Sunday, September 30, 2007

Wedy a9adgik bs qaweya!!

العروس في الثانية والثمانين والزوج السعيد في الرابعة والعشرين في الارجنتين

بوينس ايرس (ا ف ب)- تزوجت سيدة في الثانية والثمانين من العمر بشاب يبلغ من العمر 24 عاما الجمعة في سانتا (470 كلم شمال العاصمة الارجنتينية بوينس ايرس) وهما يستعدان للسفر لقضاء شهر العسل في ريو دي جانييرو بالبرازيل.
وقال الزوج رينالدو وافيكشي لدى خروجه مكتب بلدية سانتا حيث ابرم عقد القران "لطالما احببت النساء الناضجات ولا آبه لما يقوله الاخرون".
من جانبها قالت العروس اديلفا فولبس انها كانت صديقة ام العريس التي طلبت منها قبل ان تموت الاهتمام بابنها الذي كان يبلغ من العمر 15 عاما.
واضافت "كان صغيرا ووحيدا لكن منذ اليوم الاول لعيشنا المشترك اصبح يكمل احدنا الاخر بشكل جيد. ثم تطورت العلاقة وبدأت تأخذ طريقا آخر. فتحت له قلبي وعرضت ان تتطور الامور". وقال الزوج ان العلاقة "ولدت على اساس الاحترام والحياة المشتركة ونحن لا نهتم بفارق العمر" مؤكدا ان "الحب وحده هو الذي يجمعنا ولا توجد اي مصلحة مادية (..) اديلفا ليس لها ابناء ليس لديها احد وقريبها الوحيد . وتابع بفخر "احبها وهي كل ما لدي في الحياة وهي المراة التي اخترتها

Saturday, September 29, 2007

...مراسي غربتي


I started out this month with the post “Straight, Single and Senny Valentino” ridiculing the guys that we have in the sa7ah, and having a wish to find a good one…

Currently,

I moved on to sleep in the middle of the bed, happened sometime last weekend, for the past decade or so I’ve concurred the right side of the bed, my spot, my little version of the “elwesadah el’7aleyah” movie, miss Girly and Dreamy typical behavior,

some time this year my convicted romanticism has withered with some reality checks and I day by day have lost my appetite for romance, my dear sweet Mirandarousa has made an attempt to revive my beating heart and oh she nailed me, got me …. Back to my old state of mind, but as time goes by I’ve surrendered again….

I’d really like to rationalize this and most importantly to segregate any conclusion from the usual concepts that our beloved society’s culture impose on our poor minds, so let me just go with the flow of my ideas,
Yes I admit, like any other straight adult female I’d like to have a male companion, not for the, you know what, but for all those things that you can only get from your opposite sex, for me as a female, I’d like care, tenderness accompanied with strength and wisdom, light soul, simple and clear values,

I want to walk with you hand in hand…

Not to be able to experience the touch of a male companion in my life became my number one reason for all the sadness I’m going through, I blame it for everything even a red traffic light!!

That’s so not me, it didn’t matter that much before, it was like a wish, a little something extra, but never like I’m missing a leg,

Void I find in me, even with every moment in my day is occupied, still there is loss and emptiness, and I keep hanging all my shortcomings all my negative feelings all my unhappiness on that missing touch

I want to put my head on your shoulder….

I know that I can’t plan for, work for, search for, that I can’t do any thing about it, it’s fate!

Ideas keep juggling me back and forth, that didn’t bother me, at least not this much, before, a question keeps repeating it self in my head,

Will I ever have you?

Dismissing those ideas in the past was easy, I could even laugh them out, or create a very dreadful scenario that makes me thankful for not having a male companion, that is not working for me any more, I need something stronger, maybe a slap on my face and a good shake added with a screaming voice: WOMAN WAKE UP!!!

The above could be a good blend of post illness + pre period depression with a touch of frustration after a two consecutive failing shopping expeditions

I feel like a sand lost in a desert yearning to find the sea… to be touched by the waves

Will I ever be found?

Lost,
O

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

In an other part of the world

I keep hearing about Darfur all the time in the news, but without really paying much of attention until, by coincidence I got to watch for ten seconds the interview in Arabeyah tv with the Sudanese president Omar Al- Bashir and the thing that triggered my attention was this:

O, American’s care so much about the Darfur conflict because it has uranium!!!!

La walla??
So I did some googlling and couldn’t find any thing about uranium, I highly doubt there is uranium!! It’s the typical Arabs mentality consumed of “Conspiracy Theories”
Thought I’d share what I found with you

Darfur Conflict

More than 2m people are living in camps after fleeing more than four years of fighting in the region and they are vulnerable without peacekeepers.
Sudan's government and the pro-government Arab militias are accused of war crimes against the region's black African population, although the UN has stopped short of calling it genocide.
New peace talks are planned, but peace still looks a long way off.

How did the conflict start?

The conflict began in the arid and impoverished region early in 2003 after a rebel group began attacking government targets, saying the region was being neglected by Khartoum.
The rebels say the government is oppressing black Africans in favour of Arabs.
Darfur, which means land of the Fur, has faced many years of tension over land and grazing rights between the mostly nomadic Arabs, and farmers from the Fur, Massaleet and Zagawa communities.
There are two main rebel groups, the Sudan Liberation Army (SLA) and the Justice and Equality Movement (Jem), although both groups have split, some along ethnic lines.
Almost a dozen rebel groups now exist. Most will attend the talks in Libya, but one key leader, Abdul Wahid el-Nur, is boycotting the talks until the conflict ends.

What is the government doing?

It admits mobilising "self-defence militias" following rebel attacks but denies any links to the Janjaweed, accused of trying to "cleanse" black Africans from large swathes of territory.
Refugees from Darfur say that following air raids by government aircraft, the Janjaweed ride into villages on horses and camels, slaughtering men, raping women and stealing whatever they can find.

Many women report being abducted by the Janjaweed and held as sex slaves for more than a week before being released.
The US and some human rights groups say that genocide is taking place - though a UN investigation team sent to Sudan said that while war crimes had been committed, there had been no intent to commit genocide.
Sudan's government denies being in control of the Janjaweed and President Omar al-Bashir has called them "thieves and gangsters".
After strong international pressure and the threat of sanctions, the government promised to disarm the Janjaweed. But so far there is little evidence this has happened.
Trials have been announced in Khartoum of some members of the security forces suspected of abuses - but this is viewed as part of a campaign against UN-backed attempts to get some 50 key suspects tried at the International Criminal Court in The Hague.

Interruption:

يعلن الديوان الملكى انه منذ يوم امس خر جسدنا صريعا اثر مواجهه معا الانفلونزا التي اكتسحتنا بشكل كامل,
لقد ربحت المعركه و ليس الحرب و لنا لقاء قادم باذن الله سيتكلل بالنصر انشاء الله
حتى اشعار اخر
انتهى!

Cheers,
O

Monday, September 24, 2007

Will I ever get used to this?

My brother fractured his foot bone, he was rushed to the hospital in an ambulance last night during his working shift, and they had to put a cast on it, so we swapped parking spots he took the one on the back of the house and I took the one in front,
“The back of our house is facing the mosque”

So after work today I got him a cane so he can support him self on it and on the way I got myself my favorite delicious Znood :D

Parked the car got the stuff out and walked into the house, it took me couple of minutes to reach my room cause I had to pass by the kitchen, and as I just stepped in my mom fallowed me

Mom, Do you know who just called?
Me, who?
Mom, our neighbor!! “there house is the one next the house opposite to ours”
Me, and??
Mom, she called to ask what are you doing with the cane????
Me, !!!!!! Middaha?? Mita?? What ??! there was no one in the street, it’s 43 degrees out there!!!
Then I remembered el be3thah el da2mah for KUNA, she is watching over from borg el moragabah!!!

It’s been 12 days since Ramadan started, you didn’t bother your self to pick up the phone to congrat on the holly month, and the second you see me with a cane you call in the speed of lightning??!?

Walla seriously woman, get a life!!
It’s for you they have invented something called tv, watch it!!
And if you like to watch “live” events, try out football matches and game shows,

Ely ba6 chabdey that setrey 3la nafsich, don’t let us know that you are watching us!! She acted as if it was her God Given Right to know, woman it’s OUR business, if we came asking for your help then ask, but no one das lich 3la 6araf!!

Kuwaitis they can’t get enough, if some one stopped in the right side of the street, every one on that street and the street next to them, meaning all four lanes and the opposite four lanes would stop to see what’s going on, even if it was accident, they wouldn’t go and help, no god forbids, just watch, have an event for today, something happened and they got to see it, and by that it comes out of the harmless and annoying, it becomes harmful and sometimes lethal!!

Seriously, she_elsalfah, shino hal legafah el zaydah?!!?!
Is it in the genes? Is it a law that they have to obey it or they’ll get a ticket – o ana ma adrey - ?
Or is it that their lives so damn empty all they can do is watch over others!!!

I keep thinking “sitting by the window and having her phone in her lap” I won’t be surprised if she has a magnifying glass + night vision equipment!!!

Cheers,
O

P.S. Allah ey3eyney I'll be parking over there for a whole month!

My Most Precious Positions

Screaming, as two men, one is huge grapping me from behind, the other trying to release my fist,
“you can cut my hands off before you take my USB!!”
Woman!! What’s wrong with you?!, BTW it’s your hand we are talking about!!
As he almost broke my fingers open, took my USB and my Showtime subscription ;-(
Walla I’m starting to consider the messages sent by my inner brain,

Allah yer7am el days when my dreams, where lovely and they’ve made sweet stories

Back in 2006

Living with people in the desert, in a far away time,
they have a special day of the year they call it energy day in it all unmarried people would go out in the desert and find their source of energy, I went out and as I walked I saw a stream of water and stepped in,

And there I found my peace my serenity, then draw nearer a man who saw me,

So for him to experience my small spot he had to be really close,
then he went on to trace the source of water,
I was with him walking in his direction,
but I realized I was floating so I turned around and told him that I’m walking on air and he looked at me and smiled,
he was carrying me all the way,

after a while the day has ended and they started to call out the people to come back,
as we returned people greeted my guy and I discovered that he was the prince

so what happens next is that every one must go rest and get prepared for the night where each bachelor will announce his bride

The night came and we started to enter the grand tent, when I entered there was something wearied going on,
there was another girl who was setting next to my prince and when I approached him he looked at me and he was unhappy then I stopped and he stopped to announce his bride and it wasn’t me, it was the other girl,

Out of the tent I ran and ran in to the desert because when I walked out one of the prince body guards followed me so I wanted to hide from him and I saw in the distance a tenet of an other country and went to hide inside,

the other side of it was magical and I was able to see what happened in the past and what is happening in the present,

That afternoon as the prince was resting in his tenet he received a poem that gives him direction to marry the other girl and that was a promise made by his father and he must obey,
After I left he went after me and then I saw the body guard trying to enter the tenet where I went but a massive fire happened and the people who own this tenet required help so they told the prince about the fire and he helped them but they couldn’t find me so they all thought I was dead

And the prince heart was broken and I stayed trapped looking over him always

Cheers,
O

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Still

Back to Ahmadi, again!, to avoid the madness, this time through 9ab7an,
there was something in the still distance of the ever yellow desert,
water was over flowing from the ground,
and a pool was forming as the water kept on pouring from that square hole,

I wanted to call 777 to tell them about it, so they can come and do something, but I didn’t, remembering few incidents with the “defenders of the weak” made me think of all possible excuses not to call, I came up with a couple:

What if by the time they arrive “if ever” the water finish!! ey’7ali9 and with our sun, it will be dried in no time, if I get to make those people come here without finding any thing they’d probably charge me with “ez3ag solo6at” !! mesakien I made them move!!!

It’s happening in the desert why can’t I let the poor land drink some water, it must be really thirsty

By the time I’ve reached the second excuse I’ve already passed it by and without doing anything (shame on me)

…….

Walking in to the office and “he” was sitting there wearing a red polo shirt listening to M7md 3bd elwahab, Ana w el 3aZab w hawak = Me and the suffering and your love, I looked at him

“I didn’t know…”
“don’t think I’ll be in pain, not any more, I’m sending you off, for a year on the other end of the world”
“will I be back?”

I woke up, god that was scarey!!! I guess that was coming from my feeling of guilt,
If I hate someone, I believe that gives them the absolute right to hate me back, but to love me as I hate them, that is just unfair,
I was asking god that eysa’7rah ley
Bas ‘7ala9, 6ofart minah, athaney
And there is no way I can think of or imagine to deal with this person!!!

My work has a great area in my life, and as he exists in it, then he exists in my life,
Oh my god what can I do??!!?!? ;-(

……

Taking cautious steps and searching for them, looking in to the faces of woman, spreading around setting on the floor, in front of each a plastic cup of water and few dates, some would have a piece of bred others would hold in there hands leaves of ray7an, and it’s so calm, I can’t hear what they say as if it’s a still picture,
Young women holding their child to their breasts,
Old women setting quietly leaning to the grand columns,
Some women would go around to give, water, food, a smile
It’s time now, I couldn’t find them, I walk back to my place,

Standing by my side, I hear a trembling voice, a cry and a prayer, I can hear what she is asking, I know what she is praying for and my heart cries with her a silent cry, pleading for her daughter, may god answer your prayers dear mother…

And we pray,
with each movement, I hear the clouds moving,
the sound when they are racing before a storm,
and it’s glory alarms my heart, in an instant tranquility, and I blend in…

Hands reaching, grapping the black fabric, holding, unyielding, it’s so great and powerful, beyond sound, beyond tears, I see the cry in their tightened hands

Cheers,
O

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

A Journey of Soul Healing - Enshallah


Enshallah I’ll off to Holy Makkah in few hours,

No more work!! Meaning any work related;
emails,
phone calls,
meetings,
requests,
enshallah none of the above!!
(Oh My God, is this what my life turned to?! Work orinted!! Yakh)

Expected to be back enshallah on Saturday night

Interruption:

I need to break down…
I need to cry…
I need to let my weakness take over me…

To be separated from the world and just be by my self

How selfish my reasons are

People would go to ask
For forgiveness
For mercy
For happiness
For health
For heaven

And I ask
To be comforted
To take off the weight I have on my shoulders
To make sense of life
So I can go on
So I can understand
So I can accept what’s destined
So I can live


Take Care,
O

Sunday, September 16, 2007

A little story

In a far a way land,
there was a kingdom,
they were living in peace and harmony,

one day the king got sick,
at his nose,
all the doctors of the kingdom couldn’t cure the king,
there was only one way to stop the disease from spreading to his body,
they had to cut his nose,
so now the king has no nose,

and in every time he meets with his ministers,
the ministers start to giggle and chuckle at him,
the next day the King has made an order,
“All the noses of the ministers have to be cut!”
now the ministers has no nose,

and when they meet the people,
people chuckle at them,
so all the ministers agreed,
“All the noses of the people have to be cut!”
now the entire Kingdom has no nose,

Years later,
a lost stranger passed by the kingdom,
when people saw him,
they all started laughing,
cause he had a nose

Friday, September 14, 2007

The Signal Journal days 6 to 7

First Day fo6or

In a room with a dozen people, sitting in a chair right next to Yehia, holding a mug of tea and laughing,
An hour before I and Ayad arrived to Yehia’s home, he invited us for fo6or, came to pick us with his fiancé and there we where, meet with his sisters and mom and right after us the rest of his family, aunts, uncles and cousins started to arrive

After a brief weather conversation, a typical stranger’s topic, it was time to have fo6or,
I must say it’s very similar to the one we have in Kuwait,
Break our fast with dates, followed by soup and then food, lots of food :D

As I was sipping my soup, I felt a chock up my throat, so sudden and strong sadness that hit me, I’m not with my family, I could have braked crying right there and then but I had an other sip, swallowed my soup and with it my cry…

Now standing by the table taking food Yehia’s mom saw my plate and without asking took it from me and wouldn’t bring it back till it was full, of everything!!

Rice, two types of chicken, meet, ma7shey, béchamel, oh my god that was a lot, but the food was great, and I was starving :-P

After the huge feast, we prayed el ma’3reb gama3ah, my god that felt so peaceful and I felt God is taking care of me, al7mdellah

Back to the room, the comfort that comes from them is effortless, they treat you as they’ve known you for ever, and they act so natural, not stiff or pretending, easy going and can joke about any thing so fluently

Of course for me, after I stuffed my self with food, breathing and moving was a very hard thing to do, so I laid back and started listening to there conversations

Ayad was sitting in the opposite side of me, every time he would speak about the gulf country or people, he would look at me, I don’t know why, was it reassurance or inviting me to step in to the dialogue but I kept silent cause really my head was having difficulty getting blood since all of it went to my stomach,

An hour later he looked at me and gave me the signal, it’s an eye contact based signal pronouncing it’s time to leave, I want to go and you should go with me, a very stupid smile came across my face!?!? I blinked yes and off we went back to the hotel

There was a plan that I wanna go wild for few hours before I leave Cairo, my definition of going wild is, going and having so7or out, let’s just say I’m starving right now,
first of all I had a flight to catch enshallah tomorrow and the real first of all is I’m ‘7awafah, I don’t see how I’m going to tell my parents, you know what I went out at 11
pm and came back the next morning!! At dawn!!

Various,

I fell on my knees in the street and I hurt my left knee pretty bad, it’s swollen and blue
I spilled hot water on my fingers as I was making tea
My wisdom tooth is growing, again!!

Other than that, I’m fine al7mdellah


Second day fo6or

Sitting alone at a table in Starbucks at Dubai Airport waiting for my flight back enshallah to Kuwait
Have my fo6or on a sandwich and a Perrier, that’s pathetic

Ayad and I by pure coincidences had the same flight back, when I first stepped down from the room this morning to check out, I told the concierge I’m waiting for someone, few minutes later,

C, tela2ey 9adey2teik lessa ma 9e7yetch
M, no he is here
C, mien ? fein?
M, pointing at Ayad
C, …..

A bit later

Con, Your friend is coming!!!
Maha’s head, eshme3na hathy el jomlah bel tha_at in English? Miste7ey etgooly 9a7bik is coming???

At the Airport

The guy who carries the bags

The Guy, Dah gowzik?
M, No
The Guy’s face, a dirty smile!!!
Maha’s head, WHAT THE HELL!!!!

That’s the thing in all Arab society; you can either be married or be a Bitch and her Bastred, people with rotten minds!!!

The true element that creates the moment is human actions, I must say that I’ve been very fortunate in this trip that the human element of it was great, nice people, good company and simple

And for me, it was so natural and 3ady, before when I get to travel with guys at work, I hardly remember any of them being Arab, and I thought maybe that’s why it’s very natural and easy to be with them, but even this time it felt the same and much better given that we speak the same language and understand each other better, I did enjoyed his company, but purely as a friend, shame it had to stop right there and then as we said good bye and each walked in his own path in life

The End

Cheers,
O

Update,

Perfect moment, 19:45

if any of our actions would have been delayed by a fraction of second we would have missed each other, if I stopped for one more second checking the bags or if I looked the other way or someone would pass right in front of me, but nothing of that has happened, as I was walking to my gate a figure emerged ascending from the escalator, and there I was face to face with him, again :’) guess it’s not so dramatically final, as long as it’s destined for our paths to cross, then it shall be…

Thursday, September 13, 2007

*Dem3ah Journal Days 3 to 5



Thinking, “Oh Shit, I don’t have time to have breakfast and walk to the office” wait a minute woman, it’s Ramadan!!

Having my First Ramadan Day away from home,

No “what are you cooking for today?” or “what’s for desert?” or “fighting with my brothers over the remote”

It doesn’t feel like it ….

@ work, I’m sooo pissed to a point that I might get paralyzed, any ways, after going there and waiting for 55 minutes and spending an hour and a half to get a response, the reaction was in slow motion!! As I was about to complete that project from hell and get rid of it, guess what??

What could happen to me? Miss Maha or should I say miss Fab Luck Queen?
The fire alarm turns on!!!

Important note 1, the PFH should have been submitted yesterday
Important note 2, we are located at the 12th floor

So here we are an entire building rushing down the stairs for 12th floors, crossing two streets and waiting in the parking lot, I was having a nervous break down, while others around me where pausing to take photographs!!!

I’m now back again to my dear laptop, 30 minutes later, anyways enough of this crap, I sent it and enshallah, ya raby ya 7abyby fokiny min hal low3at el chabd,
2 minutes later, my client wants to see me on Sunday
and my #$?!!#. Want me to work on Saturday!!
I had only one replay, Man my traveling time is 10 Hours, and I happen to be fasting and the entire last week was … I don’t want to even talk about it, it’s exhausting


On an other note

My Diners for the past couple of days,

Monday, Friday’s since it’s located in a walking distance from the hotel
Tuesday, Abu el Seid that place was IMPRESSIVE!!! An old Arabisk style villa in a quite neighborhood, you can easily mistake it for a house, the atmosphere is so comfy and warm, every thing was screaming, you are in Egypt of the last century, chandlers, seating of old style sofa and the tables, every thing was just as it should be, perfect, the food was all Egyptian traditional menu of doves and rabbits, LoooL :D
I didn’t eat any of that stuff, I had molo’7eyah bel fera’7 and white rice, that was sooo delicious, coming from a very picky food person, after that it was fallowed by tea and mahalabeyah, leaving the food aside the company was great, I laughed so hard :D
They say that this place started to open branches; I guess if it opens in Kuwait, it would be a great hit

Wednesday, Grand Hyatt, seating by the Neil the weather now is getting chilly
We stayed there talking for hours, basically me and Ayad where pitching to every one about our hypocrite societies and how we have become victims of the “transitional period” as Ayad likes to call it
I didn’t think that far in to the future before, any ways I’ll talk about this in detail later enshallah

For now, I’m just saying that I did have a good time

The thing is on the way to the hotel, we got lost and all the sudden we where inside a street in a 7arah!!! I thought that it only existed in the movies, but no I was there and I saw the gahwah and the tiny streets and all the other surrounding shops oh my god, that was something

So until now I’m not sure where I’m going to have fo6or for tonight…

Anyways,

Mbarak 3likom el Shahar o 3asakom min 3awadah

Cheers,
O

*Dem3ah: basically its Daqoos!!

P.S. A warm Congrat’s to my Angel Maryam for her new job :D may Allah bless you and eywafgich my SunShine :*

Sunday, September 9, 2007

*Genuine **Borio - Journal days 1 to 2

I woke up and there I was in the back seat of a taxi in the middle of two men shouting at each other

El Shawyesh: ma te2darsh et3adey min hina, mamno3!!
Sawa2 el taxi: ya3ney eyh? Da ana bashta’3ala …..

I looked at the taxi driver and told him to just stop any where and let me get out of here

I arrived there few hours ago, and there I found my self back in Egypt, last time I was there I believe was in 2002 where I stayed in Cairo for a night to catch my flight back to Kuwait

I was successful to block the memories of that land for the past 5 years, but now every thing came rushing back

It’s not hate what I have for that place; I can’t tell what it could be…

We arrived late but some how because they’ve changed the timing we were actually 15 mints early

Getting out of the airport was very smooth, al7mdellah, arriving to the hotel showering, getting dressed and then off we went to Grand Hayatt, the place to be in Cairo on a Friday night

Setting by the Nile, boats where passing by, the weather is cool, and I ask my self again, what is it?
It’s heart break, the huge gap between people, it’s poverty, excruciating poverty and after you have your big meal in a fancy place you step out and there you see it with your own eyes,

Next morning, going around the city fetching for stuff, of course unsuccessfully, the things you see out there on the street are quite original,

Sign reads; “Doctor Decent Excellent” you start to wonder if Doctor is his occupation or name

We arrived to the boat where we are supposed to have launch,
a flash back; “6 years ago a little boy selling flowers emerged out of no where it was so sudden that my mom screamed “’7ara3tney” and he replayed “ya3ney eyeh ‘7are3teney?” I think he was 5 years old”
finished launch and as I was reaching for the Taxi door a boy emerged right in front of me selling flowers, an other Egyptian guy came and sent him away,
In the taxi, the thought that this boy could be the same boy years ago scares me… could it be?

Looking from the window, to the Nile shore, it’s like lovers spot
I’m starting to build a theory that romanticism flourish near rivers!! Around every corner you’ll find two seating together holding hands, talking and facing the river,

The entire population has an engagement / wedding ring, even that flower boy who could be a 12 year old!!

I’m in the bath room now just about to step in the bath tube to take a shower when the phone started ringing, covered with a towel went out there to answer it;

Maha, are you a sleep?
No
How are you?
Fine, who is this?
Ayad, “the guy with me in the course”
And we continued talking, in English??

After I hang up

Mom, who was that?
Maha, Ayad
Mom, what did he say?
Maha, he asked me out for dinner, and I said no
Mom, What!!! Why let him come and have dinner with us!!
Maha’s head; if we where in Kuwait and someone whom I’ve never met calls me up and you answer and hand it over to me “I’m not even commenting on that” to ask me out for dinner and I say no, you’d kill me either way!!

In the taxi again, window open, variety of
Smells; Donkey
Garbage
Manure
Dust particles that would actually cause you an injury while smashing to your face
Water particles which I don’t want to think what other option it might be

Passing by the TV building, I still remember in the “fawazier” where Nielly would be dressed in purple, she used to wear it as a hat

Setting next to me now a little 3 year old girl golden logs blue eyes, when I speak to her she doesn’t understand a word I say, so for the first time since I came here I converted and started speaking Egyptian, we sat there drawing a house a tree a flower a cloud and grass, then she took the paper fold it and put it in her bag…
An a 8 year old boy join us, comes in and gives me a big hand shake a kiss on my cheek
I do love kids…

I walk by and I look at my reflection in the mirror, I’m pleased that yes my reflection is different, yes I’ve grown, I deserve it, it sure cost me a lot

In the morning, I see him setting across from me in the lobby, he didn’t see me yet, I can tell it’s him, it’s time to practice my latest formed theory about dealing with men, let him make the first move, always

We are now setting together talking, no spark, an other theory, since I’ve dealt with guys before, I’m waiting for the moment when I meat a guy and there would be a spark, I can totally differentiate between relationships I can have with a guy, but for that special someone I’d like to be involved with romantically there should be a spark

255 Emails, I have to go through them, urgent work, sure everything urgent, Mr, A#$ H0%#& who is supposed to handle things since I’m away, sends me this:

I’m confident in your ability to complete… yeah right!!

I’m so tired….

Cheers,
O

*Shop name which sells fake bags, yeah right!!
**That’s what a sign which looks exactly like Orio white and blue but here it’s Borio, laa 9ij walla kilish mo baygeynha!!!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

That’s why God has created Divorce!!

زوج غيور جدا
لقي اربعة اشخاص مصرعهم
واصيب ستة آخرون حين فجر زوج غيور قنبلة يدوية في منزله في شمال فيتنام.
وذكرت مصادر الشرطة ان دينه فان تو، 29 عاما، انتزع مسمار امان قنبلة يدوية خلال نقاش ساخن مع زوجته حول اشاعات بأنها تقيم علاقة عاطفية مع رجل آخر.
وقال نائب رئىس الشرطة في منطقة كاو لوك باقليم لانغ سون على بعد 150 كيلومترا شمال شرق هانوي ان الانفجار قتل على الفور زوجته، نجوين ثي لوي وشقيقته دينه تو فونغ
.وقال المسؤول انه قتل ايضا في الانفجار ضابط شرطة وعمدة القرية الذي جاء الى منزل تو في محاولة للتوسط في الخلاف.ونقل الى المستشفى ستة اشخاص آخرون، بينهم تو نفسه وعشيق زوجته المشتبه فيه مصابين بجروح.

A Comment


الودائع البنكية تقارب 17 مليارا
فائض الميزان التجاري يتجاوز 5 مليارات دينار في النصف الاول
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عرض 'الشال' ما تضمنته النشرة الاحصائية الفصلية (ابريل ـ يونيو 2007) لبنك الكويت المركزي (نشرت على موقعه على الانترنت)، من مؤشرات اقتصادية ونقدية، 'تستحق تطوراتها متابعة وتوثيقا'.وقال ان من هذه المؤشرات، مثلا، ان إجمالي عدد السكان في الكويت بلغ، في نهاية النصف الأول من العام الحالي، نحو 3.328 ملايين نسمة، وهو رقم يزيد بنحو 145.1 ألف نسمة، تقريبا، عن الرقم الذي سجله تعداد نهاية العام الفائت،
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ما يعني أن معدل النمو نصف السنوي لعدد السكان قد سجل نسبة 4.56%، وهي نسبة ستصل إلى 9.12%، فيما لو حسبت على أساس سنوي، وفي فقرة أخرى من التقرير نفسه نذكر تفاصيل أرقام السكان والعمالة من المصدر، أي الهيئة العامة للمعلومات المدنية. الميزان التجاري
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ومن هذه المؤشرات، أيضا، تحقيق الميزان التجاري -صادرات سلعية ناقصا واردات سلعية،- فائضا بلغ نحو 2.692 مليار دينار، في الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بعد أن بلغت قيمة صادرات الكويت السلعية، خلال هذا الربع، نحو 4.294 مليارات دينار كويتي، منها نحو 95.4% صادرات نفطية، بينما بلغت قيمة وارداتها السلعية (لا تشمل العسكرية) نحو 1.602 مليار دينار. وكانت الكويت حققت فائضا، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، بلغ نحو 2.434 مليار دينار، أي ان الميزان التجاري قد حقق فائضا، بلغ نحو 5.126 مليارات دينار، في النصف الأول من العام الحالي، أو نحو 10.251 مليارات دينار، فيما لو حسب لكامل عام 2007، وهو فائض أقل، بما نسبته 11.15%، عن مثيله القياسي المحقق، في عام 2006، البالغ نحو 11.538 مليار دينار، ولكن فائض عام 2007 الفعلي يعتمد على حركة أسعار النفط، التي مازالت مرتفعة.الفائدة
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وتشير النشرة إلى انخفاض المعدل الموزون للفائدة على الودائع، إلى نحو 5.282%، في الربع الثاني، من نحو 5.413%، في الربع الأول من العام الحالي، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي تقارب 2.4%، وانخفض، كذلك، المعدل الموزون للفائدة على القروض، إلى نحو 8.588% من نحو 8.759%، للفترة نفسها، أي بنسبة انخفاض ربع سنوي قاربت 1.95%. وبلغ حجم الودائع، لدى البنوك المحلية، نحو 16.906 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الثاني من العام الحالي، بارتفاع طفيف عن مستوى 16.491 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، أي بنسبة ارتفاع ربع سنوي بلغت نحو 2.5%. وارتفعت، كذلك، مطالب البنوك على القطاع الخاص، إلى نحو 19.109 مليار دينار كويتي، من مستوى نحو 17.134 مليار دينار كويتي، في نهاية الربع الأول، محققة نسبة نمو ربع سنوي قاربت 11.5%، وهي نسبة نمو مرتفعة، لابد من مراقبتها. يحدث ذلك رغم ثبات سعر الخصم، وانخفاض جاذبية الودائع بانخفاض سعر الفائدة عليها، وانخفاض تكلفة الاقتراض معها، ما يعني أن هناك توسعا نقديا، معه أنهى الربع الثاني من عام 2007 على ارتفاع كبير في أسعار الأصول المالية والعقارية
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So if we simply took that amount and divided it among the people, each one would get 10,000KD “that gives you a whole new perspective for the 200KD!!”
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I’d rather that all that extra money for this year only would be used to construct an infrastructure for this poor country, for gods sake “فج الليت انت مو فالكويت” beyond the fashlah this is serious issue!!
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And people and consumption is not going any less it’s only heading upward so please, wagfow el “S, in English and B, in Arabic” for one year and invest in the welfare of the country, “power stations, streets, sewage, waste management; in your definition it’s what you do when you dump waste to the see, medical services; we know all the ‘7yas after the astegwab of wazyer el 9e7ah, schools, etc”
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I think you do live in this land, don’t you? And enshallah allah ey3aw’9kom next year and you can “S or B” as much as you like!!
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And of course you are not going to spend the entire amount in the first year, so if we take what we need and have a bit for emergency and put the rest for investments for the rest of the year so out of the 17,000,000,000 Kd that we have extra, how much would be the initial cost to build a new city? “cause improving the one we have would be waste of time and money”
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So that would be a God giving project to save and develop the country and put the ‘7ayer of the land in the land, by the way we are a desert country, mo 9ayreynly 3yen 3atharey, at least have pity on us, ma nakser al’7a6er??
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Cheers,
O

Monday, September 3, 2007

الوداع

حبيبي لقد حانت لحظة الوداع
اغرق في ذكريات لقائنا الاول
منذ اربعة اعوام حين التقينا
استقريت في مكاني احدق بك لا يسعني الا النظر اليك
ساكنه لا تتحرك الا عيناي تتبعك حتى تحفظ ادق تفاصليك
شاركتني كل شيئ
لم نفترق الا لايام يملئني فيها الشوق فاعود اليك
انت يا رفيق دربي كم اعشقك
ساذكرك دائما عندما تمطر, كم كنا نحب المطر
كيف كان يجمعنا و يعزلنا عن العالم
يا من كنت اركض اليه, حتى اختبئ في حضنه الدافئ
لقد كنت لي ملجئا و مهربا
لقد كنت الاول و ذالك لن بغيره شيئ ابدا
ستظل دائما بقلبي ترسم ذكرياتك الابتسامة على شفتي
و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا يوما
فيك قوتي فكم يكيت على ذراعيك حتى جف دمعي
فيك راحتي فكم حملتك من اعبائي و اسراري
كم قسوت عليك و حملتك اكثر مما تتحمل و مع ذلك لم تخذلني يوما
فالعذر كل ما اطلب منك الان
القدر الذي جمعنا جاء الان حتى يفرق بيننا
لن تكون بعيدا فعنوانك هنا في صدري
ساشتاق اليك في كل صباح, دوما
و ان التقينا يوما ساغمرك بابتسامتي
و ان افترقنا الان فقد كنا معا, كنت لي و كنت لك لن يستطيع الفراق ان يغير ذلك
اليوم كل منا يسير في طريقه من غير الاخر
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ازف الرحيل و حان ان نتفرقا
فالى اللقا يا صاحبي الى اللقا
ان تبكيا فلقد بكيت من الاسى
حتى لكدت بادمعي ان اغرقا
و تسعرت عند الوداع اضلعي
نارخشيت بحرها ان احرقا
مازلت اخشى البين قبل وقوعه
حتى غدوت و ليس لي ان افرقا
يوم النوى, لله ما اقسى النوى
لولا النوى ما ابغضت نفسي البقا
رحنا حيارى صامتين كانما
للهول نحذر عنده ان ننطقا
اكبادنا خفاقه و عيوننا
لا تستطيع من البكا ان ترمقا
نتجاذب النظرات وهي ضعيفة
و نغالب الانفاس كيلا تزهقا
لو لم نعلل باللقاء نفوسنا
كادت مع العبرات ان تتدفقا
يا صاحبي تصبرا فلربما
عدنا و عاد الشمل ابهى رونقا
ان كانت الايام لم ترفق بنا
فمن النهى بنفوسنا ان نرفقا
ان الذي قدر القطيعة و النوى
!!..في وسعه ان يجمعع المتفرقا

حبيبي اتمنى لك كل الخير
الى" بعيري" سيارتي

...سافتقدك
مها

للبيع جيب ذهبي بحاله ممتازه مديل 2003 ماشي 100,000 P.S.
من ديوان ابي ماضي – وداع و شكوى*

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Straight, Single & Senney Valentino

All good guys are taken by now “I’m only talking about specifically my age group”
What’s left is the following:

What men are and that’s divided to what they think they are and what they really are;

They all have girlfriend(s) each one would have more than one

Kings on earth for the sole reason he is a man

Knows every thing and understand everything, yes Einstein

Life is simple for him cause he already got it all figured out

Having no goals, shino ya3ney having no goals?!, they have goals many goals al7yen he goes and he makes goals for you bel sekkah!!!

His long distanced desire, weyn ba6la3 el yom?

Has no degree, why should he eyta3eb nafsah having education and learning to get a degree, don’t you know that he has connections?!

His hobby, Dewaneyah, mo’7ayam, Shalaih, 7oby those are places not activities, give him the benefit of the doubt and ask him what do you do in those places?
Swalif, nel3ab Koot bo 6, eat, ne’9’3a6 ba3a’9, hmmm ee that’s about it
OH MY GOD Impressive!!!

Sports?? That’s a very very stupid question; only take a look at the places they park their cars to avoid walking for three lousy steps!!!

Any ideas, point of views about hmmm, give them a brake and let the question broad maybe they have something, any thing? The simple answer would be, why?

Reading? He doesn’t even read signs Mr. Know it all, would you honestly think that he’d read a book!!

He is always busy and has no time, I’d love to know what the hell he does in that time, wild guess, staring and gossiping, hmm yes someone has to do it in this country!!

Thinking that who speaks English are show offs and eytefalsfoon, not human being with an ability to actually speak and communicate in different language, baby you from all people should know how hard is that since it’s hard enough for you to speak in one!!

Ultimate success, having a paying job with no work to do for it

Their definition of manhood, the guy who can swear, hit, drive fast and have his womEn

What men want is:

Wa7dah that “Onothah 6a’3yah” 7ata low ohwa se7t eyeb elma7ey, excuse me never heard of a show called “extreme make over”??? External beauty can be achieved within 6 weeks my darling

Te6ba’7 is her most important asset, yal el3abgarey, in your life time at your house ma yebtow a maid who even doesn’t speak the language ma ta3lmt el cocking ehya and that goes on for the 6baby’7 too, males and females, tra it’s not making split of the atom!!

And goes without saying “no active brain” shay yeg3ad ey6al3ah o yeg3ad eyetkalam o eytekalam o ehya by all means ma etred wala et7achah o laykon she has an opinion, shino hatha b3d? hatha ely nagi9!! ohwa bs ely ey3aref kil shay entay Female tadreyn shino F.E.male???
For Entertaining Male
O bas!!

Wala enta ely have no idea what female is, and honestly there is no point in telling you cause it’s a waste of breath!! But there are things you need to know:

1)First of all F.E.M.A.L.E 3la goltik stands for;

Fundemental Element for Mankind to Acquire Life on Earth!!!

2)Body is a container, its fragile so fragile that any object can tare it apart and get your sole out of it, when you are with a human any human their body mo elley is talking to you or comforting you or making you feel, “people are felt rather seen after the first few moments*”,
Our remaining guys as if mo shayfeyn ‘7yer their time span lasts more than moments, may’7alif, but it does vanish that initial infatuation of looks,

After that you’ll find out that looks is not funny or caring, body is not warm, it’s not in the touch its in the way you touch, beauty is not in the eye, it’s the way you look, 3ayal imagine beautiful eyes with dirty looks, dirty meaning hating and degrading mo ….,

3) do you know how God judge us?? By our acts hon, do you know how people make actions and decisions? By something known as thoughts, do you know what’s collective thoughts of different life aspects would make? Personality
yes that’s right, that’s where you have your values, ideas, hopes, aspiration, character, uniqueness and in it all a power is formed and can be converted in to something valuable called LIFE, guess that’s too much for you to process in one day!!!

Wake up guys and somehow in this country you have been given a power, o el9ara7ah who is left are so not kaffow, to make the choice, looks wont stand by your side, it’s the person within if that’s what you are looking for still, then that’s what you totally deserve and thanks for making your self so identifiable so that you can be easily avoided!!

A wish:

I’ve retired of being a helpless romantic, but in my heart I'd like to make this wish, that I’d know or hear or see a guy that is admirable and fascinating, just to know that he exists,

back in the years when I was in the romanticize service, I use to think that, as in this time and age god has made someone like me, wouldn’t it make sense that there would be a male like me too? And that gave me hope but didn’t last long,

now I need that hope back even if I don’t get that guy, it would be such a relief to know that a guy exists,

someone true, caring, knows who he is and what he wants to be, has his own mind, someone who believes in god, that you can carry on with a conversation that would result of something even if it was as simple as a genuine smile, that you can depend on, some one who’d never look down to you just because you are a woman, who’d see in your growth and success an added value to you and to the relationship, someone who’d respect you even if he didn’t agree with you, someone who’d make you an equal and a priority not some sort of accessory, and why can’t he be that in an acceptable package, we work on ourselves to look nice can’t he?

Is it too much to ask?
O

*East of Eden by John Steinbeck