!? I blinked yes and off we went back to the hotel

There was a plan that I wanna go wild for few hours before I leave Cairo, my definition of going wild is, going and having so7or out, let’s just say I’m starving right now,
first of all I had a flight to catch enshallah tomorrow and the real first of all is I’m ‘7awafah, I don’t see how I’m going to tell my parents, you know what I went out at 11
pm and came back the next morning!! At dawn!!

Various,

I fell on my knees in the street and I hurt my left knee pretty bad, it’s swollen and blue
I spilled hot water on my fingers as I was making tea
My wisdom tooth is growing, again!!

Other than that, I’m fine al7mdellah


Second day fo6or

Sitting alone at a table in Starbucks at Dubai Airport waiting for my flight back enshallah to Kuwait
Have my fo6or on a sandwich and a Perrier, that’s pathetic

Ayad and I by pure coincidences had the same flight back, when I first stepped down from the room this morning to check out, I told the concierge I’m waiting for someone, few minutes later,

C, tela2ey 9adey2teik lessa ma 9e7yetch
M, no he is here
C, mien ? fein?
M, pointing at Ayad
C, …..

A bit later

Con, Your friend is coming!!!
Maha’s head, eshme3na hathy el jomlah bel tha_at in English? Miste7ey etgooly 9a7bik is coming???

At the Airport

The guy who carries the bags

The Guy, Dah gowzik?
M, No
The Guy’s face, a dirty smile!!!
Maha’s head, WHAT THE HELL!!!!

That’s the thing in all Arab society; you can either be married or be a Bitch and her Bastred, people with rotten minds!!!

The true element that creates the moment is human actions, I must say that I’ve been very fortunate in this trip that the human element of it was great, nice people, good company and simple

And for me, it was so natural and 3ady, before when I get to travel with guys at work, I hardly remember any of them being Arab, and I thought maybe that’s why it’s very natural and easy to be with them, but even this time it felt the same and much better given that we speak the same language and understand each other better, I did enjoyed his company, but purely as a friend, shame it had to stop right there and then as we said good bye and each walked in his own path in life

The End

Cheers,
O

Update,

Perfect moment, 19:45

if any of our actions would have been delayed by a fraction of second we would have missed each other, if I stopped for one more second checking the bags or if I looked the other way or someone would pass right in front of me, but nothing of that has happened, as I was walking to my gate a figure emerged ascending from the escalator, and there I was face to face with him, again :’) guess it’s not so dramatically final, as long as it’s destined for our paths to cross, then it shall be…

*Dem3ah Journal Days 3 to 5

Thinking, “Oh Shit, I don’t have time to have breakfast and walk to the office” wait a minute woman, it’s Ramadan!!

Having my First Ramadan Day away from home,

No “what are you cooking for today?” or “what’s for desert?” or “fighting with my brothers over the remote”

It doesn’t feel like it ….

@ work, I’m sooo pissed to a point that I might get paralyzed, any ways, after going there and waiting for 55 minutes and spending an hour and a half to get a response, the reaction was in slow motion!! As I was about to complete that project from hell and get rid of it, guess what??

What could happen to me? Miss Maha or should I say miss Fab Luck Queen?
The fire alarm turns on!!!

Important note 1, the PFH should have been submitted yesterday
Important note 2, we are located at the 12th floor

So here we are an entire building rushing down the stairs for 12th floors, crossing two streets and waiting in the parking lot, I was having a nervous break down, while others around me where pausing to take photographs!!!

I’m now back again to my dear laptop, 30 minutes later, anyways enough of this crap, I sent it and enshallah, ya raby ya 7abyby fokiny min hal low3at el chabd,
2 minutes later, my client wants to see me on Sunday
and my #$?!!#. Want me to work on Saturday!!
I had only one replay, Man my traveling time is 10 Hours, and I happen to be fasting and the entire last week was … I don’t want to even talk about it, it’s exhausting


On an other note

My Diners for the past couple of days,

Monday, Friday’s since it’s located in a walking distance from the hotel
Tuesday, Abu el Seid that place was IMPRESSIVE!!! An old Arabisk style villa in a quite neighborhood, you can easily mistake it for a house, the atmosphere is so comfy and warm, every thing was screaming, you are in Egypt of the last century, chandlers, seating of old style sofa and the tables, every thing was just as it should be, perfect, the food was all Egyptian traditional menu of doves and rabbits, LoooL :D
I didn’t eat any of that stuff, I had molo’7eyah bel fera’7 and white rice, that was sooo delicious, coming from a very picky food person, after that it was fallowed by tea and mahalabeyah, leaving the food aside the company was great, I laughed so hard :D
They say that this place started to open branches; I guess if it opens in Kuwait, it would be a great hit

Wednesday, Grand Hyatt, seating by the Neil the weather now is getting chilly
We stayed there talking for hours, basically me and Ayad where pitching to every one about our hypocrite societies and how we have become victims of the “transitional period” as Ayad likes to call it
I didn’t think that far in to the future before, any ways I’ll talk about this in detail later enshallah

For now, I’m just saying that I did have a good time

The thing is on the way to the hotel, we got lost and all the sudden we where inside a street in a 7arah!!! I thought that it only existed in the movies, but no I was there and I saw the gahwah and the tiny streets and all the other surrounding shops oh my god, that was something

So until now I’m not sure where I’m going to have fo6or for tonight…

Anyways,

Mbarak 3likom el Shahar o 3asakom min 3awadah

Cheers,
O

*Dem3ah: basically its Daqoos!!

P.S. A warm Congrat’s to my Angel Maryam for her new job :D may Allah bless you and eywafgich my SunShine :*

*Genuine **Borio - Journal days 1 to 2

I woke up and there I was in the back seat of a taxi in the middle of two men shouting at each other

El Shawyesh: ma te2darsh et3adey min hina, mamno3!!
Sawa2 el taxi: ya3ney eyh? Da ana bashta’3ala …..

I looked at the taxi driver and told him to just stop any where and let me get out of here

I arrived there few hours ago, and there I found my self back in Egypt, last time I was there I believe was in 2002 where I stayed in Cairo for a night to catch my flight back to Kuwait

I was successful to block the memories of that land for the past 5 years, but now every thing came rushing back

It’s not hate what I have for that place; I can’t tell what it could be…

We arrived late but some how because they’ve changed the timing we were actually 15 mints early

Getting out of the airport was very smooth, al7mdellah, arriving to the hotel showering, getting dressed and then off we went to Grand Hayatt, the place to be in Cairo on a Friday night

Setting by the Nile, boats where passing by, the weather is cool, and I ask my self again, what is it?
It’s heart break, the huge gap between people, it’s poverty, excruciating poverty and after you have your big meal in a fancy place you step out and there you see it with your own eyes,

Next morning, going around the city fetching for stuff, of course unsuccessfully, the things you see out there on the street are quite original,

Sign reads; “Doctor Decent Excellent” you start to wonder if Doctor is his occupation or name

We arrived to the boat where we are supposed to have launch,
a flash back; “6 years ago a little boy selling flowers emerged out of no where it was so sudden that my mom screamed “’7ara3tney” and he replayed “ya3ney eyeh ‘7are3teney?” I think he was 5 years old”
finished launch and as I was reaching for the Taxi door a boy emerged right in front of me selling flowers, an other Egyptian guy came and sent him away,
In the taxi, the thought that this boy could be the same boy years ago scares me… could it be?

Looking from the window, to the Nile shore, it’s like lovers spot
I’m starting to build a theory that romanticism flourish near rivers!! Around every corner you’ll find two seating together holding hands, talking and facing the river,

The entire population has an engagement / wedding ring, even that flower boy who could be a 12 year old!!

I’m in the bath room now just about to step in the bath tube to take a shower when the phone started ringing, covered with a towel went out there to answer it;

Maha, are you a sleep?
No
How are you?
Fine, who is this?
Ayad, “the guy with me in the course”
And we continued talking, in English??

After I hang up

Mom, who was that?
Maha, Ayad
Mom, what did he say?
Maha, he asked me out for dinner, and I said no
Mom, What!!! Why let him come and have dinner with us!!
Maha’s head; if we where in Kuwait and someone whom I’ve never met calls me up and you answer and hand it over to me “I’m not even commenting on that” to ask me out for dinner and I say no, you’d kill me either way!!

In the taxi again, window open, variety of
Smells; Donkey
Garbage
Manure
Dust particles that would actually cause you an injury while smashing to your face
Water particles which I don’t want to think what other option it might be

Passing by the TV building, I still remember in the “fawazier” where Nielly would be dressed in purple, she used to wear it as a hat

Setting next to me now a little 3 year old girl golden logs blue eyes, when I speak to her she doesn’t understand a word I say, so for the first time since I came here I converted and started speaking Egyptian, we sat there drawing a house a tree a flower a cloud and grass, then she took the paper fold it and put it in her bag…
An a 8 year old boy join us, comes in and gives me a big hand shake a kiss on my cheek
I do love kids…

I walk by and I look at my reflection in the mirror, I’m pleased that yes my reflection is different, yes I’ve grown, I deserve it, it sure cost me a lot

In the morning, I see him setting across from me in the lobby, he didn’t see me yet, I can tell it’s him, it’s time to practice my latest formed theory about dealing with men, let him make the first move, always

We are now setting together talking, no spark, an other theory, since I’ve dealt with guys before, I’m waiting for the moment when I meat a guy and there would be a spark, I can totally differentiate between relationships I can have with a guy, but for that special someone I’d like to be involved with romantically there should be a spark

255 Emails, I have to go through them, urgent work, sure everything urgent, Mr, A#$ H0%#& who is supposed to handle things since I’m away, sends me this:

I’m confident in your ability to complete… yeah right!!

I’m so tired….

Cheers,
O

*Shop name which sells fake bags, yeah right!!
**That’s what a sign which looks exactly like Orio white and blue but here it’s Borio, laa 9ij walla kilish mo baygeynha!!!

That’s why God has created Divorce!!

زوج غيور جدا

لقي اربعة اشخاص مصرعهم

واصيب ستة آخرون حين فجر زوج غيور قنبلة يدوية في منزله في شمال فيتنام.

وذكرت مصادر الشرطة ان دينه فان تو، 29 عاما، انتزع مسمار امان قنبلة يدوية خلال نقاش ساخن مع زوجته حول اشاعات بأنها تقيم علاقة عاطفية مع رجل آخر.

وقال نائب رئىس الشرطة في منطقة كاو لوك باقليم لانغ سون على بعد 150 كيلومترا شمال شرق هانوي ان الانفجار قتل على الفور زوجته، نجوين ثي لوي وشقيقته دينه تو فونغ

.وقال المسؤول انه قتل ايضا في الانفجار ضابط شرطة وعمدة القرية الذي جاء الى منزل تو في محاولة للتوسط في الخلاف.ونقل الى المستشفى ستة اشخاص آخرون، بينهم تو نفسه وعشيق زوجته المشتبه فيه مصابين بجروح.

A Comment

الودائع البنكية تقارب 17 مليارا
فائض الميزان التجاري يتجاوز 5 مليارات دينار في النصف الاول

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عرض 'الشال' ما تضمنته النشرة الاحصائية الفصلية (ابريل ـ يونيو 2007) لبنك الكويت المركزي (نشرت على موقعه على الانترنت)، من مؤشرات اقتصادية ونقدية، 'تستحق تطوراتها متابعة وتوثيقا'.وقال ان من هذه المؤشرات، مثلا، ان إجمالي عدد السكان في الكويت بلغ، في نهاية النصف الأول من العام الحالي، نحو 3.328 ملايين نسمة، وهو رقم يزيد بنحو 145.1 ألف نسمة، تقريبا، عن الرقم الذي سجله تعداد نهاية العام الفائت،

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ما يعني أن معدل النمو نصف السنوي لعدد السكان قد سجل نسبة 4.56%، وهي نسبة ستصل إلى 9.12%، فيما لو حسبت على أساس سنوي، وفي فقرة أخرى من التقرير نفسه نذكر تفاصيل أرقام السكان والعمالة من المصدر، أي الهيئة العامة للمعلومات المدنية. الميزان التجاري

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ومن هذه المؤشرات، أيضا، تحقيق الميزان التجاري -صادرات سلعية ناقصا واردات سلعية،- فائضا بلغ نحو 2.692 مليار دينار، في الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بعد أن بلغت قيمة صادرات الكويت السلعية، خلال هذا الربع، نحو 4.294 مليارات دينار كويتي، منها نحو 95.4% صادرات نفطية، بينما بلغت قيمة وارداتها السلعية (لا تشمل العسكرية) نحو 1.602 مليار دينار. وكانت الكويت حققت فائضا، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، بلغ نحو 2.434 مليار دينار، أي ان الميزان التجاري قد حقق فائضا، بلغ نحو 5.126 مليارات دينار، في النصف الأول من العام الحالي، أو نحو 10.251 مليارات دينار، فيما لو حسب لكامل عام 2007، وهو فائض أقل، بما نسبته 11.15%، عن مثيله القياسي المحقق، في عام 2006، البالغ نحو 11.538 مليار دينار، ولكن فائض عام 2007 الفعلي يعتمد على حركة أسعار النفط، التي مازالت مرتفعة.الفائدة

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وتشير النشرة إلى انخفاض المعدل الموزون للفائدة على الودائع، إلى نحو 5.282%، في الربع الثاني، من نحو 5.413%، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي تقارب 2.4%، وانخفض، كذلك، المعدل الموزون للفائدة على القروض، إلى نحو 8.588% من نحو 8.759%، للفترة نفسها، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي قاربت 1.95%. وبلغ حجم الودائع، لدى البنوك المحلية، نحو 16.906 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بارتفاع طفيف عن مستوى 16.491 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، أي بنسبة ارتفاع ربع سنوي بلغت نحو 2.5%. وارتفعت، كذلك، مطالب البنوك على القطاع الخاص، إلى نحو 19.109 مليار دينار كويتي، من مستوى نحو 17.134 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، محققة نسبة نمو ربع سنوي قاربت 11.5%، وهي نسبة نمو مرتفعة، لابد من مراقبتها. يحدث ذلك رغم ثبات سعر الخصم، وانخفاض جاذبية الودائع بانخفاض سعر الفائدة عليها، وانخفاض تكلفة الاقتراض معها، ما يعني أن هناك توسعا نقديا، معه أنهى الربع الثاني من عام 2007 على ارتفاع كبير في أسعار الأصول المالية والعقارية

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So if we simply took that amount and divided it among the people, each one would get 10,000KD “that gives you a whole new perspective for the 200KD!!”

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I’d rather that all that extra money for this year only would be used to construct an infrastructure for this poor country, for gods sake “فج الليت انت مو فالكويت” beyond the fashlah this is serious issue!!

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And people and consumption is not going any less it’s only heading upward so please, wagfow el “S, in English and B, in Arabic” for one year and invest in the welfare of the country, “power stations, streets, sewage, waste management; in your definition it’s what you do when you dump waste to the see, medical services; we know all the ‘7yas after the astegwab of wazyer el 9e7ah, schools, etc”

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I think you do live in this land, don’t you? And enshallah allah ey3aw’9kom next year and you can “S or B” as much as you like!!

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And of course you are not going to spend the entire amount in the first year, so if we take what we need and have a bit for emergency and put the rest for investments for the rest of the year so out of the 17,000,000,000 Kd that we have extra, how much would be the initial cost to build a new city? “cause improving the one we have would be waste of time and money”

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So that would be a God giving project to save and develop the country and put the ‘7ayer of the land in the land, by the way we are a desert country, mo 9ayreynly 3yen 3atharey, at least have pity on us, ma nakser al’7a6er??

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Cheers,
O

الوداع

حبيبي لقد حانت لحظة الوداع

اغرق في ذكريات لقائنا الاول

منذ اربعة اعوام حين التقينا
استقريت في مكاني احدق بك لا يسعني الا النظر اليك

ساكنه لا تتحرك الا عيناي تتبعك حتى تحفظ ادق تفاصليك

شاركتني كل شيئ

لم نفترق الا لايام يملئني فيها الشوق فاعود اليك

انت يا رفيق دربي كم اعشقك

ساذكرك دائما عندما تمطر, كم كنا نحب المطر

كيف كان يجمعنا و يعزلنا عن العالم

يا من كنت اركض اليه, حتى اختبئ في حضنه الدافئ

لقد كنت لي ملجئا و مهربا

لقد كنت الاول و ذالك لن بغيره شيئ ابدا

ستظل دائما بقلبي ترسم ذكرياتك الابتسامة على شفتي

و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا يوما

فيك قوتي فكم يكيت على ذراعيك حتى جف دمعي

فيك راحتي فكم حملتك من اعبائي و اسراري

كم قسوت عليك و حملتك اكثر مما تتحمل و مع ذلك لم تخذلني يوما

فالعذر كل ما اطلب منك الان

القدر الذي جمعنا جاء الان حتى يفرق بيننا

لن تكون بعيدا فعنوانك هنا في صدري

ساشتاق اليك في كل صباح, دوما

و ان التقينا يوما ساغمرك بابتسامتي

و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا, كنت لي و كنت لك لن يستطيع الفراق ان يغير ذلك

اليوم كل منا يسير في طريقه من غير الاخر

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ازف الرحيل و حان ان نتفرقا

فالى اللقا يا صاحبي الى اللقا

ان تبكيا فلقد بكيت من الاسى

حتى لكدت بادمعي ان اغرقا

و تسعرت عند الوداع اضلعي

نارخشيت بحرها ان احرقا

مازلت اخشى البين قبل وقوعه

حتى غدوت و ليس لي ان افرقا

يوم النوى, لله ما اقسى النوى

لولا النوى ما ابغضت نفسي البقا

رحنا حيارى صامتين كانما

للهول نحذر عنده ان ننطقا

اكبادنا خفاقه و عيوننا

لا تستطيع من البكا ان ترمقا

نتجاذب النظرات وهي ضعيفة

و نغالب الانفاس كيلا تزهقا

لو لم نعلل باللقاء نفوسنا

كادت مع العبرات ان تتدفقا

يا صاحبي تصبرا فلربما

عدنا و عاد الشمل ابهى رونقا

ان كانت الايام لم ترفق بنا

فمن النهى بنفوسنا ان نرفقا

ان الذي قدر القطيعة و النوى

!!..في وسعه ان يجمعع المتفرقا

حبيبي اتمنى لك كل الخير

الى" بعيري" سيارتي

...سافتقدك
مها

للبيع جيب ذهبي بحاله ممتازه مديل 2003 ماشي 100,000 P.S.

من ديوان ابي ماضي – وداع و شكوى*

Straight, Single & Senney Valentino

All good guys are taken by now “I’m only talking about specifically my age group”
What’s left is the following:

What men are and that’s divided to what they think they are and what they really are;

They all have girlfriend(s) each one would have more than one

Kings on earth for the sole reason he is a man

Knows every thing and understand everything, yes Einstein

Life is simple for him cause he already got it all figured out

Having no goals, shino ya3ney having no goals?!, they have goals many goals al7yen he goes and he makes goals for you bel sekkah!!!

His long distanced desire, weyn ba6la3 el yom?

Has no degree, why should he eyta3eb nafsah having education and learning to get a degree, don’t you know that he has connections?!

His hobby, Dewaneyah, mo’7ayam, Shalaih, 7oby those are places not activities, give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him what do you do in those places?
Swalif, nel3ab Koot bo 6, eat, ne’9’3a6 ba3a’9, hmmm ee that’s about it
OH MY GOD Impressive!!!

Sports?? That’s a very very stupid question; only take a look at the places they park their cars to avoid walking for three lousy steps!!!

Any ideas, point of views about hmmm, give them a brake and let the question broad maybe they have something, any thing? The simple answer would be, why?

Reading? He doesn’t even read signs Mr. Know it all, would you honestly think that he’d read a book!!

He is always busy and has no time, I’d love to know what the hell he does in that time, wild guess, staring and gossiping, hmm yes someone has to do it in this country!!

Thinking that who speaks English are show offs and eytefalsfoon, not human being with an ability to actually speak and communicate in different language, baby you from all people should know how hard is that since it’s hard enough for you to speak in one!!

Ultimate success, having a paying job with no work to do for it

Their definition of manhood, the guy who can swear, hit, drive fast and have his womEn

What men want is:

Wa7dah that “Onothah 6a’3yah” 7ata low ohwa se7t eyeb elma7ey, excuse me never heard of a show called “extreme make over”??? External beauty can be achieved within 6 weeks my darling

Te6ba’7 is her most important asset, yal el3abgarey, in your life time at your house ma yebtow a maid who even doesn’t speak the language ma ta3lmt el cocking ehya and that goes on for the 6baby’7 too, males and females, tra it’s not making split of the atom!!

And goes without saying “no active brain” shay yeg3ad ey6al3ah o yeg3ad eyetkalam o eytekalam o ehya by all means ma etred wala et7achah o laykon she has an opinion, shino hatha b3d? hatha ely nagi9!! ohwa bs ely ey3aref kil shay entay Female tadreyn shino F.E.male???
For Entertaining Male
O bas!!

Wala enta ely have no idea what female is, and honestly there is no point in telling you cause it’s a waste of breath!! But there are things you need to know:

1)First of all F.E.M.A.L.E 3la goltik stands for;

Fundemental Element for Mankind to Acquire Life on Earth!!!

2)Body is a container, its fragile so fragile that any object can tare it apart and get your sole out of it, when you are with a human any human their body mo elley is talking to you or comforting you or making you feel, “people are felt rather seen after the first few moments*”,
Our remaining guys as if mo shayfeyn ‘7yer their time span lasts more than moments, may’7alif, but it does vanish that initial infatuation of looks,

After that you’ll find out that looks is not funny or caring, body is not warm, it’s not in the touch its in the way you touch, beauty is not in the eye, it’s the way you look, 3ayal imagine beautiful eyes with dirty looks, dirty meaning hating and degrading mo ….,

3) do you know how God judge us?? By our acts hon, do you know how people make actions and decisions? By something known as thoughts, do you know what’s collective thoughts of different life aspects would make? Personality
yes that’s right, that’s where you have your values, ideas, hopes, aspiration, character, uniqueness and in it all a power is formed and can be converted in to something valuable called LIFE, guess that’s too much for you to process in one day!!!

Wake up guys and somehow in this country you have been given a power, o el9ara7ah who is left are so not kaffow, to make the choice, looks wont stand by your side, it’s the person within if that’s what you are looking for still, then that’s what you totally deserve and thanks for making your self so identifiable so that you can be easily avoided!!

A wish:

I’ve retired of being a helpless romantic, but in my heart I'd like to make this wish, that I’d know or hear or see a guy that is admirable and fascinating, just to know that he exists,

back in the years when I was in the romanticize service, I use to think that, as in this time and age god has made someone like me, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be a male like me too? And that gave me hope but didn’t last long,

now I need that hope back even if I don’t get that guy, it would be such a relief to know that a guy exists,

someone true, caring, knows who he is and what he wants to be, has his own mind, someone who believes in god, that you can carry on with a conversation that would result of something even if it was as simple as a genuine smile, that you can depend on, some one who’d never look down to you just because you are a woman, who’d see in your growth and success an added value to you and to the relationship, someone who’d respect you even if he didn’t agree with you, someone who’d make you an equal and a priority not some sort of accessory, and why can’t he be that in an acceptable package, we work on ourselves to look nice can’t he?

Is it too much to ask?
O

*East of Eden by John Steinbeck

Enshallah!!

If I wrote this yesterday after the first encounter this would be something like,

“What the heck?! What kind of a world we live in, no morals no ethics no conscious??? Blah blah blah”

And I’ll go on and on loaded with anger and frustration, acting as if I was a sleep and suddenly woke up, tartata, and found my self in Kuwait!!
As if I didn’t spend the last quarter of a century in this land
As if it never happened before and I never heard of it
As if evil has JUST reveled it self

You know what now after I calmed down a bite, mo meny but from lack of sleep and self starvation followed by a continues state of food fag3ah,
I know if I wrote that and posted it, it would be “shame on me”
Walla min 9iji shino hal amnesia walla hal hallucination that I have about people and this country?!
It would be that I’m kidding myself and having myself in a constant state of denial

Grow up woman, yes people lie, yes people cheat and hell yes their motto is “I and after me comes the Flood”

Now days that’s what they call common sense, hatha el 6abey3ey, what’s wired and what’s shocking is to find someone who’d act differently and that’s either called naive or safyeh!!

You only get to live this life once and I no matter what the gains or the “stuff” that I may get, I’d rather not live that life at all if it was in those people brains, al7mdellah I’m me, when I think of it those who may sound on the outside successful and getting what they want in that way, then Thanks but no thanks, keep your things to you I don’t want it that way, I happen to have something called conscious, probably you haven’t heard of it!!

I’d ask my self why? and I’d answer, cause they are week and sick, they are afraid and in the end only lying to them selves and it’s easy so easy to do that
You can lie, you can scream, you can swear, you can cheat, you can pick the phone and get your big W
It’s no brainier and not that hard, I and an 8 year old can do the same
But guess what I choose not to, I choose to do things right even when that’s defined in this time and age as stupidity, I choose to not lower my self to that level
And that is hard; what’s easy is to be you...

It’s easy to be 7ayawan but the hard thing is to be Ensan
You made your choice and I’ve made mine

Today is my two years work anniversary, so I’m at two years old in the real world, and I am happy that what ever I faced didn’t swallow me in on the contrary it only made me stronger

Al7mdellah,
O

How election results in Turkey can effect our 7gab style in Kuwait?

انقرة (ا ف ب) - توصف خير النساء غول التي يتوقع ان تصبح السيدة الاولى في تركيا هذا الاسبوع بانها سيدة مرحة وانيقة تتجنب الاضواء الا ان الحجاب الذي يغطي رأسها جعل منها شخصية مكروهة من قبل العلمانيين المتشددين
ويعرف عن خير النساء (42 عاما) انه سيدة متدينة تحرص على اداء الصلوات الخمس يوميا. وهي زوجة وزير الخارجية عبد الله غول الذي اصبح من المؤكد انتخابه رئيسا للبلاد الثلاثاء
وتقول خير النساء ان حجابها الذي يكرهه المعارضون باعتباره رمزا لتحدي النظام العلماني هو خيار شخصي يجب احترامه
ويعتبر حجابها من القضايا الرئيسية التي اثارها المعارضون لترشيح غول رئيسا للبلاد والذي اثار ازمة سياسية حادة مطلع هذا العام بين الحكومة ذات الجذور الاسلامية والجيش العلماني
وتفرض الدولة حظرا على ارتداء الحجاب في المكاتب الحكومية والجامعات التركية وهذا ما يجعل من الصعب على العلمانيين تقبل مسالة دخول خير النساء القصر الرئاسي الذي يعتبر البيت الذي يرمز لمصطفى كمال اتاتورك مؤسس العلمانية في البلاد والذي يتمتع بمنزلة خاصة في تركيا
وبحكم كونها زوجة وزير الخارجية فقد زارت خير النساء العديد من دول العالم وتقول ان حجابها لم يتسبب لها باية مشكلة في اي بلد سوى بلدها تركيا
وتؤكد خير النساء ان تدينها لا يحول دون كونها امرأة عصرية ترفض القيود المفروضة على النساء في الدول الاسلامية
وتقول "لقد كنت اوصل بسيارتي عبد الله الى عمله والاطفال الى المدرسة (...) ولا اتخيل ان اعيش في دولة لا تستطيع فيه النساء قيادة السيارات"
ولكن بالنسبة للعلمانيين المتشددين فان خير النساء تبقى مدافعة قوية عن الحجاب الذي يقولون انه يمثل تراجعا عن الاصلاحات الهائلة التي طبقها اتاتورك لتحرير المرأة
وكانت خير النساء تقدمت بشكوى الى المحكمة الاوروبية لحقوق الانسان في عام 2002 عندما رفضت جامعة انقرة السماح لها بالتسجيل فيها بسبب حجابها
الا انها سحبت الشكوى بعد ان تولى حزب العدالة والتنمية السلطة عام 2002 واصبح زوجها وزيرا للخارجية
وقالت في وقت لاحق "عندما يتم حل هذه المشكلة اريد ان ادرس في الجامعة (...) رغم تقدمي في العمر"
ولكن وفي عام 2005 ايدت المحكمة الاوروبية لحقوق الانسان الحظر على الحجاب في قضية رفعتها طالبة تم طردها من جامعة اسطنبول بحجة ان ذلك قد يكون ضروريا لحماية النظام العلماني في تركيا في مواجهة الحركات المتطرفة
وفي حال فوز غول في انتخابات الرئاسة ستصبح خير النساء سيدة المنزل الذي حظر عليها دخوله بسبب حجابها
وكان الرئيس المنتهية ولايته احمد نجدت سيزر يرفض دعوة النساء اللواتي يرتدين الحجاب الى حفلات الاستقبال التي تقام في القصر الرئاسي مما يعني انه كان ممنوعا على معظم زوجات اعضاء حزب العدالة والتنمية بمن فيهن امينة زوجة رئيس الوزراء رجب طيب اردوغان دخول القصر الرئاسي
ومثل والدتها فان ابنة غول التي تبلغ من العمر 22 عاما ترتدي الحجاب
الا انها على عكس والدتها درست في الجامعة وكانت ترتدي شعرا مستعارا فوق حجابها وهو ما تفعله الكثير من الشابات اللواتي يرغبن في الحصول على التعليم الجامعي دون التخلي عن معتقداتهن الدينية
وفي محاولة لارضاء العلمانيين طلب من مصمم ازياء تركي بارز اعادة تصميم حجاب السيدة الاولى المستقبلية بشكل "يجمع ما بين تألق هوليود وجدية وضعها الجديد"
وكانت خير النساء تركت دراستها الثانوية ولم يتجاوز عمرها 15 عاما لتتزوج من عبد الله غول الذي كان عمره 32 عاما وذلك بعد ان التقى الاثنان في حفلة زفاف في بلدتهما الاصلية قيسيري وسط تركيا. ولهما ابنان وابنة

What the #*?# ?

I got this request and at first I didn’t pay attention to the chain of emails, few days later as by chance I expanded the browser I read that Mr. Coordinator, was looking for someone other than me to do the job, but unfortunately for him, there is no one other than me in the entire country, and with his dam luck I happen to get the damn email he sent and not only to my people but he also cced it to his people!!!

my first impression was why??
I gave my clients an AA treatment put them there on the top, answered to all their needs no matter how trivial or complicated they’ve been, been nicest as I could ever been, I’m not even that with people I love!!! And I give and give and that’s what I get?!!!

I believe that god let me know about that for a reason, so this time there is no miss nice, I took the email and highlighted his stupid sentence and simply asked WHY???
I’m waiting for the answer, but no matter what it could possibly be, I’m telling you from now it’s not going to be good enough, I give my 150% 24/7 and that’s what I get??

What the hell is wrong with the people??
You do your best, and they reward you with extra work
You do your best and they reward you with hardly any appreciation what so ever
You do your best and they reward you with taking you for granted as if, what’s the big deal?

I’ll tell you what’s the big deal, the big deal when I’m gone who the hell do you think would do what am I’m doing with an oversized conscious??

I sent that I’m going for a crash course, it’s a two weeks course crashed in 5 days, and the answer would be can you work remotely??
Me Miss Stupido would say, Yes if it’s urgent
You know what, F#?*# me I truly deserve it

For those of you working in this country I suggest that they would give new employees a manual with their work ID, where it would illustrate to them what the true nature of working in Kuwait
First, Never come on time, who does that?
Second, its very important that you get proper nutrition, so take an hour or maybe two for your breakfast and if you are staying late, then how about launch?
Third, Don’t do any work, the recipe you can start by saying I don’t know and when they assign you something take a very long time to do it and do it all wrong, few years later when they assign you work again, say it’s out of my domain I have a higher experience to do these kind of things

Opps I think I better stop, I got the replay from the guy, it turned out that it was a “language issue” he wrote it wrong, I believe him, his English sucks, oh my god I’m so embarrassed, Sorry!!
And look at the irony at the same time I got a thank you email from my manager as a recognition for my contributions
Me the Hablah :-P I guess my Negative energy vibrated over the gulf spreading horror every where ; )

Cheers,
O

Answer

كيف تعيشون؟

نعيش من قله الموت

I read this answer today…
what a life those people have…
when a persons life is summarized as a cause of an absent end…
when you come across something as deeply sad as those few words…
you’d cherish the life you have and know how fortunate you are

Work Blabber

I have challenged my self to complete the project from hell, it ended up having this title since I got a "she devil" with the package, and for the fact that it ended up not as good as it started,
the thing about this new experience is that it did tested my so called "experts" and I learned few valuable lessons, first of all, always account for unexpected items in your time line definition, finish early you’ll be praised finish late you’ll be condemned, other than that with some extra time, you can fine tune your work, my style, I always complete the bulk first then start shaping and fine tuning

Second, thinking outside the box could be the answer, this time following the rules didn’t work, only when I stepped back and thought openly, that was a drastic measure for the rules most obedient person

Third, depending on others is not a good idea, in the end I’ve wasted precious time explaining for them and waiting for a replay that never come, anticipating and disappointment plus stupidity, very irritating!!

And yes heard it before couple of months ago and tested it again, I think I’m really calm, though I erupt like a volcano inside but some how, I got to leach the beast and stay very polite and calm, well guess its not too let to develop some habits :’)

In my life I have this “character” at work which I have to deal with, unfortunately, we kicked it off well, as any well behaving strangers will, but as time progresses and as we deal with each other more we ended up on opposite sides, managed to avoid each other for a very long time, but as of today I’ll have to deal with this person AGAIN!! May god give me help and serenity, to deal with this mans crap!!

I just needed to clear my thoughts; these enshallah next two weeks should be hectic, work wise,guess summer has officially done

Cheers,
O

Little things...

I can't put my finger on what's really different about today, I guess I'm free!!
Woke up early this morning, with a clear mind, light soul and full with energy, sorted out the piles of clothes that I throw around in my room while listening to music and taking dancing breaks in between,

got out of the house shopped for pillows and bed sheets, got my self a pedicure, and made a decision about my perfume dilemma; should I stay with cinema or shift to flower bomb? I shifted :') I had a smile on my face the whole time, and I said salam to strangers, that’s something, cause I always make it a battle in mind should I say it or not? Would they replay me or not? By the time I reach the second question the moment had passed already and I sink with guilt,

Today no questions or hesitations, it just didn't matter, Today it's about acting!! Madrey what could it be what caused my liberation, is it that new book? Is it about my dream having two sweet children a boy and a girl whom I was fighting for their custody and their grandfathers debating that I can't take them cause I can't speak their language!! It turned out that my kids spoke Urdu!! The father hasn't appeared in the entire dream, I really wanted to meet the guy, or that yesterday I got a gift from my brother, heart shaped necklace with my name on it, this is the third time I get this exact gift, but the other two were from my other brothers, the thought that they all got the same thing over and over again was a delight :') is it that when I thought I lost some something last night god has send me who found it without me moving a muscle or asking for help?

Walla madrey, but I feel fortunate and content Today, with my mood swings god only knows what I'll feel tomorrow, but today al7mdellah it's beautiful and just perfect, Hope every one have a great day too every day :D

Cheers,
O

Words

Selected paragraphs of a novel…

Because in the look he gives me I see my self in a way that can be written.
Otherwise what would this writing be but a kind of moaning, now high, now low?
when I write about him I write about my self,

no matter what the word, through it I stretch a hand to you. In an other world I would not need words. I would appear on your doorstep. "I have come for a visit," I would say, and that would be the end of words:

I would embrace you and be embraced. But in this world, in this time, I must reach out to you in words.

So day by day I render my self into words and pack the words into the page like sweets: like sweets for my love*.
Words out of my body, drops of my self, for you to unpack in your own time, to take in, to suck, to absorb.

As they say on the bottle: old fashioned drops, drops fashioned by the old, fashioned and packed with love, the love that we have no alternative but to feel toward those to whom we give ourselves to devour or discard.

Because that is something one should never ask, to enfold one, comfort one. The comfort, the love should flow forward, not backward. That is a rule. When a person begins to plead for love every thing turns Squalid. Yet how hard it is to sever oneself from that living touch.

Something broke inside when you asked me to stop sending to you, I felt "a constriction in my throat, a welling up of tears,

Tears not of sorrow but of sadness, A light, fickle sadness: the blues, but not the dark blues: the pale blues, rather, of far skies, clear winter days. A private matter, a disturbance of the pool of the soul, which I take less trouble to hide...

J. M. Coetzee

*Edited

7

I can not tolerate stupidity!!!

I’m supposed to receive help from an “expert” whom all I get from is waste of time and energy, it has been 7 days of back and forth consultations which I keep repeating my self, like twice a day in different style each time لعل و عسى that idiot would understand, but no تأبى المرؤه I’d better go make my self a child wait till it grows up and then ask him before my so called “expert” would give me an answer!! And after all that pain, I walla scream when I get an email from him, if there is a gage on my nerves it would have been broken since day one, on the seventh day, I get the following email,
Hi,
I am tied up this week…..
In the meantime, can you get assistance from …..?

Why the hell you haven’t said that before !?!?!?

Am I supposed to go through explaining process all over again!!!
Just shoot me

On the way home on the radio some dump مذيع was interviewing this guy about Kuwait latest earthquake, it’s a 4.3 for god’s sake, haven’t you seen what happened in Pure those poor poor people having a 7.7 degrees and 400 reversing quakes after which left 200,000 homeless, there where an entire family lives only on 5 dollars a week, here فاضين Kuwaitis made it a salfah, so the مذيع asks questions that a 10 year old would know the answer to and the guy would replay with “terms” and definitions, until the hot shot مذيع asks; what degree would be considered dangerous and distractive? Finally a sensible question, guess what was the long detailed answer about? “We are not able to forecast earthquakes” are you kidding me?!
It was a straight easy question, given that you are the “expert” I believe a simple figure should cover it, but I believe he used a method called divertion, just like my “expert” used with me to divert me, he diverted the topic so that he doesn’t have to replay “I don’t know”
Man you are on a "radio" interview we don’t "see" you, abuse the situation, google it!! I did and the answer is 7

Cheers,
O

P.S.
For further details on Earthquake Severity
Richter Earthquake
Magnitudes Effects

Less than 3.5 Generally not felt, but recorded.

3.5-5.4 Often felt, but rarely causes damage.

Under 6.0 At most slight damage to well-designed buildings. Can cause major damage to poorly constructed buildings over small regions.

6.1-6.9 Can be destructive in areas up to about 100 kilometers across where people live.

7.0-7.9 Major earthquake. Can cause serious damage over larger areas.

8 or greater Great earthquake. Can cause serious damage in areas several hundred kilometers across.

Last night...

I had a sudden feeling of discomfort some alarming cry inside of me saying that the time is passing and passing really fast and I’m no where near what I want to reach, usual symptoms of a classic panic attack,

so after squash I thought I need to take a walk by the see to clear my mind and think out loud, as I was walking I stumbled by a fishing net which cut of my string of thoughts for few minutes tell I set my self free, and then drowned back in my thoughts and worries,

as the tide was جزر in the distance I could see a cement port immerging from the water, I walked to it and I started walking inside reaching the edge looking at the black see dark and dead, I stood there thinking of the unknown of tomorrow and what tomorrow may bring,
my anxiety grew more and more so I turned back and started walking towards the shore, at that moment my thoughts has changed I become so alert and there was one though crossing my mind and it kept repeating it self “I’m not falling, I’m not falling, I’m not falling” as my face came closer and closer to the ground, Yes I slept and fall on my A** !! Lying there on that concrete floor wet and covered with traces sand, I started laughing, yes it’s my luck how can I escape it, it’s better that I just take in,

I laughed so hard that the smile stayed with me till this morning of course the fall pain is multiplied by the next day so I have a souring pain in my B*** to better describe it, you know when you get injection over there and you can’t sit? That’s exactly how it feels
I better quite worrying so much beside you never know what may cross your way, the most important thing is that you live it, cause it’s totally yours :D

Cheers,
O

Advice

I thought to my self, given the knowledge and understanding you have right now what could you have done differently in your life?

The way this question formed is that my brother got accepted in engineering :D and I need to provide him with advice as I have been entitled as the highest ranking consultants for his excellency :-P

Oh my god seven years has passed already, I’d say in my case what I came to learn in my college years is rather minimum compared to what I’ve learned and understood in my working years, but collectively I couldn’t have done one without the other

So beside the usual advice about the subjects, classes, studying, major and grades, I’d say by far relationships and communication skills is what you need to get out of that experience, in that rather limited controlled place you are allowed to meet people and have the chance to interact with them and start to learn more about human nature, in this place among the other students there is the equality factor which will disappear once you enroll in the working force as you’ll have to deal with people who unfortunately would actually have a saying on your working life whether you liked it or not

So as a person who has a gifted nature in making enemies in every place I step a foot in, my advice is develop your communication skills,
listen and listen carefully, you are still a young human what ever you think you know is still quite limited, take in all you can first and speak later,
understand the differences between humans, believe me, it’s rear that you’ll come across someone who would think the same as you are,
people understanding varies so be patient, people invented the word NO for a reason so use it,
when you have a problem speak out, consultation and advice can take you a long way,
after words the way that you present your self and your ideas and how you deal with people is your greatest asset, take my word for it, it’s more important than your certificate,
communication, debate and presentation, even if you all have the same answers, those three would make you or break you,
and finally the best place to develop leadership skills is there so maximize the value of the opportunity and make it a full learning experience

on the other hand, never, never and never neglect your relations for school always make time for human relations that really what matters and you can learn a thing or two from them

Set your priorities straight, you need to figure out for your self what matters the most in life, the only way you’d appreciate it is by finding it out by yourself

May God be with you and protect you always my Brother :*

Cheers,
Oryx

P.S. Don’t spend the next 5 years enshallah eating burgers!!

A lost life

In Victoria and Albert Museum I came a cross the following words, very sad and instantaneously touching , to think of it that she actually prepared the following verses to be engraved on the monument of her tomb

I
When the knell rung for the dying
soundeth for me
And my corse coldly is lying
neath the green tree

II
When the turf strangers are heaping
covers my breast
Come not to gaze on me weeping
I am at rest

III
All my life coldly and sadly
the days have gone by
I who dreamed wildly and madly
Am happy to die

IV
Long since my heart has been breaking
its pain is past
A time has been set to its aching
Peace come at last

E.G.W.&N.
Lady Emily Georgiana, Countess of Winchelsea and Nottingham

Knowledge

Volume 1 of 2

A friend of mine told me once that there was a recent research saying they've discovered that not only the brain has the neurons it's also found in the heart and the guts and through the research they also discovered how we humans receive information, based on the findings it says that when we first encounter information it gets transported from our senses to the heart and guts to be processed and then what's left will be moved forward to our brain, so really what ever information that gets to your mind has been purified by the heart and guts neurons, you probably have felt that before in intense piece of news that hurting feeling you get in your heart, that would also explain how when a group of people be in the same situation but each of would walk away with a different piece of information

When I was a little girl around 7 years old, I actually spent my break doing my home work, yeah yeah yeah even then I had a little geekness in me, so it happened as fallows, as I was setting by my desk a girl come and sat across from me and asked me; how come you have good grades?, one other thing I should mention she had an eye infection at that time so she looked at me with red eyes and that scared the hell out of me, I took my note book and went through the empty pages and said our brains both of us are empty, it's up to us to full them up just like these pages it's what you full them up with that makes them valued

I thought of that then and I still think of it now, to go through life you'll need and want to full your pages, and to full your pages you need others input too, and now I know that each of us holds in part of the puzzle and together we can help each other to understand

Each and every person has his his/her own special ways of looking at things and some has a continues flaw which within it you can feel them ALIVE, those precious few that I've been blessed with their company whom by their light I shall see my way more clearly….

Volume 2 of 2

Two years ago I was filling out an application for a summer job, the same old information except for one question, its says "write down three pro's and con's of Kuwaiti society" !!
Ok for the con's part the dotted spaces wasn't enough plus I was limited by only mentioning three
For the pro's, that took a while, I sat there thinking, what could it be classified as a distinct pro for the Kuwaiti society, I remember I wrote something because I really had to complete the application, but to sit down and seriously think of it I came up with the following three;

Among the rest of Arab nations we are there on the top of the rest for freedom of speech, even our glamorous neighboring Dubai their speaking rights are virtually non existing where they have no union's not even the right to strike, so that’s one
Feminine freedom, thank god for that, that’s two
I'm sorry but really I couldn't come up with a third!!, any suggestions?

Cheers,
O

Change

Girls seriously stop doing this, you are all becoming a total shame for the rest of us, at least what’s left of us, we the few others who are on the endangered species list,
In theory, as Kuwaiti females graduate from high school and college with the highest marks, a person would assume that through out generations and generations of highly educated females we would be dominant by now, at least career wise, but really I don’t get it, something happens like right after they get a job

My interpretation is that once a female has a degree and a job her total attention is shifted on getting married, and it’s true if you paid any attention what so ever to the behavioral changes in females after they get a job you can divided them mostly in two groups;

first I’d call them “the waiting” in definition those who put their lives on hold waiting for the moment they become wives and then life can resume, meanwhile they are already practicing the attitude of a 40 year old married woman with 5 kids and in their heads planning out their “future married life” to the finest detail

The other group I’d call them “the go getters” those who are out their snuffing for their prey all ready dressed up and on continues alert to jump in at all times,

Girls you are embracing us, what the hell happened to you?
You are Muslims for god’s sake doesn’t believing in destiny means any thing to you? If you are meant to be married it will happen, so quite the crap and do something of an actual worth!!!

what if you were meant to be married at 30 do you really want to go on waste a good 7 or 8 years in an empty pointless circle for either group,

I do believe that we are good enough that we have equal resources as men and probably even more, and if we can just start thinking straight our force can make a change make a difference each one in her desired filed,

alright even for those who can’t make that dramatic change, I heard all the lame excuses already, but at least I’m sure you can take 2 hours of your precious time two or three times a week and do something,

it shocks me to the core to know that a human being can spend an entire year without doing anything or even moving one step in any direction, at least, in case you don’t know the brain cells are like muscles so if you don’t train it, the poor thing, will be inactive, so please develop your brain,

alright forget the better good, don’t help others or anything, can’t you just do that to live your life as you? Don’t you want to have a character that is unique? Do you know what we are? We are individuals, there is nothing more relieving than living who you truly are, just stop being a copy of someone else and be you, don’t say I don’t know what to do or I don’t have the energy for it, figuring out what you want is part of the journey and there is nothing binding you can always change your mind

Cheers,
O