Enshallah!!

If I wrote this yesterday after the first encounter this would be something like,

“What the heck?! What kind of a world we live in, no morals no ethics no conscious??? Blah blah blah”

And I’ll go on and on loaded with anger and frustration, acting as if I was a sleep and suddenly woke up, tartata, and found my self in Kuwait!!
As if I didn’t spend the last quarter of a century in this land
As if it never happened before and I never heard of it
As if evil has JUST reveled it self

You know what now after I calmed down a bite, mo meny but from lack of sleep and self starvation followed by a continues state of food fag3ah,
I know if I wrote that and posted it, it would be “shame on me”
Walla min 9iji shino hal amnesia walla hal hallucination that I have about people and this country?!
It would be that I’m kidding myself and having myself in a constant state of denial

Grow up woman, yes people lie, yes people cheat and hell yes their motto is “I and after me comes the Flood”

Now days that’s what they call common sense, hatha el 6abey3ey, what’s wired and what’s shocking is to find someone who’d act differently and that’s either called naive or safyeh!!

You only get to live this life once and I no matter what the gains or the “stuff” that I may get, I’d rather not live that life at all if it was in those people brains, al7mdellah I’m me, when I think of it those who may sound on the outside successful and getting what they want in that way, then Thanks but no thanks, keep your things to you I don’t want it that way, I happen to have something called conscious, probably you haven’t heard of it!!

I’d ask my self why? and I’d answer, cause they are week and sick, they are afraid and in the end only lying to them selves and it’s easy so easy to do that
You can lie, you can scream, you can swear, you can cheat, you can pick the phone and get your big W
It’s no brainier and not that hard, I and an 8 year old can do the same
But guess what I choose not to, I choose to do things right even when that’s defined in this time and age as stupidity, I choose to not lower my self to that level
And that is hard; what’s easy is to be you...

It’s easy to be 7ayawan but the hard thing is to be Ensan
You made your choice and I’ve made mine

Today is my two years work anniversary, so I’m at two years old in the real world, and I am happy that what ever I faced didn’t swallow me in on the contrary it only made me stronger

Al7mdellah,
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